Weekly Checkin - 2/24

[thedish]

I hope everyone had a great week! To anyone who is struggling, you are in my thoughts.

As promised, here are your tagged reminders: flcl, mrsb1008, @rocknrollfriend, yoshijo28, @wallflwr926, @ordinaryamy, runnergirl812, helloamanda. If you'd like to be added to the reminder list, please just let me know


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Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.



How is your week going?



Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?



Any changes in medication or recent appointments?



GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go?

[mrsb1008]

Yay! Thanks for the reminder thedish,

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Panic disorder and GAD



How is your week going? So far, my week is going really well. When I sleep well at night I actually feel like my energy is slowly coming back. I had some anxiety on Sunday night, but luckily it was short lived.



Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? We're slowly telling more people about the pregnancy. Told a few more people in my family, and a few of my coworkers that I'm close with.



Any changes in medication or recent appointments? We have our NT scan tomorrow, so I'm looking forward to seeing the little bean again. Hopefully, everything will look good. Of course the anxiety monster in the back of my head is telling me that something is wrong (going into details of all the different possibilities). But I'm doing my darndest not to listen.



GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go? The better question is where wouldn't I go? I think I would love to start in Europe, then head east to Asia. And just continue over to the western US and back home.

[icequeen]

thedish, thanks for starting the check-in! Hope you are well and know that you are in my prayers as well!

mrsb1008, I'm glad your anxiety isn't getting the best of you during first tri. I know how scary of a time it is! FX for a good appointment tomorrow!

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Anorexia Nervosa, Bulimia Nervosa, GAD

How is your week going? It is going SO much better than last week. I went to the internal medicine doctor a week ago and got my results in the mail today. Thank God all my test results are normal except for the amylase which was way high due to the purging, and I had a slightly abnormal EKG but nothing he was alarmed about. Additionally, today is amazing because I saw the RE and my lining has caught up and I am still in the running for this cycle and I am freaking ecstatic!!!!!!


Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I had 4 main goals, which were to have 3 perfect non ED days, and two of them were supposed to be in a row. I also wanted to eat a breakfast of at least 100 calories every day without purging, and to eat dinner at least 2 nights out of the week outside of the non ED days where I didn't purge my dinner (because on the non ED days I would be keeping down all my food anyway), and to remember to take all of medicine at the right times. I was able to accomplish all of that, and more! I was actually able to eat dinner and not purge every single night! I also feel more turned off from some of the foods that I would normally consider my "binge" foods. Like today. Today I allowed myself to binge and purge, but I couldn't even finish half of what I planned to eat and throw up because I was just so repulsed by all of it. I just can't put my body through this any more. I honestly feel like I'm breaking down.


Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Going up to 60 mg of Prozac but moving it to night time. I'm getting very lethargic during the day. Dietitian appointment tomorrow, will start seeing a therapist hopefully next week once she calls me back to confirm a time. I had a phone check in with my psych this morning. She's the bomb.com.


GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go? Definitely somewhere tropical, around Turks and Caicos maybe? My mom and sister swear it is paradise.

[snarkysparklefart]

thedish, I'd love to be added to tags please
icequeen, fx for you this cycle! I was a 2IFer, lots of positive vibes your way.
mrsb1008, congrats to you
@giamia923, GL at your appointment!

For some reason I'm having a copy paste fail, so I'm being brief.

Diagnosis: Borderline PD primarily. Host of side issues.

My week is going okay. I think I've hit that pregnancy wall where I'm so ready to meet this baby and so antsy about my VBAC that I can't function properly at all. It sucks. I also have a cold and can't get the overthinking to calm down.

Struggles and accomplishments: lots of nesting done, but my type A personality is even getting on my own nerves. Some family drama this weekend and early this week has me edgy because things tend to get ugly and I just don't have good coping skills when it comes to my family.

Meds/ appointments: No changes, not currently using anything other than an anxiety med as needed (haven't needed in awhile, thankfully). I have an appointment set for about 6 weeks postpartum with my psychiatrist, so we are really hoping that early treatment of any PPD/A that may come this time will be easier to manage this time than it was last. I'll be getting back to therapy then as well, though I haven't set that appointment yet.

GTKY: No idea! I've always wanted to go to Jamaica, Lebanon, and just about anywhere in Europe, so I'd be happy with any of those.

Hugs to those who need it this week.

[thedish]

mrsb1008, GL at your NT scan! It's always so exciting to see them

icequeen, so glad you're still in the running! Yay! Also glad to hear you have a great psych and I hope you are able to start seeing a therapist next week!

@giamia923, No problem, I'll add you to my list! Sorry your H is being annoying  

snarkysparklefart, I'll add you to the list too! I definitely hear you on the "pregnancy wall" I dealt with that as well. I hope you find something that works for you to work through it. For me, it was clearing my mind as best I could in a dark room with soothing music.

[thedish]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. General anxiety & depression with panic attacks.

