DOR Check-in 5/14

[lemonliz]

Another week, warriors! What's up in your world?

QOTW: how are you doing today? I know this day in particular can be hard. Tell us how you're feeling.



This is a check in for anyone dealing with being labeled a poor responder, sometimes called diminished ovarian reserve but also called POF or POI. All are welcome here no matter where you are along your journey or what kind of treatment you're seeking (natural cycles, benched, CLNBC, TI, IUI, IVF or TPR).

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babyhopes
bonzo2012
dp21
heartpresidents
No Display
lemonliz
lillee
@underdog25
woodenshoes

Check in with us whenever you feel like it!
vballbaby
amandaleigh
sammae
pandora89
4furrypaws
mushe


Grads:
gratefulandthankful -- LL cycle (#9?) with best unicorn BFP story ever

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fishchicks -- Round 2 IUI#1 with EPP and low stims
bootsorhearts — DE cycle
wannabmama - IVF#2
muscari - IVF#2
king26 - FET after 4 failed fresh IVFs
airbear916 — IVF#2
river — FET cycle
njnp528: surprise BFP after IVF#1
fishchicks: DHEA, TI#1 with EPP, low-stim + trigger
rslh10: FET cycle after IVF#1 w/PGS
wineandcupcakes: FET#1 w/depot Lupron treatment after IVF#3
runcici: FET#2 after DE cycle
roeni: FET#1 after IVF#4 and PGS
chrysanthemum: FET#1, 3 IVF banking cycles, CCS testing
sha259: FET#4 w/last frostie from IVF#1
emilie: IUI#4 with EPP and stims
unringthebell: IUI#2 after supplements and 2 septum surgeries
those3words: IVF#4 (no BCP) MDLF, supplementing DHEA and CoQ10
ronniesgirl: surprise BFP on DHEA after IVF#5
rn1175: DE IVF
katelm: IVF#3 FET#1 after PGS
tikoberry99: FET after IVF#1 w/PGS
pinotgrigio: surprise BFP after IVF#3
shananagins: FET, 2 IVF banking cycles, eSET PGS embryo
emmuffy: DW FET#1, IVF#2 w/HGH after DHEA and supplements
lilycakes78: IVF#2 MDLF
K1111K: IVF#3 MDLF, 2-day transfer of 4 embryos

[lemonliz]

Hi, ladies! I thought about all of you all day today. I had to work all day today and I thought it would be painful but... I'll finish the rest of this in the QOTW.

I ovulated last week so this week I'll jump on the estrace and prime until we're cleared by insurance for stimming in June. Dr. Wonderful thinks that priming longer than a week can actually increase your AFC. Wouldn't that be cool.

QOTW: I thought working today was going to suck so badly but actually (praise be the Zoloft LOL) all I could see was the pain of others and none of my own. I took care of all my widowed old guys who come in every day and bought them refills all day long without them asking, and I made sure to give special treats to the lady who lost her daughter to a heroin overdose a few years ago. It made me feel good to be extra special to everyone I suspected was dreading MD. And I even had fun wishing all of the ladies with kids a happy MD -- except for the assholes who complained that we didn't have any free giveaways for mothers (half priced frappucinos from 3-6 aren't enough?!) I just told them that for those of us who don't or can't have kids, that would be a pretty unfair deal, as if the deal isn't already unfair enough. In any case, I hope someone was good to all of you today, too!

[babyhopes]

Good luck getting started, lemonliz. That is very interesting about the AFC and longer priming. Interested to see how that plays out. I am rooting so damn hard for your banking cycles.

AFM, I'm 4dp5dt and I still had a very faint line yesterday. I didn't test today, but I imagine my trigger is out now. I could barely see anything yesterday. I'm not sure when I'll be brave enough to test.

QOTW: I didn't do much today. DH and I just spent our day watching movies and relaxing. I thought it'd be easier since I am PUPO, but it wasn't. Hopefully we'll all have our babies come 2018. ❤️

[lemonliz]

babyhopes PEEEEEEEE on alllllll the things!!! I can't wait till the 22nd! I've got all my FX for this 🤞

[lillee]

lemonliz I hope that is true about improving AFC. I'm glad you had a good day taking care of your customers.
FX for this cycle babyhopes.

