Am I Crazy? Is It All in My Head?!
Jan 16, 2015 13:11:06 GMT -5
Post by tikoberry99 on Jan 16, 2015 13:11:06 GMT -5
I just got into a HUGE argument again with my lovely fiance because he thinks I need to relax and doesn't think we need any medical intervention like IVF to have a kid..it will just happen according to him. I'm infuriated. What I'm hearing him say is that we can't get pregnant because of my brain and my inability to relax. I have anxiety and have been on Xanax XR for over two years now and for the most part it has calmed my anxiety down, but it is not completely gone. I don't think I will ever be cured of my anxiety and I have accepted that. I am a very expect the worst, hope for the best kind of person. I just see realities and don't like to sugar coat them. I would rather be prepared for failure then disappointed by it.
I just can't believe after over 2 years of trying, 2 years of OPK tracking and testing, 3 rounds of clomid with two IUI's and NOTHING since my last treatment in August and he still thinks it's because I need to relax. For fuck sake read the studies, read the science...there are millions of couples who suffer from infertility and we are fucking one of them....accept it and get off your denial horse! I'm just sitting here crying because I have no one to talk to and he stormed out and said I treat him like shit because I never take his advice. I never listen to anyone, I just make my own decisions and once they are made there is no changing me. I am stubborn, I don't like to be told what to do, but what the fuck does that have to do with infertility. It makes it worst because we are unexplained, so at this point there is no medical issue to "fix."
I fucking fell down the stairs yesterday and sprained my ankle so I can't do anything, but sit around and ice my fucking leg. I'm so depressed and think I'll spend the day in bed.
Thanks for listening. Any words of advice would be great.
I just can't believe after over 2 years of trying, 2 years of OPK tracking and testing, 3 rounds of clomid with two IUI's and NOTHING since my last treatment in August and he still thinks it's because I need to relax. For fuck sake read the studies, read the science...there are millions of couples who suffer from infertility and we are fucking one of them....accept it and get off your denial horse! I'm just sitting here crying because I have no one to talk to and he stormed out and said I treat him like shit because I never take his advice. I never listen to anyone, I just make my own decisions and once they are made there is no changing me. I am stubborn, I don't like to be told what to do, but what the fuck does that have to do with infertility. It makes it worst because we are unexplained, so at this point there is no medical issue to "fix."
I fucking fell down the stairs yesterday and sprained my ankle so I can't do anything, but sit around and ice my fucking leg. I'm so depressed and think I'll spend the day in bed.
Thanks for listening. Any words of advice would be great.