PgAL/PAIF Check-In 6/15

[notagoddess]

I am copying from Dec 2016, since a lot of us seem to be going through this.

Welcome! This is a weekly check in for those of us who are pregnant after loss and/or infertility. This check in is a safe place to share all things that come with being PgAL and/or PAIF, and to give support to others.

***Loss warnings are not necessary here.***

PAIF Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/57254/welcome-paif-read-before-posting

PgAL Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/1034/pgal-mantras

~~~If You’re Just Joining in This Week~~~

What is your loss and/or IF history?

What is your EDD?
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How far along are you?

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?

Any appointments or milestones this week?

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet?

[meladorie]

Thanks for starting this!

What is your loss and/or IF history? 3 consecutive mmc between 6-8 weeks. Heartbeat seen at 6 weeks but gone by 8.

What is your EDD? 2/19
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How far along are you? 4.3

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Not terrible. But I have moments. We still have no answers for my losses. Lovenox worked last time but the doctors have no clue why. I'm on it now but it's not reassuring that there's no science supporting that it will work again. But mostly I'm staying optimistic for now. I expect to start spotting or bleeding and then I'll freak (I had gushing blood several times with my son).

Any appointments or milestones this week?
I saw the hematologist Monday who agreed with lovenox but doesn't know why it helped. Had betas yesterday so should get them today. Last Monday was 8 and last Wednesday was 55.

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet?
9 years together, married 5.5. He was working the grocery store deli and I was ordering a sandwich. He was cute so I asked him for his number. First date was a college kegger the next day and that was that.

[notagoddess]

What is your loss and/or IF history? One loss at 10w1d. I started bleeding at 9 weeks, but baby looked good on the u/s and they said it was low risk. A week later, no heartbeat. During the D&C, the OB found a uterine septum which could have caused the miscarriage. I had that removed last February. Then, it took me 15 cycles to get pregnant again.

What is your EDD? February 23

How far along are you? 3w6d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel good. My breasts are painful and I feel tired/sleepy in the afternoons, but that's it. Emotionally, I'm swinging wildly between elation and fear. 

Any appointments or milestones this week? I'm having a 2nd set of betas today. More importantly, it's the EDD for my first baby -- she would have been 1 today. I'm not overly sad this time. The loss date is more upsetting for me.

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet? We met on OKCupid 6 years ago. Feels like forever now!

[ls2012]

Thanks for starting this!

Loss-tory: c/p, m/c @ 5weeks, & mmc @ 10 weeks.

Edd: 2/15

How far along: 5w?

Emo/ phys: Strangely fine. No big freak outs yet.

Appts/ milestones: none yet. I'm too much of a wuss to pick up the phone. Fear of jinxing is real!

Significant other history: Dh and I met about 10yrs ago through work. We were friends for years then gave dating a try 6 yrs ago. Now we've been married 3 1/2 yrs!

Random tidbit: I love musicals, and am completely OBSESSED with Hamilton!

[thebeaches]

What is your loss and/or IF history?

First pregnancy was c/p followed by two successful pregnancies. Going for number three, I had an early m/c around 7 weeks and a year later had a m/c at 8 weeks. The last one was after seeing a strong heartbeat just the day before.

What is your EDD? 2/2
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How far along are you? 6w6d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?

Physically- pretty good. Enough mild symptoms to feel like things are still progressing.

Emotionally- still talking in "if's" and not convinced this one will stick. Pretty pessimistic.

Any appointments or milestones this week?

US Friday afternoon!

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet?

We met at work... Sat in the same cubicle row :-)

[lilyofthevalley]

Thanks for starting notagoddess! I really appreciate it.


What is your loss and/or IF history? MMC at ~8 weeks in 2013 (before DS)


What is your EDD? 2/3/17


How far along are you? 6 weeks, 5 days, according to my Ovia app!

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? I have good days and bad days. Since my loss was a few years ago, and I have one successful pregnancy under my belt, I assumed/hoped that I wouldn't be as affected by it as I was while pregnant with DS (I never really relaxed and allowed myself to enjoy my last pregnancy). But as soon as I got the call from the nurse saying my initial beta # was low, all of those emotions came flooding back. It really is something that never leaves you.

Any appointments or milestones this week? I have a call with my new OB this week to review my medical history and then my first visit with a midwife next week. Hopefully I can beg and plead my way into an early U/S.

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? 7 years this summer, married for 5+ years. I can't believe it's been that long!

[lilyofthevalley]

thebeaches, we also talk in "ifs"...which is so hard, but helps me to keep a little distance (if that makes sense?). With our MMC, we saw a strong heartbeat (twice) and didn't have any bleeding (found via U/S), so it's hard for me to just assume everything is fine this time around.


On a happier note, I love hearing all these "how we met" stories!! So cute!

[meladorie]

Beta update. Last Wednesday was 55. Yesterday was 1525!

[notagoddess]

Jun 15, 2016 16:54:57 GMT -5 meladorie said:

Beta update. Last Wednesday was 55. Yesterday was 1525!

That's freaking awesome! Yay!

Mine went up to 235 from 106 two days ago. Next one is in a week.

[Deleted]

history? CP/mc at 5w6d in February of this year.

What is your EDD? 2/15/17
