Post by ldubhawksfan on Jan 9, 2017 16:23:08 GMT -5
Hi ladies. I was a part of the board in 2014 following our first loss. It was a BO that was discovered at our first appt 9 weeks. It rocked our world and I became depressed. After our EDD passed, we worked with a RE and had our rainbow baby November '15
We expected TTTC again so we were utterly shocked when I got a BFP this November on our own. I was admittedly terrified of 2u2 but so excited. PGAL brain was there, but after 2 appt seeing a baby with a heartbeat, I started to relax and prepare for our NT scan. Then Thursday I started to slightly bleed and an US showed no more heartbeat. I was 11 weeks. I had the d&c the next day. I'm still reeling. I feel so guilty about how scared I was and feel like I took it for granted.
I hope you will have me while I'm benched and when we get to burn it. My dr wants us to wait 1 cycle after my period comes. It hurts to go from expecting in July to now knowing we probably won't even have a 2017 baby. Right now, I miss my angel baby.
We expected TTTC again so we were utterly shocked when I got a BFP this November on our own. I was admittedly terrified of 2u2 but so excited. PGAL brain was there, but after 2 appt seeing a baby with a heartbeat, I started to relax and prepare for our NT scan. Then Thursday I started to slightly bleed and an US showed no more heartbeat. I was 11 weeks. I had the d&c the next day. I'm still reeling. I feel so guilty about how scared I was and feel like I took it for granted.
I hope you will have me while I'm benched and when we get to burn it. My dr wants us to wait 1 cycle after my period comes. It hurts to go from expecting in July to now knowing we probably won't even have a 2017 baby. Right now, I miss my angel baby.
My Body Hates Me
. I'm so so sorry for your loss. 
