Post by littlesthobo on Oct 3, 2016 7:58:32 GMT -5
Tired and feeling like I really need time away from the kids. The dog is being needy and it's driving me nuts. My house looks like shit, I gained 2lbs and have a DietBet weigh-out this week, and my mom hasn't spoken to me since I told her I didn't want to bring the boys over last week.
Need to pull myself together and get us out of the house.
We're here. It's like day 8 of rain/misty crap weather here. B is sleeping in his swing and DS1 is playing on his tablet while we snuggle on the couch and I drink my coffee. We all have day care cooties so still a little under the weather.
No plans for today. Ds1 has off from school because of the Jewish holiday. People are actually pissed about this. I see a lot of FB posts about how we don't get off for Columbus Day but we have today off.
I have to call my company's HR today to discuss what their protocol is for pumping at work (where & when) and I DNW. I know I have to, but talking about my boobs with a stranger is awkward.
Except for y'all, I'll talk to you guys all about my boobs.
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Post by madamewaffles on Oct 3, 2016 8:21:35 GMT -5
Had a good night. H has his surgical consult today so we will find out when it will be scheduled. I hope it's sometime this week so we can get it over with.
I have to call my company's HR today to discuss what their protocol is for pumping at work (where & when) and I DNW. I know I have to, but talking about my boobs with a stranger is awkward.
Except for y'all, I'll talk to you guys all about my boobs.
At least you can call and not have to talk to someone in person when you goback to work. Or you could take it one step further and email your HR about it.
Serious case of the Monday's over here. S slept like crap last night. He had so much gas and kept waking up and fussing and grunting. S has already spit up all over both of us. L didn't eat his breakfast and wants a popsicle instead. I still haven't eaten breakfast or had any coffee.
I have to call my company's HR today to discuss what their protocol is for pumping at work (where & when) and I DNW. I know I have to, but talking about my boobs with a stranger is awkward.
Except for y'all, I'll talk to you guys all about my boobs.
I will either have to ask the security people about this or my boss directly on my first day back. I have a laptop at work and I will probably have to take it in with me while I pump so I can do work.
We bought a big ol snuggapuppy swing through fb yesterday. Seems it's the key to baby napping not on me; he's been in it for about an hour and a half. The downside being I was hoping to take DD to the library for story time at 10, and we need to leave soon. Don't want to wake him, but don't want to stay in the house all morning.
icaughtfire part of the reason I didn't push BF was because I knew I wouldn't be able to pump at work without it being awkward and an inconvenience.
We are about to get out and go for a walk to appease DS. I just really want to nap. H said he'll take the kids when he gets home so I can take a long bath and nap though, so I will press on!
Just had a urine rest for my preemployment requirements. I know they deal with people trying to get away with things but she was a super bitch to me. I was excited to get this job but just not looking forward to going back next month now. Especially because Irene is absolutely refusing bottles now. I'm afraid she'll cry all day at daycare now.
Going to do some retail therapy at Carter's after we drop DH off at work.
In all seriousness, I did this a few times when L was a baby and would not stop screaming. He would cry and cry and I couldn't do anything to make it better. I was surviving on little to no sleep and having to get up and go to class in the morning and being a TA in the evening. It was so hard and I am so surprised I survived.
I know it's hard and I am sending you (((hugs))), we are all here for you. It might not get better tomorrow or next week but it will get better eventually.
Post by icaughtfire on Oct 3, 2016 10:00:36 GMT -5
HR was pretty whatevs about pumping. There's no room with a door other than the bathroom so they're going to set up a privacy curtain at the entrance to the break room, and then they said I can go whenever I need to, no set schedule. Company culture is very much "customers never wait for any reason ever" so I was concerned about pumping at times when it's me & one other employee but HR said they'll just have to manage until I'm done. So...whew.
Number One: Born 06.16.2009 BFP: 01.17.2014 / MC 02.05.2014 BFP: 03.08.2014 / MMC: 05.07.2014 Dx: Partial Molar/GTD. Benched until 01.2015 Number Two: Born 07.22.2016
An example of idiot OBs <scary> re: discussing with my friend why I might feel crappy. Her response:
"I asked [OB] at my appt last week about my period and he said it could take up to 6 months for it to come back, but I could still experience symptoms because my body is still ovulating "
In all seriousness, I did this a few times when L was a baby and would not stop screaming. He would cry and cry and I couldn't do anything to make it better. I was surviving on little to no sleep and having to get up and go to class in the morning and being a TA in the evening. It was so hard and I am so surprised I survived.
I know it's hard and I am sending you (((hugs))), we are all here for you. It might not get better tomorrow or next week but it will get better eventually.
I had to walk away and let her scream multiple times today. I just can't do this anymore. She won't sleep at night, won't nap anywhere but on me, won't let me put her down when she's awake. I spend half an hour getting her to sleep and put her in the swing, she's awake and screaming 13 minutes later. I try again with the Merlin sleep suit and the crib, screaming 8 mintes later.
LT for solidarity. In all seriousness, how are you emotionally? It helps me to verbalized in very simple terms to my H how I'm feeling sometimes. And often, he is generally shocked at how upset and sad and lonely I am. Apparently, according to him, I look like I have my shit together and I look like I'm killing it at this mom of two thing. He had no idea how much I'm struggling emotionally and I had no idea he couldn't see it.
All that rambling to say, please make sure you include your SO in your wallowing. Let him know if you're feeling really bad or you need something in particular. Sometimes they have no idea.
ellebelle I know I've mentioned it before, but DS1 refused bottles until the day he went to DC. He drank 0 oz the first day and by day two he was up to 4 oz. by the end of the week he was a champ. Daycare workers are magical unicorns and Irene will do great.
