Post by professormcgonagall on Oct 17, 2016 7:35:02 GMT -5
I have posted on a few things but thought I would officially intro.
This is a place I never thought I would be or sincerely hoped I would never be. I had a completely healthy pregnancy all the way up until Sept 10. That day I started bleeding. I was diagnosed with placental abruption and there was nothing they could do to stop my labor even though I was only 24 weeks.
I ended up with a c-section due to baby girls heart rate dropping during each contraction. The nicu team worked on her for 50 minutes before the pediatrician came up to us and told us it wasn't going well. Her heart rate was in the 50s and she was only breathing once per minute. DH and I told them to let her go and that was the hardest thing I have ever done. DH did stand up right when they took her out and heard her grunt and saw her move. I am so grateful he got to see her alive because I didn't have that chance.
We held her and took pictures and cried all day. She had so much dark hair and dark eyebrows. My mother said she would have looked just like me.I miss my darling girl every day. I know that an abruption is a roll of the dice and just happens but I am angry it happened to me and my baby.
It has been 5 weeks of recovering from a c section without a baby. The hardest 5 weeks of my life. We buried her on October 8. The funeral gave me some peace but sometimes I still can't believe it happened. The pregnancy seems like a dream.
I am so sorry professormcgonagall. I understand the anger. There is nothing right or fair about what happened. Do you mind if I ask your daughter's name?
Post by peaseblossom55 on Oct 19, 2016 10:04:05 GMT -5
Once again I am so very sorry. It's the worst club to be a part of but the girls here are the best. I am sure she was so beautiful. One of the best resources I found helpful stillstandingmag.com/ I hope it gives you some comfort, although I found in the few weeks after everything was so hard. Here if you need a friend, or just want to vent and be angry.
BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13 BFP #2 8/7/14 Rainbow DS born 4/2/15 Started adoption process July 2016 BF#3 8/29/16 DD2 born 4/21/17
Jan '13: TI w/letrozole, BFP, DS born Oct '13 Dec '15: IUI#1, BFN Jan '16: Cancelled IUI (too many follicles) Feb '16: IUI#2, BFP, DS2 stillborn June'16 @22 weeks We love you baby boy! Aug '16: D&C for retained placenta Oct '16: Removal of interuterine adhesions Jan '17: IUI#3 No ovulation?!? Feb '17: IUI#4, BFN IVF sometime this summer
Post by iheartbroccoli on Oct 21, 2016 23:12:55 GMT -5
I am so sorry for your loss, that is such a beautiful name.
We also had to make the decision of telling the doctors when to stop and remove our son from life support. No parent should ever have to make that decision, if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.
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