Post by meerkatmillie on Jun 29, 2016 18:02:27 GMT -5
Sorry in advance, this is going to be long.
EDD: 1/23/17
How many weeks today: 10w2d
Previous appointment(s):
@12dpiui (May 14) Beta 84
@14dpiui (May 16) Beta 272 More than tripled in 48hrs, we even thought we had twins for a bit (we didn't)
@6w4d (June 3) HB! Baby measuring on track at 6w5d and sac at 6w4d
@7w4d (June 10) HB (150, normal)! Baby measuring on track at 7w4d
@9w0d (June 20) HB (178, normal)! Baby measuring on track 9w0d
@10w1d (June 28) First appointment with OB instead of RE. Baby measuring on track again at 10w1d. But there was no longer a heartbeat. Additionally they found abnormal fluid around the brain (cystic hygroma). The baby had passed that day or the day before, with the OB suspecting chromosome issues
@10w2d (June 29) D&E, with tissues sent for chromosomal testing.
This is our second miscarriage in a row. Our first was in February 2016 with the only embryo we got from IVF#1. That one was struggling from the time it was a 2BB blast all the way through the end. It did have a heartbeat but it was always measuring behind so we feared the worst and the worst was confirmed when we finally miscarried in February and confirmed it was due to Trisomy 22.
With no frosties left from IVF#1, a recent miscarriage, and not being ready to jump into a second IVF cycle right away, we decided to try a third IUI just for the heck of it. Our previous two IUIs (before we did IVF) were unsuccessful so we didn't have high hopes for IUI at all, but we were pleasantly surprised to find out the third IUI worked and resulted in this pregnancy, due Jan 2017! Our optimism increased as the weeks progressed with this second pregnancy having great betas, great growth right on track at every appointment, and nice strong heartbeats too. We finally let down our guard when we were released from the RE to the OB at our 9w appointment, feeling like we had passed the hump and everything would be ok now. This unfortunately is why the disappointing news caught us so off guard at our 10w ultrasound. It took our breath away and just doesn't feel real.
The D&E this morning went ok, we're just recovering at home now. It's been quite a shock going from the excitement of feeling like we finally caught a break and could announce the good news to our family soon to now going back to square one and feeling so lost and hopeless again. It takes us so long and so much medical intervention just to get pregnant, these two losses have been especially frustrating. I know we'll get through it but it's going to take some time.
I'm still so very happy for the rest of you. Especially those of you who've been so unfortunate to know the struggles of infertility and the pain of previous losses with me. It really sucks but I know you guys particularly know what I'm going through having been through it yourselves.
Please don't let my story get you worried about your own pregnancies. Stay joyful and keep in perspective what happened to me in incredibly rare and not likely to happen to you (only something like 2% miscarry with a good strong heartbeat at 10w). Most likely it's more than just bad luck for us with two in a row. We've probably got underlining chromosomal issues with my eggs and or his sperm, but we'll see what the tests say before we get too ahead of ourselves.
I wish all you ladies and your significant others all the best with the remainder of your pregnancies. Keep supporting each other, you're a great group of women. If someone could take over the Sunday weekly appointment check-in going forward, I'd really appreciate it. I'll stop back in to Jan 2017 periodically to check how you all are doing but I won't be here regularly like before.
EDD: 1/23/17
How many weeks today: 10w2d
Previous appointment(s):
@12dpiui (May 14) Beta 84
@14dpiui (May 16) Beta 272 More than tripled in 48hrs, we even thought we had twins for a bit (we didn't)
@6w4d (June 3) HB! Baby measuring on track at 6w5d and sac at 6w4d
@7w4d (June 10) HB (150, normal)! Baby measuring on track at 7w4d
@9w0d (June 20) HB (178, normal)! Baby measuring on track 9w0d
@10w1d (June 28) First appointment with OB instead of RE. Baby measuring on track again at 10w1d. But there was no longer a heartbeat. Additionally they found abnormal fluid around the brain (cystic hygroma). The baby had passed that day or the day before, with the OB suspecting chromosome issues
@10w2d (June 29) D&E, with tissues sent for chromosomal testing.
This is our second miscarriage in a row. Our first was in February 2016 with the only embryo we got from IVF#1. That one was struggling from the time it was a 2BB blast all the way through the end. It did have a heartbeat but it was always measuring behind so we feared the worst and the worst was confirmed when we finally miscarried in February and confirmed it was due to Trisomy 22.
With no frosties left from IVF#1, a recent miscarriage, and not being ready to jump into a second IVF cycle right away, we decided to try a third IUI just for the heck of it. Our previous two IUIs (before we did IVF) were unsuccessful so we didn't have high hopes for IUI at all, but we were pleasantly surprised to find out the third IUI worked and resulted in this pregnancy, due Jan 2017! Our optimism increased as the weeks progressed with this second pregnancy having great betas, great growth right on track at every appointment, and nice strong heartbeats too. We finally let down our guard when we were released from the RE to the OB at our 9w appointment, feeling like we had passed the hump and everything would be ok now. This unfortunately is why the disappointing news caught us so off guard at our 10w ultrasound. It took our breath away and just doesn't feel real.
The D&E this morning went ok, we're just recovering at home now. It's been quite a shock going from the excitement of feeling like we finally caught a break and could announce the good news to our family soon to now going back to square one and feeling so lost and hopeless again. It takes us so long and so much medical intervention just to get pregnant, these two losses have been especially frustrating. I know we'll get through it but it's going to take some time.
I'm still so very happy for the rest of you. Especially those of you who've been so unfortunate to know the struggles of infertility and the pain of previous losses with me. It really sucks but I know you guys particularly know what I'm going through having been through it yourselves.
Please don't let my story get you worried about your own pregnancies. Stay joyful and keep in perspective what happened to me in incredibly rare and not likely to happen to you (only something like 2% miscarry with a good strong heartbeat at 10w). Most likely it's more than just bad luck for us with two in a row. We've probably got underlining chromosomal issues with my eggs and or his sperm, but we'll see what the tests say before we get too ahead of ourselves.
I wish all you ladies and your significant others all the best with the remainder of your pregnancies. Keep supporting each other, you're a great group of women. If someone could take over the Sunday weekly appointment check-in going forward, I'd really appreciate it. I'll stop back in to Jan 2017 periodically to check how you all are doing but I won't be here regularly like before.
this is so fucking unfair. ((((((Big hugs )))))))I'll be keeping you and your husband in my prayers 
