AW: Threatened miscarriage? (Final Update)
Feb 22, 2015 11:17:47 GMT -5
Post by shadesofgold on Feb 22, 2015 11:17:47 GMT -5
I could use some support and good thoughts.
Last night around 8 pm I went to the bathroom and noticed bright blood in my underwear. Totally terrifying. I had more blood when I wiped. It got pinker and eventually tapered off to just light pink spotting within the course of an hour. Overall, I think there was enough blood to soak a light tampon. There was no brown blood at all, but some tiny clots. I didn't have any pain or cramping. I haven't had anything beyond spotting since then (it has been about 15 hours). From what I've read, it sounds like maybe a threatened miscarriage, but I'm not sure. Everything says "some bleeding" can be normal, but that doesn't really tell me much.
I spoke with the on-call midwife at my hospital this morning and she told me it sounded "stable", that some bleeding in early pregnancy can be totally normal and it is a good sign that it stopped so quickly. She advised me to call the front desk Monday morning to get my first appointment on Thursday bumped up to Monday or Tuesday so I can get get an ultrasound sooner. She said to call again if I started bleeding again or had pain. She seemed pretty casual about it all, which I guess should put me at ease. I still feel scared and anxious. It will be a long wait before I can get the scheduler on the phone tomorrow.
I guess I'm just gonna chill and cry until my Oscar party tonight. Hopefully red carpet glamour and Neil Patrick Harris can help me forget my worries. Thanks for sending me good virtual vibes and sharing any wisdom you may have!
UPDATE: Had the u/s this morning and things were... sobering. The embryo was measuring about a week behind and the heartbeat was only 59 beats per min, about half of what it should be. We had to wait another hour and a half before meeting with the midwife to discuss what that all really meant, but I knew we were looking at a bad prognosis, and I spent most of the time ugly crying into a hot chocolate in the corner of a nearby Starbucks. The midwife presented a pretty heavy scenario. Such a slow heart rate and slow growth indicates the pregnancy is likely coming to a close. At this point, I'm just waiting out a natural miscarriage. We will go back for an U/S on Monday to see how things are progressing but nobody expects to see a thriving baby. And that fucking sucks.
I would like to say how nice it was to come back to the boards today and see several new messages of support. The fact that so many of you were thinking of me and sending me virtual hugs is touching and fortifying. I am sad to leave this little community, but I might lurk in once in awhile just to check on y'all. I hope you each have healthy, radiant pregnancies that become beautiful, sticky babies. xo
UPDATE #2: Just wanted to circle back and close the loop on this. Many of you said you were holding on to hope for us, and I didn't want to leave you on a cliffhanger. An u/s yesterday confirmed that the heartbeat had stopped in the last week and we lost our baby. I will be having a D&C on Thursday. Thanks again for the T&P. Best wishes to you all!
Last night around 8 pm I went to the bathroom and noticed bright blood in my underwear. Totally terrifying. I had more blood when I wiped. It got pinker and eventually tapered off to just light pink spotting within the course of an hour. Overall, I think there was enough blood to soak a light tampon. There was no brown blood at all, but some tiny clots. I didn't have any pain or cramping. I haven't had anything beyond spotting since then (it has been about 15 hours). From what I've read, it sounds like maybe a threatened miscarriage, but I'm not sure. Everything says "some bleeding" can be normal, but that doesn't really tell me much.
I spoke with the on-call midwife at my hospital this morning and she told me it sounded "stable", that some bleeding in early pregnancy can be totally normal and it is a good sign that it stopped so quickly. She advised me to call the front desk Monday morning to get my first appointment on Thursday bumped up to Monday or Tuesday so I can get get an ultrasound sooner. She said to call again if I started bleeding again or had pain. She seemed pretty casual about it all, which I guess should put me at ease. I still feel scared and anxious. It will be a long wait before I can get the scheduler on the phone tomorrow.
I guess I'm just gonna chill and cry until my Oscar party tonight. Hopefully red carpet glamour and Neil Patrick Harris can help me forget my worries. Thanks for sending me good virtual vibes and sharing any wisdom you may have!
UPDATE: Had the u/s this morning and things were... sobering. The embryo was measuring about a week behind and the heartbeat was only 59 beats per min, about half of what it should be. We had to wait another hour and a half before meeting with the midwife to discuss what that all really meant, but I knew we were looking at a bad prognosis, and I spent most of the time ugly crying into a hot chocolate in the corner of a nearby Starbucks. The midwife presented a pretty heavy scenario. Such a slow heart rate and slow growth indicates the pregnancy is likely coming to a close. At this point, I'm just waiting out a natural miscarriage. We will go back for an U/S on Monday to see how things are progressing but nobody expects to see a thriving baby. And that fucking sucks.
I would like to say how nice it was to come back to the boards today and see several new messages of support. The fact that so many of you were thinking of me and sending me virtual hugs is touching and fortifying. I am sad to leave this little community, but I might lurk in once in awhile just to check on y'all. I hope you each have healthy, radiant pregnancies that become beautiful, sticky babies. xo
UPDATE #2: Just wanted to circle back and close the loop on this. Many of you said you were holding on to hope for us, and I didn't want to leave you on a cliffhanger. An u/s yesterday confirmed that the heartbeat had stopped in the last week and we lost our baby. I will be having a D&C on Thursday. Thanks again for the T&P. Best wishes to you all!