I'm doing better now that estradiol has been added. My scan on Friday went fine. I go back Wednesday then the FET next week.

QOTW - I'm doing ok today. My mom went to visit my brother so I've stayed home all day cleaning and watching tv.

[heartpresidents]

babyhopes I'm with lemonliz! I have no self control and would like to transfer that to others. Crossing all my fingers for you!

lemonliz That is such an amazing way to approach the day. I'm glad it wasn't as bad as you were expecting.

QOTW ...trigger warnings...

Per the usual, the dread leading up to the day was worse than the day itself. Lincoln is buried at a beautiful cemetery and arboretum and we were able to take a walk there with our rainbow and find a little breath of peace. I got to snuggle and take a nap with my rainbow, and this evening I went through both boys' baby books. Tears, tears, tears, but happiness and love is there, too.

[bonzo2012]

Good luck getting started on the estrace lemonliz!

babyhopes, crossing my fingers for you when you do test!

lillee, glad you're doing better! Hope it all goes smoothly through the FET!

heartpresidents, so many hugs. I clicked on your blog and read some of it. I can only imagine the mixed emotions a day like yesterday must bring.

Not much new here yet. We have our IVF class this Wednesday, then I stop the BCP next weekend!

QOTW: I was working at the art museum yesterday, which was a really great distraction. This weekend and next I'm the "artist in residence", so I'm basically working on theater stuff I would be doing anyway, but since it's related to one of the exhibits, I'm doing it where visitors can come up to me and ask questions. So I spent the whole afternoon talking about my work, not thinking about what the day means/doesn't mean for me. It's probably not a strategy that will work every year, but it worked yesterday.

[bonzo2012]

May 15, 2017 10:38:40 GMT -5 ****** said:

Oh my gosh, bonzo2012 it's almost go time! Enjoy you class Wednesday.

Almost! I start stims next Thursday, so a week and a half! I still don't have my meds though, so to prevent myself from feeling anxious about that I'm reminding myself that there's still plenty of time rather than thinking about how close it is. 

[No Display]

lemonliz yay for starting priming. And it would be awesome if it increased AFC. FX for you.

babyhopes keeping everything crossed for you!

lillee did they not have you on estradiol or estrace at all? Or did they just up your dose? For our FET I start estrace day 2 of my cycle.

heartpresidents the day sounds beautiful and emotional. I'm glad you found some peace. My heart is with you.

bonzo2012 have fun at IVF class. And don't stress about meds, they overnight them.

AFM: My hysteroscopy went good. Nothing abnormal in there so I'll just leave the chemical to a genetic issue.
My appointment with my RE went really well. I love my doctor. We made a plan to transfer two with my next cycle. He is giving us about an 80-85% shot with 2. And only about a 25% that we will get twins. So those are numbers I am good with.
We won't change anything with my protocol for now.
If we do this transfer and it still fails then we will do the endometrial integrity biopsy before transferring again.

QOTW: yesterday was fine.
I spent the day celebrating my mom and grandma and sisters. I try to celebrate the reasons to be grateful for the holiday and not dwell on reasons that make it sad. I won't always have my grandmother and mother, and I plan to show them how much they mean to me as long as I can.

[bonzo2012]

May 15, 2017 10:45:32 GMT -5 ****** said:

May 15, 2017 10:41:05 GMT -5 bonzo2012 said:

Almost! I start stims next Thursday, so a week and a half! I still don't have my meds though, so to prevent myself from feeling anxious about that I'm reminding myself that there's still plenty of time rather than thinking about how close it is. 

yes. Plenty of time! Where are you getting your meds from?

SMP Pharmacy. I think they're based in Miami. My nurse called in the prescription to them so I didn't do any pharmacy comparisons, but they work with a few of the discount programs so that's really nice.

