Weekly Checkin - 2/17

[thedish]

Happy Tuesday! Check in here this week.

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Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.

How is your week going?

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?

Any changes in medication or recent appointments?

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby?

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you?

[thedish]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. generalized anxiety & depression with panic attacks

How is your week going? it's been very stressful, and it's only Tuesday. Saturday night I had terrible chest pains, then yesterday afternoon I developed a fever so I saw my doctor today. Originally we thought some sort of viral infection but my liver panel came back very abnormal so now they're leaning towards gallstones. I am so nervous for my ultrasound tomorrow. Really hoping it is just an infection. I can't deal with this and a two week old!

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I am proud that I have not had one freak out on DD. I am amazed at the patience I have with her when she cries.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? still just taking the Zoloft.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? right now, taking care of my daughter

[olivegoose]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.
ADHD, SAD (seasonal affective disorder, not social anxiety disorder), ADHD


How is your week going?
It's OK. I had a fantastic weekend, and now my husband has been gone since yesterday at 8 AM. I have a cold and I am tired. 


Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
Every time I don't feel 100% I start wondering if my medication needs adjusted. I just default to it being wrong... even though I just have a cold.


Any changes in medication or recent appointments?
Nope. I just had ADHD group therapy every week right now.


GTKY: What is your favorite hobby?
Knitting. I know like a maniac. 


Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? It doesn't matter to me. I have to log in to see tags and if I log in I will see the post

[icequeen]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Anorexia Nervosa, Bulimia Nervosa, GAD

How is your week going? Not well. Last night I was suicidal and felt pretty hopeless. I am seeing an RE and taking Clomid and as a result my lining is for shit. I am so devastated and heartbroken that if one thing doesn't go wrong with my cycle, another will. It never ends and I will never get pregnant again. I feel at a complete loss.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? Through all of my despair I have still succeeded in not resorting to binging and purging on non ED days. I have even been able to keep down breakfast and dinner on days that I do allow myself to binge and purge. I had a goal of having 3 non ED days, which I accomplished. I also wanted to eat breakfast and dinner and keep those meals down on ED days, and I was able to do that as well. I do not know where the hell I am getting this motivation from, honestly.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? I had a phone check in with my psych and she wants me to go up by 20 mg with the Prozac this week. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? I like to run and be outside with DD.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? No, that's ok. I make it a point to check the boards every day. I may be late a day or so but I won't forget. Usually.

[Deleted]

icequeen Big hugs. It sucks to be feeling so low. TTC is so emotionally draining when it doesn't happen easily. I'm sorry. Please hang in there. Your family loves you and needs you, and we all care about you too.

I will check in tomorrow.

[lulu]

Feb 17, 2015 20:25:29 GMT -5 thedish said:

Happy Tuesday! Check in here this week.

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Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.
Depression and anxiety

How is your week going?
Good so far. DH is home and it's like a huge weight of responsibility has been lifted off my shoulders. He's here to look after us, help me out, keep us safe etc and it just means I don't have to feel 110% responsible for everyone while he's home.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
I have some days off from work this week and I've been able to enjoy spending time with the kids again. It's nice to feel like a "good mum" and to have a positive and important role in the family.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments?
No

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby?
I wish I had time for more but I like staying fit and also making wee projects on my sewing machine.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you?
I don't mind as check in pretty regular

[lulu]

Oh icequeen please try not to despair. It's so tough all you are going thru but remember how important you are to your family and especially DD. Also remember how great you are doing to stay healthy and strong - it takes a tough woman to fight an ED and you are doing brilliant. TTC is just one part of your life icequeen - it's difficult, exhausting, hurtful and sometimes just plain unfair. But other parts of your life are going great - I don't even know you and am proud that your doing so well with your ED. So I can only imagine how proud the real people in your life are of you. I always think different parts of our lives go crappy at different times - while one part sucks, others are ok, while others can be awesome. Then it's all change and what was once crap becomes good. that's how life works for me. So - hold in there and never ever give up on yourself xx

[2kiddos]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.
Severe depression/anxiety

How is your week going?
It's not terrible. My new meds I started over a week ago seem to be working. Not as great as lamictal last month, but not bad. I'm hopeful they will get better with a new dose.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
I am struggling financially with all the medical bills I've racked up the past month. That sucks. Insurance sucks.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments?
I'm upping the dose of depakote this week, not sure to what but I'm at 500mg so I have 500 more to go before dr will cut me off.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby?
Filmmaking. I love creating short/long films. I have my own equipment. Just need time and energy.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Either way. I check here often.

