Weekly Check-In 4/18

[serendipity731]

How many weeks? 17+5

EDD? 9/22

Next appt? 4/29 a/s and ob

Symptoms: still sofa king tired.

Rants/raves: rave- DH put together the new crib and I love it! It's easier for me to reach than the old one too, which is good for my growing bump. Rant- why don't you like sleep DS?!?! Please learn to love it, it's amazing and I really miss it! Also, teething sucks balls.

QOTW: taking the dog to dog beach. I can't wait to take DS to the beach, we've only walked along the boardwalk.

[frenchteachermama]

Apr 18, 2016 14:36:19 GMT -5 Daikoku said:

How many weeks? 17w1d

EDD? September 25th

Next appointment? May 13th anatomy scan They wanted me to schedule it at the end of week 22 and I was all like... uh no. I finally convinced the receptionist that I could schedule sooner than that. End of week 20 is ok, I guess.

Symptoms/Feeling? I'm still queasy all the time, but on Friday the midwife gave me 3 months worth of diclegis samples! I love her! I've gotten skinner over the past couple days. My belly is now only the size of period bloat, so all my pants fit again. Don't know what's up there.

Ladies, I need to vent.....I think I'm getting mentally worse. I think I finally have to admit that I'm not ok. This is going beyond not feeling a connection or joy for my pregnancy (despite having tried so hard for 3 years). At my appointment Friday, I realized that I was fully expecting not to hear a heartbeat. I was shocked and angry when I did hear it. I'm just waiting for this pregnancy to end. This is going to sound completely bonkers, but I keep finding myself feeling angry that it's not over already. Like, if my heart is going to be broken again, let's get it over with so I can move on with my life. Nuts. I know. Logically, I keep telling myself that everything is fine. Baby is healthy. Chances are good from here on out. Doesn't matter. I still have these nasty thoughts. I can't shake it. My neighbor brought over baby stuff on Sunday and I freaked out. Full on panic attack as soon as they left. I went off on H and had a full-blown melt down. I can't handle baby shit in my house right now. Vent over.

QOTW: I just like playing in the dirt. Gardening, mowing the lawn, digging holes, etc. Anything really. I just like working outdoors.

I just wanted to say that I understand how you are feeling and you are not alone.  I had 4 miscarriages before this pregnancy and our adoption profile was LIVE with our agency after busting our asses for months to get it ready.  We were totally invested in completing our family via adoption.  When I found out I was pregnant I was angry, very very angry.  Why would the universe put me through another miscarriage when I had closed that door.  I hid the pregnancy from everyone even though my betas were perfect and I had 4 early ultrasounds.  I am still scared daily that the more excited I get about the pregnancy the more it is going to hurt if I lose her.  It is a horrible way to live.  I hope I'm not over stepping myself here but one thing that has REALLY helped me is seeing my therapist to deal with these emotions.  Yes, some of it is hormonal but a lot of it is coming from the world of infertility.  Luckily I found a therapist in my area who specializes in infertility, she has been a life saver for me.  I also want you to know that I am here if you ever want to talk over PM.  Please be kind to yourself!

[frenchteachermama]

How many weeks?
18W4D

EDD?
9/17

Next Appointment?
MONDAY! 4/25, A/S and check up with my OB

Symptoms/how are you feeling?
I am definitely feeling some inside movement which is awesome. I didn't have to use my doppler yesterday to check her heartbeat because I could feel her moving

Rants/Raves?
See above

QOTW: What are your favorite outdoor nice weather activities?
I love to take walks outside!

[getzystark]

Apr 19, 2016 22:32:37 GMT -5 serendipity731 said:

Hugs Daikoku like pp said, it's good that you're recognizing and sharing these feelings. I hope you find peace soon.

getzystark I miss disc golf so much! DH keeps telling me to throw out my discs, but I refuse. I'm holding on to playing again one day!

pippacricket I'd totally call to move it up too!

It's a fun way for us to get in activity that doesn't involve a lot (or any) money and we get to be outside!!! Love it!