[babyhopes]

May 14, 2017 19:40:13 GMT -5 lemonliz said:

babyhopes PEEEEEEEE on alllllll the things!!! I can't wait till the 22nd! I've got all my FX for this 🤞

I am definitely doing to pee on all the things before beta! One week left. I am debating on when though. DH wants me to wait and I have a graduation to go to Friday, so those two things are what is holding me back.

Hoping my little piggy is hanging in there.

[lemonliz]

May 15, 2017 16:39:13 GMT -5 babyhopes said:

May 14, 2017 19:40:13 GMT -5 lemonliz said:

babyhopes PEEEEEEEE on alllllll the things!!! I can't wait till the 22nd! I've got all my FX for this 🤞

I am definitely doing to pee on all the things before beta! One week left. I am debating on when though. DH wants me to wait and I have a graduation to go to Friday, so those two things are what is holding me back.

Hoping my little piggy is hanging in there. <3

Stick like a muddy little piggy!!

I totally get that. Maybe poas this weekend? Then at least you have a day to celebrate and digest the news (I refuse to think otherwise) before you have to go to work.

I just always hated getting beta results by myself from some nurse over the phone or a portal. So I tended to poas before beta.

[lillee]

No Display I take Lupron and BCP's for about a week, quit taking BCP's, then reduce the amount of Lupron and add in estradiol a couple days later. Until I take the estradiol I usually feel like crap.

[woodenshoes]

lemonliz, I hope the estrace treats you well. I hope that is true about improving your AFC. If it is I need to get my RE on board with that.

babyhopes, I hope you get good news whenever you decide to POAS.

lillee, I hope your FET goes well!

heartpresidents, I glad there was some happiness and love on your mother's day.

bonzo2012, I hope your class goes well tonight.

No Display, I glad your hysteroscopy was all good and that your RE appointment went well.

AFM, my stupid AFC was only 3 on the u/s I had Saturday. I hope it is a little better when we are cycling in a month. I did have a good talk with the nurse about other options if this first IVF fails miserably and she did add me to the people to consider when they have donated medicine. Well, today My RE clinic to let me know they have 3 600iu follistim pens to give me so I only need to order 2 of the gonal-f instead of the 4 that were on my prescription. That phone call made my day! It looks like I will start estrace in about 2.5 weeks and stims will start around the 8th of June.

QOTW: +++++++TRIGGER WARNINGS++++++++

I do have a DS, but Mother's day was still very difficult. I am still grieving 3 losses in the last 10 months and the loss of my tubes at the end of Jan. My emotions were all over the place on mother's day. Some happiness, some sadness, and some anger. We spent the day with my mother, but it is difficult because she is not very sensitive to my feelings and she has not been patient with my grief, so there is some tension.

[lemonliz]

woodenshoes, I'll keep you posted about that AFC! I won't be doing an u/s before starting estrace but my AFCs -- without DHEA -- have been single digits. I think my last one was 4? If even a few more can be recruited before stimming, I'm all game for that. That is wonderful news about the donations!

[lemonliz]

May 17, 2017 19:21:21 GMT -5 ****** said:

So, if i want to do EPP, I have to make an appointment to discuss with the doctor. *thumbs down* actually, I sent pretty long email about everything recommended from y'all. And all I got in response was, "would you like to make an appointment for next week" blah

Well that's disappointing. Who wants to drive hours out of the way just for a 15 minute appointment? Can you see if they can just do a phone call? I had an RE who wouldn't put anything like that into writing in an email because it would become part of my record but he would talk to me over the phone so that I didn't have to come in all the time.

[lemonliz]

Guys, this week has been just a really weird week and then the forum drama went down, and I totally forgot to take my first dose of estrace! I took it as soon as I got home from an appointment, NBD, but I had been counting down the days and then all of the sudden I totally completely forgot LOL. Killer week 11ty, Lemon 0.

[bonzo2012]

lemonliz, oh no! Glad it's NBD and you got back on track. I almost told the pharmacy that Tuesday delivery was fine. Nope, need to start dex on Tuesday! Luckily they called me back quickly and I got it fixed.