[flcl]

icequeen: You sound like you're working really hard and I'm sorry to hear things are so tough at the moment. TTC is so stressful. Hang in there... I hope you feel better soon.

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Depression, anxiety, panic attacks

How is your week going? Emotionally, just ok. I've been pretty sick... sinus infection and ear infection. It's hard being sick when you've got an LO to take care of

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? Making it through another week is always an accomplishment

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? No I really need to get on top of shit and reschedule my appointment with my therapist. I canceled I think 3 weeks ago and still haven't rescheduled.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? trying new restaurants and eating really good food. I also love running... all things I haven't gotten to enjoy much since LO's been born

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Tags would be a nice reminder

[kmc2]

Thedish congratulations on your new baby girl and glad you're enjoying her. I hope you're feeling better. Icequeen, I hope you're doing okay. I admire your strength and determination to keep going despite all you have to deal with. And your honesty about the way you feel is incredible, I have a lot of respect for that.

-depression and anxiety

-I don't like this week so far because its one of those weeks where it feels like nothing is going right

-my accomplishment is that I'm still not smoking, but I really want to I'll admit. My struggle is that I feel like I'm still just not sure if staying with my DH is the right thing to do anymore.

-I'm on my second day without my medication because of a massive screw up with refills from my PCP and my psychiatrist end of things. I'm really hoping this gets resolved tomorrow. I'm looking into new mental health/medical care closer to home. This was the last straw for me. I was literally begging people to help me on the phone earlier.

-my favorite hobby is reading or watching movies and just relaxing

[mrsb1008]

Anxiety with panic disorder

Weekend was great! SIL had our niece fri night so we spent Saturday at the hospital visiting. We also told both our families about the pregnancy this weekend. It's so good to have told them! The rest of the Week is going ok. I'll get into details below.

Yesterday was a mess I was pretty good til about 3pm then things went downhill. I ended up getting a headache that caused me to be nauseous. That caused me to go into panic and it just spiraled from there. I was an anxious panicky mess the rest of the day. It was awful.

I had my first true Ob appt Monday. Just the internal. They tried to find the HB with the Doppler but couldn't find it. I was surprisingly calm and was fine waiting til next week for our NT scan. We did have our U/s last week and everything looked good. I was also happy with how they asked how my anxiety was doing on Monday and said just to let them know if it changes. They are fine with Zoloft during pregnancy so that was good to hear.

GTKY: anything artsy craftsy. I do all sorts of things.

And yes please tag me. I completely forgot last week!

[icequeen]

@rocknrollfriend, lulu, flcl thank you you all so much for your kind words and encouragement.

thedish, I am so happy to hear you and your LO are doing well and that you are adjusting.

olivegoose, I'm sorry you have a cold and hope you feel better soon!

@rocknrollfriend, looking forward to your check in, honey!

lulu, it's great your husband is home and you can catch a break.

2kiddos, I'm glad your new medication is workable and that it keeps getting better!

flcl, I'm sorry you are feeling sick and hope you get to reschedule your therapy appointment.

kmc2, I know how hard the marital issues can be and I will keep you and your husband in my prayers.

[icequeen]

Feb 18, 2015 21:51:25 GMT -5 mrsb1008 said:

Anxiety with panic disorder

Weekend was great! SIL had our niece fri night so we spent Saturday at the hospital visiting. We also told both our families about the pregnancy this weekend. It's so good to have told them! The rest of the Week is going ok. I'll get into details below.

Yesterday was a mess I was pretty good til about 3pm then things went downhill. I ended up getting a headache that caused me to be nauseous. That caused me to go into panic and it just spiraled from there. I was an anxious panicky mess the rest of the day. It was awful.

I had my first true Ob appt Monday. Just the internal. They tried to find the HB with the Doppler but couldn't find it. I was surprisingly calm and was fine waiting til next week for our NT scan. We did have our U/s last week and everything looked good. I was also happy with how they asked how my anxiety was doing on Monday and said just to let them know if it changes. They are fine with Zoloft during pregnancy so that was good to hear.

GTKY: anything artsy craftsy. I do all sorts of things.

And yes please tag me. I completely forgot last week!

So happy your U/S turned out great!

[olivegoose]

icequeen, I love how you tag everyone and comment on their posts. So thoughtful of you!

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Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Anxiety and depression, under treatment.

How is your week going? Pretty good. I am feeling better the last few days. Not talking to DH because it's just easier right now. Our weekly therapy appt is tomorrow though and I'm not looking forward to it.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I've been using a little bergamot and clary sage essential oils as aromatherapy at bedtime, plus some focused deep breathing, and I've slept pretty well. I've also switched from coffee to Earl Grey tea (it has bergamot oil in it!) and cut out alcohol over the last week because it seemed like they were making me feel yucky. I am feeling better.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Nope.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? Gardening and hiking.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Sure, I'll take a tag. I roam around the boards so it would be a nice reminder. Thanks for the offer!

