Loss Rainbow Loss (MadameOvary)

[madameovary]

Hi, all.  I recognize lots of names in the check ins here but not all.  My name is MadameOvary, and I was Q. fr_ump at the other place.  After a year of marriage my husband and I tried to start a family, and I was diagnosed with PCOS.  We did a round of clomid, and conceived our first.  At the 8 week visit the baby measured 6 weeks, then had no longer had a heartbeat the next week.  I took two rounds of cytotec.  It took over 4 months for my hcg levels to return to normal, in which time I had 3 regular ovulatory cycles.  

Two weeks before the first EDD, we found out we were expecting our rainbow "BBQ" after a femara treatment with the RE.  He is 20 months now,  still nurses, still doesn't STTN, but is so much fun and brings so much joy to our lives.  His smile melts my heart every time.

After not preventing since his first birthday, and actively trying as soon as my cycles resumed, , we were shocked and excited to get a BFP on a natural cycle.  It was too good to be true, and turned out to be a blighted ovum.  I took 3 doses of cytotec of the next week, and ended up needing a d&c.  After the procedure I felt great--so glad to be done with it.  Then the grief hit a few evenings later, and it.hit.hard.


I am so sorry that any of us are here, but I promise to be as supportive as I can to you all.  

[chknma]

I'm so sorry you find yourself over here. This board has been so supportive as I navigate my own grief. It's nice to have a safe place to say all the things that are tough.

Glad you are feeling okay after your procedure. Be kind to yourself and feelings. ((Hugs))

[tbonequeen13]

I'm so sorry you find yourself here. I hope we can be a source of comfort and support for you.

[birch113]

I'm so sorry to see you over here. Welcome. (((((Hugs)))))

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