Intro...Hi....
Jul 18, 2016 21:43:06 GMT -5
Post by 4furrypaws on Jul 18, 2016 21:43:06 GMT -5
Hi ladies...It's time for me to come out of lurking.
Our long road is in my siggy but here is the tldr:
*Warning. Losses*
Four early M/Cs
Three failed IVFs
AMA, DOR, I am a carrier of a Balanced Translocation
We were very fortunate to have some insurance coverage for the three IVF cycles. But we've reached our lifetime max so anything we do moving forward is OOP. Just one more stress to add right...
*Warning. Venting*
I'm having a very hard time with the fact that financially we will only be able to have one more shot and that DEgg is probably our best chance at having a healthy embie. I'm adopted and I think this is making it harder for me. The fact that I have no "genetically" linked people in my life...now my one chance of having that with a child is not going to be possible.
I KNOW that I would be the one carrying, nourishing, bonding etc with the baby. I know that the small bit of DNA doesn't/won't matter. It certainly has never mattered to me with my Mom and Dad. They are my parents, that's just that. But there is something that just hurts my heart, knowing I'll never truely have anyone that I truely look like. I'll have no genetic link to anyone.
I've been told by my acupuncturist who has had several clients use DEgg that once you go into labor it never crosses your mind again. I'm sure that is true. I do believe that.
My Mom said as soon as they held me they never thought about it again. I know that's how it would be.
I'm just so bitter anymore. So so angry. And sad.
I think my H is having a hard time with this as well. He doesn't talk about it hardly at all. I've asked him if I should start looking into pricing/gathering info on DEggs and he isn't ready for it yet. I don't know how to talk to him about it.
...so, I'm here to hopefully learn and support you ladies. I hate that any of us are in the situation. I wish so much I could change it for us all.
Some random things about me for those of you I don't know...
I volunteer at a local no kill animal shelter
I left my job of 15 years at the end of last year to begin IVF
We have two kits and two pups
H has a drag car which is 'second job'
I like DIY stuff, sewing, gardening..anything creative
Our long road is in my siggy but here is the tldr:
*Warning. Losses*
Four early M/Cs
Three failed IVFs
AMA, DOR, I am a carrier of a Balanced Translocation
We were very fortunate to have some insurance coverage for the three IVF cycles. But we've reached our lifetime max so anything we do moving forward is OOP. Just one more stress to add right...
*Warning. Venting*
I'm having a very hard time with the fact that financially we will only be able to have one more shot and that DEgg is probably our best chance at having a healthy embie. I'm adopted and I think this is making it harder for me. The fact that I have no "genetically" linked people in my life...now my one chance of having that with a child is not going to be possible.
I KNOW that I would be the one carrying, nourishing, bonding etc with the baby. I know that the small bit of DNA doesn't/won't matter. It certainly has never mattered to me with my Mom and Dad. They are my parents, that's just that. But there is something that just hurts my heart, knowing I'll never truely have anyone that I truely look like. I'll have no genetic link to anyone.
I've been told by my acupuncturist who has had several clients use DEgg that once you go into labor it never crosses your mind again. I'm sure that is true. I do believe that.
My Mom said as soon as they held me they never thought about it again. I know that's how it would be.
I'm just so bitter anymore. So so angry. And sad.
I think my H is having a hard time with this as well. He doesn't talk about it hardly at all. I've asked him if I should start looking into pricing/gathering info on DEggs and he isn't ready for it yet. I don't know how to talk to him about it.
...so, I'm here to hopefully learn and support you ladies. I hate that any of us are in the situation. I wish so much I could change it for us all.
Some random things about me for those of you I don't know...
I volunteer at a local no kill animal shelter
I left my job of 15 years at the end of last year to begin IVF
We have two kits and two pups
H has a drag car which is 'second job'
I like DIY stuff, sewing, gardening..anything creative