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p.s. my "likes" or whatever are usually meant to be like hugs. Just an acknowledgement that I read your post and I care.

[olivegoose]

@rocknrollfriend, I cut out alcohol and almost all caffeine as well. It makes a huge difference in how I feel! I used to always want to drink to help me relax but now it just sounds awful. I feel much better without it.

[icequeen]

Feb 19, 2015 0:03:53 GMT -5 olivegoose said:

icequeen, I love how you tag everyone and comment on their posts. So thoughtful of you!

Thank you. I just want everyone to know that amidst my own darkness I still want others to feel hopeful and supported, because that is exactly what I get from this community! You ladies are amazing.

[icequeen]

Feb 19, 2015 1:04:55 GMT -5 @rocknrollfriend said:

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Anxiety and depression, under treatment.

How is your week going? Pretty good. I am feeling better the last few days. Not talking to DH because it's just easier right now. Our weekly therapy appt is tomorrow though and I'm not looking forward to it.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I've been using a little bergamot and clary sage essential oils as aromatherapy at bedtime, plus some focused deep breathing, and I've slept pretty well. I've also switched from coffee to Earl Grey tea (it has bergamot oil in it!) and cut out alcohol over the last week because it seemed like they were making me feel yucky. I am feeling better.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Nope.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? Gardening and hiking.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Sure, I'll take a tag. I roam around the boards so it would be a nice reminder. Thanks for the offer!

Good luck with your therapy appointment, honey. I think sometimes a little break in communication is a good thing, really. It is so awesome that both of your are willing to go and following through with it, BTW. DH and I also attended and will start up again once my ED is more under control and we can afford more sessions. Also, good for you for finding some helpful techniques for your overall wellbeing. The tea sounds wonderful and I'm glad you found an oil combination that works for you. Big hugs, I'll be thinking of you today!

[yoshijo28]

Feb 17, 2015 20:25:29 GMT -5 thedish said:

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. OCD, anxiety, eating issues 

How is your week going? Not great. Lost 2 more lbs and am having a hard time not trying to lose more and convincing myself to actually gain weight. Also we are TTC and found out today our RE recommends we do IVF. I'm debating trying some IUIs first but the success rate would only be 5%


Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I've admitted to myself I need to see a therapist. Figuring out how to tell DH.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? N/a

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby?  I like going to the gym and watching reality tv

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Yes please! 

[yoshijo28]

icequeen I'm proud of your accomplishments! Those are huge and you are trying really hard! I'm so sorry about your struggles while TTC, sending you hugs!
2kiddos that's good news about your mess working. Financial issues suck big time!! I'm sorry your dealing with that
mrsb1008 that's great your u/s was good, hope everything is great next week too!

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Feb 19, 2015 12:34:52 GMT -5 olivegoose said:

@rocknrollfriend, I cut out alcohol and almost all caffeine as well. It makes a huge difference in how I feel! I used to always want to drink to help me relax but now it just sounds awful. I feel much better without it.

Yeah I'm thinking it was a good move. I love coffee, craft beer, and wine so I probably won't cut them out completely, but cutting way back seems to be the right thing to do right now. Glad to hear it's helping you!

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Feb 19, 2015 12:59:04 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Feb 19, 2015 1:04:55 GMT -5 @rocknrollfriend said:

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Anxiety and depression, under treatment.

How is your week going? Pretty good. I am feeling better the last few days. Not talking to DH because it's just easier right now. Our weekly therapy appt is tomorrow though and I'm not looking forward to it.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I've been using a little bergamot and clary sage essential oils as aromatherapy at bedtime, plus some focused deep breathing, and I've slept pretty well. I've also switched from coffee to Earl Grey tea (it has bergamot oil in it!) and cut out alcohol over the last week because it seemed like they were making me feel yucky. I am feeling better.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Nope.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? Gardening and hiking.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Sure, I'll take a tag. I roam around the boards so it would be a nice reminder. Thanks for the offer!

Good luck with your therapy appointment, honey. I think sometimes a little break in communication is a good thing, really. It is so awesome that both of your are willing to go and following through with it, BTW. DH and I also attended and will start up again once my ED is more under control and we can afford more sessions. Also, good for you for finding some helpful techniques for your overall wellbeing. The tea sounds wonderful and I'm glad you found an oil combination that works for you. Big hugs, I'll be thinking of you today!