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How far along are you? 5 weeks today

How are you doing physically? Fine- just a lil tired. No other symptoms.
Emotionally? Feel kinda crazy because I check a chart that had been posted in my old Feb 16 broad for my daily percent of miscarriage. I feel better each day I go and see the number drop.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nothing now till next Friday.

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet? Known for 7 years and will be married 7 next month! Met thru a mutual friend.

[littleredfish]

We did this on N15 as well and it was helpful for a lot of ladies.

What is your loss and/or IF history? 2 mmc, one before my first and one before my second, both between weeks 8-12.

What is your EDD? Not really sure yet (see intro), mid Feb?
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How are you doing physically? Good, I'm having stomach cramping which I never had early on before so sometimes that's nagging at me as a worry but otherwise fine. Emotionally? I think I'm still in too much shock at the BFP to have too much else on my mind at this point. Ask me in a few weeks and my answer will probably be very different.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Milestone one will be telling DH and my parents this weekend. I have little surprises for all of them despite the fact that this is happening at all is a surprise in itself, I'm mainly focusing on the surprises to keep myself sane I think.

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet? Been together just shy of 8 years and our 5 year wedding anniversary is next month. We met through mutual friends by total coincidence on a weekend I wasn't planning on visiting and he was on his break from basic training. We did long distance for 14 months before I was able to move to him then the adventures of military life really began.

[lilyofthevalley]

meladorie, notagoddess, congrats to you both on round 2 of betas, those are great numbers!

[lilmonk]

Hello, hope I can join you.

What is your loss and/or IF history?

We were preparing for IVF when I conceived last June, after some slow rising numbers I just felt like it wasn't right. I ended up miscarrying at 9 or so weeks.

What is your EDD? 25 Feb
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How far along are you? 3 + 6 though only going by FF

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?

Physically some cramping I'm trying not to stress over.

Emotionally I'm on the Anxiety Choo Choo.

Any appointments or milestones this week?

I have to call my doctor as I was meant to be benched until August.

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet?

10 years, married for 7 years. We met online :-)

[ImAPepper]

Loss history: 1 confirmed early loss and 1 not confirmed (same symptoms but no pos blood test) in 2013

EDD: 2/15/17

5 weeks today.

Physically everything seems fine. Kinda bloated and some random cramps (probably RLP) but nothing really concerning. Emotionally it's starting to sink in. I'm scared mostly.

No appointments, waiting on insurance to get its shit together so I can make a call.

QOTW: I've known DH for almost 5 years, married for almost 4. We met at a department store running errands during work hours and started talking.

[madam23]

How far along are you? 7w1d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Starting to get better. I'm having symptoms like whoa, which is reassuring. The bathroom anxiety is easing up a little bit, but there's a nagging part of me that doesn't want to get too comfortable.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nope

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet?
9 years. Funny story. I met DH at a karaoke bar my girlfriends and I used to frequent. On this night, it was empty - just us and him with one of his friends, so the owners let us run the karaoke machine. It was a fun night, shots were taken, my first and only one night stand was had. Fast forward 3 months, I have a life crisis, move clear across the country to Banff, glance across the bar I'm in and who's standing there at the pool table looking back at me with the same expression I had on my face! And the rest is history...

[oldbaylover1024]

What is your loss and/or IF history? Two mmc - the first at 9w5d with heartbeat seen at 6w, the second at 11w3d with a heartbeat seen at 7w - before we had J. Testing revealed healthy babies, so no known reason for our losses. Went through what I call The Summer of Hell for testing with no confirmed issues. Then, two CPs before this BFP.

What is your EDD? Based on LPM 2/17, but I have a feeling my doctor will adjust that date. My cycles are wonky, so dating can be tough.

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How far along are you? 5w according to internet math

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm nauseous as hell and my boobs ache. T-shirts feel like sandpaper. Emotionally I'm excited, but also very, very guarded. I feel like I'm distancing myself from this PG until our first appointment. I hate that I won't allow myself to be excited yet.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nope.

QOTW: How long have you known your SO? How did you meet? I've know MH for over 14 years, and we've been married for almost 7. We met through mutual friends in high school, went to different colleges, and ended up hitched!

[thebeaches]

US update: saw the heartbeat! Rate was 143. Everything was measuring right on track :-) 7w1d

[oldbaylover1024]

thebeaches - FANTASTIC!!!

[EmMilAlly]

Thanks for posting this. I'll post more detail when I'm not on mobile, but I have a IF history and have had one miscarriage from my fresh IVF cycle. This pregnancy is the result of a FET and I'm feeling okay so far, but am dreading the first ultrasound for some reason. Hugs to everyone who needs them!

[notagoddess]

thebeaches that's great!!

[meladorie]

Jun 17, 2016 16:08:17 GMT -5 thebeaches said:

US update: saw the heartbeat! Rate was 143. Everything was measuring right on track :-) 7w1d

Hooray!!!

[lilyofthevalley]

Congrats on a fantastic US beaches!