Post by scotty138 on Sept 21, 2016 13:42:06 GMT -5
I feel like I'm improving bit by bit. I've come to terms with DS's diagnosis and am trying to be proactive about it. The doctor recommended waiting another 6 months and reassessing then. In the mean time I am going to try to get genetic testing done on myself because my brother has similar but different kidney issues and I want to rule out a few genetic disorders. I feel like I just need a plan. I am going on vacation in October and hopefully that will allow me to relax. When I get back I plan to start seeing a therapist. Baby steps.
I'm still feeling in limbo somewhat. I have good days and think I'm fine and then certain situations just set me off with anger or anxiety and I feel like DH probably thinks I conveniently throw around PPA as a cop out for being able to overreact or whatever, since I never got a real diagnosis or anything. I feel sad and discouraged about my prolapse issues, that makes me disconnect from friends and family who are all doing fun and active things I can't participate in, and missing out on everything fuels my sadness. My pelvic specialist appointment is Monday so I'll take any prayers or good vibes you have to offer. I'm super nervous about it. LO has had croup, DD has had an ear infection, and DS1 had to miss school for a random fever so I feel like we are just a big isolated house of ailments over here. I need fresh air and adult time.
I'm feeling slightly better even though I'm going back to work soon and that has caused me anxiety for many weeks. My SO is taking his month paternity leave when I go back so it will be a good transition for me. I really want to get back to work to see if I can handle being a mom and my crazy job.
Every milestone we pass I silently mourn that it's the last time I'll experience it. Is that strange? Most of my friends don't get this as they were very definite on how many they wanted. There was no doubt for them.
Meanwhile, I hate birth control pill so part of me wants us to truly make this decision and have my DH get a vasectomy.
Definitely not strange. I wanted two (DH wanted one) but for some reason I'm still kind of struggling with the idea that we are done. We are both 28 and basically none of our friends have started having kids. I think I'm going to be a little jealous when everyone starts popping up pregnant.
I need DH to get a vasectomy so I know we are done. Until then I get waves of wanting one more baby.
Sending you good vibes okiemama. And I am sorry YH does not fully understand.
abbeyd, that is not stranget at all. We are considering a 3rd, but not fully decided yet, so I feel in limbo, but I always think, will this be the last time for such and such. It makes me sad, and I am not a big baby person, I like the older stages.
scotty138, glad to hear that being proactive is helping so much. Feeling helpless makes things harder for me, so it is great to be able to find ways to be proactive.
@pennygirl2013, I am so glad to hear that there are more good days. I hear you on getting overwhelmed. I was having some good days in a row, then got hit with some bad days. I feel like I have too much on my plate, but can't drop any of it, and that is so overwhelming to me.
sammie, that is awesome YH gets a month, I hope that makes the transition a lot easier for you. It is hard, but there are good things about getting back in a routine. Good luck.
Hugs to everyone, especially to those having a hard time
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