Thank you icequeen, you are so sweet. I do think the break helped because it allowed me to step back and relax a little. Our appointment went really well, it was hard (as always) but we were able to connect and I'm feeling more hopeful. I think we both just wish it wasn't so hard! But yes, at least we are committed to trying our best, I know a lot of couples can't quite make it to that stage. Good luck re-starting therapy with your DH!

[Deleted]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Bipolar 1, GAD, Narcolepsy w/o Cataplexy.

How is your week going? It was crappy. I just moved into cycle 8 of TTC#1. I knew this month was a shot in the dark but I was hoping for it anyway. I started spotting immediately after my u/s.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? Struggling with the fact that I'm in cycle 8. My best is due with her LO#3 in just a few weeks. She told me she was pregnant right after I went off the pill.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? I had an u/s on Thursday. I've had pelvic pain on and off for over a year. Consensus is that it's residual pain from cysts and IBS.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? Clipping coupons. I find it relaxing.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Yes. That way I'm not continuously late to them. Like this week.

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Hello,

I feel like I jumped into a thread without introducing myself, so I'll intro through this.

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.
I'm in limbo. I struggle with depression and anxiety but have no official diagnosis. I haven't been in a situation to keep a therapist long enough to work to get one. As I mentioned in a different thread, I sort of diagnosed myself with borderline personality disorder. With FI's help, I'm working up the courage to see a therapist once I have coverage (May) and get a legitimate diagnosis.

How is your week going?
It was a really bad week. FI visited last weekend, which was wonderful but left me feeling lonely and depressed. I sort of spiralled after he left, leaving the house only to go to work, and eating non-stop.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
I am struggling with my self-worth and sense of purpose right now because I cannot find a job for after my contract ends. FI has told me repeatedly that we can manage just fine on one income, but I don't want to become a burden to him. Also, there's this niggling voice in my head who says that the lack of interviews is proof of my general incompetence.
I consider it an accomplishment that I talked about my mental health in a public(ish) space. I'm always afraid people will think I'm imagining things, especially since I don't have a real diagnosis, just my belief that I have it.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby?
Right now, baking. I find baking, and sometimes cooking, very soothing.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you?
Sure. It will make it feel mandatory, and I need that.

EDIT: Stray coding fixed.

[runnergirl812]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Anxiety. I have my first psychiatrist appointment on Wednesday.

How is your week going? Pretty great. Just got back from a week in Costa Rica with my bf. Sooooo relaxing. And we missed all the snow/ cold weather.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? Still struggling with anxiety surrounding work. I had the week off and relatively little stress. Now that I'm back I am realizing how much stress I'm under.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? First psychiatrist appointment on Wednesday. I had my first therapist (psychologist) appointment last month. I think I may be headed towards meds.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? Reading. I'm insatiable.

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? I'd love it.

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@ordinaryamy Welcome! I hope you can get a therapist soon. The job search is hard for everyone, it's not just you. Fx for you to find something soon!

[helloamanda]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status Major depression and anxiety

How is your week going? Terrible! I've felt so lonely and I've been not feeling well with headaches and high blood pressure. DH was busy working or gone all week and I haven't made any friends since moving to the area. I just feel lonely. We have to take a break TTC #1 because of my blood pressure, but we are probably moving on to IVF which is overwhelming. Looking forward to starting over tomorrow.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I didn't over eat the last few days like I usually do when I am depressed.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Saw my therapist on Thursday and I was a lot better than the week before, but still not great. Still on Cymbalta twice a day, and I've been taking my Ativan more so I can keep calm to keep my BP down.

GTKY: What is your favorite hobby? I started knitting this week, so I might need some tips! lol

Would you like to be tagged in future check in threads to remind you? Yes, yes, yes! I'm terrible at remembering, obviously! lol

[2kiddos]

Feb 19, 2015 12:45:11 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Feb 19, 2015 0:03:53 GMT -5 olivegoose said:

icequeen, I love how you tag everyone and comment on their posts. So thoughtful of you!

Thank you. I just want everyone to know that amidst my own darkness I still want others to feel hopeful and supported, because that is exactly what I get from this community! You ladies are amazing.

Hope you are feeling better icequeen! 

[icequeen]

Feb 24, 2015 12:35:08 GMT -5 2kiddos said:

Feb 19, 2015 12:45:11 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Thank you. I just want everyone to know that amidst my own darkness I still want others to feel hopeful and supported, because that is exactly what I get from this community! You ladies are amazing.

Hope you are feeling better icequeen! 

That's really sweet of you  2kiddos, thank you. This week is definitely better.