In all seriousness, I did this a few times when L was a baby and would not stop screaming. He would cry and cry and I couldn't do anything to make it better. I was surviving on little to no sleep and having to get up and go to class in the morning and being a TA in the evening. It was so hard and I am so surprised I survived.
I know it's hard and I am sending you (((hugs))), we are all here for you. It might not get better tomorrow or next week but it will get better eventually.
I had to walk away and let her scream multiple times today. I just can't do this anymore. She won't sleep at night, won't nap anywhere but on me, won't let me put her down when she's awake. I spend half an hour getting her to sleep and put her in the swing, she's awake and screaming 13 minutes later. I try again with the Merlin sleep suit and the crib, screaming 8 mintes later.
L was the same way. I lived from day to day just making sure his needs and my needs were met. We went to the pedi nearly every week because he would not stop crying and had to be held all the time. Have you talked to your pediatrician about her crying? With L it ended up being an egg allergy that was the main problem but he had a milk allergy and reflux.
Does YH help out in the evenings to give you some time out? I agree with melody that letting YH know how much you are struggling is important. Try to get some alone time where you can just be quiet and not be touched. I remember being so touched out and just needing time where I wasn't touching anyone (even pets) to get my head back together.
So many hugs katelou. Step away as much as you need to. I think they other ladies have given you some good advice. I hope it gets easier sooner rather than later for you.
Thanks melody330, I am determined to just enjoy the time I have with this little girl so I'm going to try to put the anxiety away. Plus I spent way a crap ton at Carter's for her and Target for me and got a caramel macchiato from Starbucks this morning so just going to enjoy all that and not worry about anything else.
It's been a shit show here today. Monday's are always the worst. B hasn't napped more than 15 minutes and he's miserable. I finally just zipped him up in his MM suit and he passed out. This thing really is magical.
madamewaffles do you put your LO in it during the day for naps?
ETA: I don't have any reason to suspect any food allergies or anythjng abnormal. She's totally fine when she's being held. But being attached to her 24/7 with waking up 4+ x a night and not being able to set her down even during naps is making me lose it. It's like I have an 11 week old newborn.
So much this. B is the exact same way. The only reason I can get him off me during one nap a day is the MM sleep suit. I only get 40 minutes, but I need it.
We went to a party yesterday and B was "good". He didn't cry or fuss, slept 90% of the time in someone's arms. Do you know I had a relative tell me I must be lying about how terrible of a sleeper B is and how hard it's been on me??!! We left shortly after that.
It's been a shit show here today. Monday's are always the worst. B hasn't napped more than 15 minutes and he's miserable. I finally just zipped him up in his MM suit and he passed out. This thing really is magical.
madamewaffles do you put your LO in it during the day for naps?
I try to do it sans suit (don't usually get more than a half hour) since he won't have it at daycare (only sleep sacks allowed there 😢). But if he is particularly fussy or tired, I don't fight it and put him in the suit.
ETA: I don't have any reason to suspect any food allergies or anythjng abnormal. She's totally fine when she's being held. But being attached to her 24/7 with waking up 4+ x a night and not being able to set her down even during naps is making me lose it. It's like I have an 11 week old newborn.
So much this. B is the exact same way. The only reason I can get him off me during one nap a day is the MM sleep suit. I only get 40 minutes, but I need it.
We went to a party yesterday and B was "good". He didn't cry or fuss, slept 90% of the time in someone's arms. Do you know I had a relative tell me I must be lying about how terrible of a sleeper B is and how hard it's been on me??!! We left shortly after that.
OMG if I had a dollar for every time someone says, "He's so good, are you sure he's fussy?" Sure, if you don't mind a him Velcro-ed to you 24/7, he's pretty good, but in my world, I can't just hold him--my arms hurt, my body hurts, my brain is drained, and I have a million other chores to do, so STFU, strangers!
Post by littlesthobo on Oct 3, 2016 14:47:55 GMT -5
Big hugs katelou, I struggled with DS1 and had moments where I felt like running away (and now with L too). Putting baby down in a safe place is a smart thing to do when you're at your limit.
Do you have anyone that could come even just to keep you company? My best friend came one time to watch DS1 so I could nap, and she and I ended up chatting the whole time instead and it did wonders for me.
Thoughts and prayers for your FIL. It sounds like you guys are going through a stressful time right now on various levels.
Big hugs katelou. I echo all of the previous suggestions and empathy.
We ran out of our huge stash of disposable diapers so we are in cloth now. Omg now I need to up all of his clothes to the next size. I forgot how bulky cloth diapers are! He looks ridiculous now :-)
So much this. B is the exact same way. The only reason I can get him off me during one nap a day is the MM sleep suit. I only get 40 minutes, but I need it.
We went to a party yesterday and B was "good". He didn't cry or fuss, slept 90% of the time in someone's arms. Do you know I had a relative tell me I must be lying about how terrible of a sleeper B is and how hard it's been on me??!! We left shortly after that.
OMG if I had a dollar for every time someone says, "He's so good, are you sure he's fussy?" Sure, if you don't mind a him Velcro-ed to you 24/7, he's pretty good, but in my world, I can't just hold him--my arms hurt, my body hurts, my brain is drained, and I have a million other chores to do, so STFU, strangers!
The only time L was ever happy was when we were at the pediatricinas office. I was in there literally once a week begging them to do something and help somehow with his non stop crying and he would be totally quiet and happy the entire time. Then we would get home after yet another brush off and he would start screaming again.
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