Confirmed It's Over Today
Feb 6, 2015 17:42:43 GMT -5
Post by vivela on Feb 6, 2015 17:42:43 GMT -5
Blighted Ovum is the diagnosis, though I get the sense that this is a little bit of a catchall term for many of the problems that might have causes the embryo not to develop. It is incredibly frustrating to now just have to sit and wait for the miscarriage. I was hoping I could ask for a D and C, but the midwife I talked to said it really doesn't make sense to go that route for a pregnancy that was so short (I've been pregnant for 7 weeks, but no sign of change since 5 weeks and a few days) unless I really need to. I trust her judgement, but I want a date on the calendar that I can point to and say "that is the day this is going to be over."
I'm functioning pretty well at the moment. I already knew what the result of the ultrasound was going to be. Lack of growth in the previous u/s, declining numbers, and moderate bleeding had already told me all I needed to know. But I also knew there was a flicker of hope in there somewhere that would be crushed today, and that it would hurt. It certainly did. My husband is actually way more upset than I am. He has been fine all week, comforting me and there for me, but fine. It didn't bother me, because I knew he couldn't feel what I was feeling. But I guess a big part of it was that deep down he didn't understand what the numbers and bleeding meant as clearly as I did, I think he had a lot of hope.
What has helped the most, and also been the most unexpected, was the people I know who have been through this. Very few people knew, because it was so early. But of those people, 3 of them are women who have had a miscarriage, something I didn't know until now. They all have grown children now, two of them have four kids and one has three. It wasn't even that they went on to have children, it was more just knowing that they went through it, they got past it and they have happy lives. It helped dispel that unrealistic but nagging feeling that this was always going to be the first thing I thought of when I woke up and the last thing before I fall asleep.
I hope the women on this board are doing alright today. If you are feeling overwhelmed, I recommend light TV or a good novel. That is what is helping a lot right now. If you like mysteries, Netflix has 15 seasons of a series called Midsomer Murders that is like the television equivalent of comfort food - no nutrients, but satisfying.
I'm functioning pretty well at the moment. I already knew what the result of the ultrasound was going to be. Lack of growth in the previous u/s, declining numbers, and moderate bleeding had already told me all I needed to know. But I also knew there was a flicker of hope in there somewhere that would be crushed today, and that it would hurt. It certainly did. My husband is actually way more upset than I am. He has been fine all week, comforting me and there for me, but fine. It didn't bother me, because I knew he couldn't feel what I was feeling. But I guess a big part of it was that deep down he didn't understand what the numbers and bleeding meant as clearly as I did, I think he had a lot of hope.
What has helped the most, and also been the most unexpected, was the people I know who have been through this. Very few people knew, because it was so early. But of those people, 3 of them are women who have had a miscarriage, something I didn't know until now. They all have grown children now, two of them have four kids and one has three. It wasn't even that they went on to have children, it was more just knowing that they went through it, they got past it and they have happy lives. It helped dispel that unrealistic but nagging feeling that this was always going to be the first thing I thought of when I woke up and the last thing before I fall asleep.
I hope the women on this board are doing alright today. If you are feeling overwhelmed, I recommend light TV or a good novel. That is what is helping a lot right now. If you like mysteries, Netflix has 15 seasons of a series called Midsomer Murders that is like the television equivalent of comfort food - no nutrients, but satisfying.
mind only happened two days ago and I am in the dark. Hope you are doing well emotionally 