How is your week going? It's OK. LO is having some sleep issues, and I'm having problems with calming her down. It's starting to stress me out a bit, but I'm trying to keep a level head as best I can. I've been running a fever for the past 9 days and also I have gallstones (surgery Friday), and so I kinda feel all over the place. My mom is staying with us Friday and Saturday though, so that should help... but it's all starting to feel a bit overwhelming. H works and so he sleeps upstairs in bed and DD and I stay downstairs on the couch. I miss him even though we do make a point each night after dinner to spend time together when DD does sleep.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? It sounds silly, but my goal this week was to take a shower while home alone with DD. I successfully did that yesterday!

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Still the same, on Zoloft. I do think it's helping, I feel that same feeling with emotions that I did when I was on the Lexapro before my BFP. Emotions feel more distant, I don't easily cry anymore. It's good but it's unsettling at the same time. It's necessary right now though.

GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go? Europe. My mom was born in Austria and her parents immigrated here with her and her siblings when they were young. The rest of their family still lives there though, and I've only met a handful of them. I'd love to meet the rest of them.

[mosy]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.
depression/anxiety, BPD, BED


How is your week going?

I've had a good week, actually. I made my goal of going 1 week with no binges, and I exercised 6 of the last 7 mornings, which helps tremendously with my depression/anxiety as well as motivating me not to binge.


Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?

See above re: no binges and exercising. I feel more in control of myself, and I was able to eat a trigger food last night without it leading to a binge or paralyzing guilt.


Any changes in medication or recent appointments?

No.


GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money, or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go?
I'd go all over Europe.

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Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. anxiety/depression, under treatment



How is your week going? well! I'm feeling good and getting along (more or less) with DH and DS. Not overly stressed by work or life in general. It's nice for a change!



Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I guess just the above, though I'm not sure what to attribute it to...



Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Nope.



GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go? I would go to California in pre-European settlement time. I'd love to see it wild and uninvaded, like John Muir did.

[runnergirl812]

Thanks for tagging me thedish!


Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.

Generalized anxiety disorder. Officially as of 4:30 pm today.

How is your week going?

Okay. I had a panic attack on Monday, and have been irritable and "off" ever since. I,didn't get much sleep last night and had to apologize to bf for completely overreacting today for something minor. It's all stress related. But, I had my Drs appt today, so I got my official diagnose and meds!


Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?

Accomplishments: I've been productive this week. Finally. Some of the pressure is off but not all. The snow that's on its way will also give me some extra time to get things done in solitude.



Any changes in medication or recent appointments?

Today. Got a prescription for Prozac and klonopin. Happy pills for me! Prozac to take in the am, Klonopin to work in the short term to help me calm the Eff down and get some sleep.



GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go?

The Southern Pacific. I'd hit up all the islands and soak up lots of sun!

[flcl]

thedish, thanks for the tag... best of luck with your surgery!
icequeen, so glad to hear that you're having a better week... I was thinking about you lots last week
@giamia923, sorry to hear that H is kinda being a butt. Hoping that he comes around to understanding your treatment needs
snarkysparklefart, I hope the drama with your family works out. Love your avatar and name btw
mosy, yay for your good week!
@rocknrollfriend, glad that you're getting along with your boys!
runnergirl812, best of luck with your new meds!

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Depression, anxiety, panic attacks

How is your week going? Slow... I can't believe it's only Wed

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
I'm definitely not feeling as good as I was earlier... things are foggier, patience is shorter (especially with myself), always on the verge of tears.....

Any changes in medication or recent appointments?
I need to get off my ass and call my therapist to reschedule that appointment from god know when

GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go? Where wouldn't I go?? If I had to pick just a couple...Australia and New Zealand!!

[icequeen]

thedish, I'm glad your mom is able to help and the Zoloft is working!
snarkysparklefart, family can be tricky. It's great that you have a PP plan set in place.
@giamia923, I'm so sorry about your husband putting extra stress on you. Not cool at all.
mosy, great to see you felt more in control this week!
runnergirl812, yay for a good appointment and proper diagnosis.
@rocknrollfriend, I'm so happy your home life is more peaceful nowadays!

[icequeen]

flcl, hope you get that appointment soon! Your health is most important and you deserve this!

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runnergirl812 I'm glad you got a diagnoses and meds! I hope things get better for you from here.

[helloamanda]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Depression and Anxiety

How is your week going? Not the best. Had an IVF consult and was told that I'm too overweight for IVF. I need to lose at least 50lbs to even be considered. I wish they would have mentioned this when I started treatments so I wasn't so emotionally involved in the whole process before they dropped this bomb on me. I just feel like I can't catch a break lately.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I've really been isolating myself and staying in bed for a long time. I know it's not good for me, but it's all I want to do.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Seeing therapist tomorrow.

GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go? Anywhere warm and with a beach! I'm so tired of this snow! -_-

[flcl]

helloamanda Hang in there and best of luck with your therapist today

[icequeen]

helloamanda, I'm so sorry you are having such disappointments. I am definitely no stranger to infertility myself. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself about losing the weight but set small goals about eating healthier, having smaller portions, and getting some more physical activity. Don't overwhelm yourself. I'm sure your therapist will some more ideas on how to get you on the right track. Big hugs to you. You can do this!

[Deleted]

Ugh, I thought I posted the other day.

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status. Bipolar 1, ADD, GAD, and Narcolepsy w/o Cataplexy.
In general, absent-minded seems to overwhelm my life. That's not a real diagnosis though.

How is your week going? It's taking forever. My car broke and the repairs are pricey. H is struggling with ED sex but if we switch it will screw the timing.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? Well, it appears my punctuality has not improved. Deadlines make me so anxious.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? My ultrasound was all clear.GYN said if im not K'U by July then we can take next step. I'm really hoping this our cycle. MH turns 40 on Pi day.

GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go? New York City. That's where I feel most at home.

[helloamanda]

@giamia923 icequeen flcl -- Thanks guys We did some progressive muscle relaxation and that helped calm me down! We talked it out and I'm going to try a medically supervised program and see how it goes.

[flcl]

@wallflwr926 FX this is your cycle!

[booksntea]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.

I am not sure it is a diagnosis, but I have some anger issues and issues with codependency - basically that means I have a tendency to focus outward and either try to fix other people or I can look to others for my own sense of self.

How is your weekgoing?

my week has been going ok. It started off with some major fights with DH but we worked on it, especially me, and things got better. Work has been ok, but my work partner has been drifting a bit which has left more work for me. LO has been super cranky lately and very fussy when going down for bed. Hoping it is just a stage.



Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?

I made some progress this week trying to focus on myself and my own issues instead of DH. This is always very freeing because I know I can change myself and no one else. I have been doing yoga every morning and I think it is slowly netting something positive for me. I am not quite sure how to describe it but I am practicing staying centered when I feel uncomfortable on that mat and trying to remember to do the same when things get uncomfortable at work or with my relationships.

I also journaled a bit this week...which is kind of like barfing my emotions on the page. It is cathartic for me because it brings buried emotions to the surface and helps me be less controlled by them. It also helps me remember that I have issues too and not just my husband.



Any changes in medication or recent appointments? I am not in therapy now, but am I thinking about starting up again.



GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go?

I would love to spend some time in India, probably go to Ashram on a yoga retreat. I would love to spend some time with a spiritual master.

[Deleted]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status.
Still frustrating state of not knowing. I'm trying to frame the whole situation positively. I didn't push the therapy and diagnosis in the past because I didn't want to be an inconvenience and I lack self-confidence. So, I'm taking till May to research mental health and particular disorders to educate myself so I have no choice but to be self-confident. 

How is your week going?
Not bad, I have been exercising, which is an improvement over last week. We returned to the normal work schedule (last week was reading week for the students) which makes me weirdly happy to have the routine back.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
Maybe it's silly but on Tuesday I got a hair cut and had my grad pictures taken. These are really stressful things for me but they both went really well. The hairdresser and photographer were awesome and made it the best experience it could have been.

GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go?
There's so many places. I'd love to travel across Europe and North America. Also, we could never in our lifetime justify a cruise so it would be awesome to rent a whole cruise ship, not sure where though.
I'd also like to go shopping through time, buy some dresses in the '20s and '50s. I also miss my electronic typewriter and I'd like to buy one of those... and maybe some first edition novels. 

[booksntea]

thanks @giamia923 - this is the flow that got me back into practicing - it is just three minutes

www.mindbodygreen.com/0-12759/a-3-minute-yoga-flow-you-can-do-anytime-anywhere.html

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icequeen: I'm glad you got a clean bill of health AND a good week with meeting goals AND were turned off my binge eating. It sounds like things are really looking up.

@giamia923: Yayy for time spent emotionally present with LO! I hope you get to enjoy lots more of it.

snarkysparklefart: I hate it when your brain is swirling with a million thoughts and none of them good. The only coping method I have is meditative or yoga breathing, it doesn't stop the thoughts but focusing on breathing makes it harder to hear them all. I hope you feel better soon.
Dealing with family should be considered like the Olympics of coping skills. Over the years FI has seen me cope with many a difficult thing (mostly, I've handled them badly), yet the only time he's seen me fly off the handle is with my family. I'm sure you're doing the best you can and that's all that matters. 

thedish: It sounds like you're handling everything very well. GL with your surgery today!

mosy: Congrats! Your success is inspiring me to work towards exercising more regularly. I know exercise helps, yet it's hard to work myself up to it each time. 

@rocknrollfriend: I don't think there has to be a reason for the calm. I'm glad everything is going well.

runnergirl812: That's exciting! I hope the medications help you out and you get some sleep and relax.

flcl: I agree with icequeen, get that appointment scheduled. When I was attending weekly Emotion Regulation class, I found the feeling of always wanting to cry decreased a little bit. I still was emotionally volatile, but I felt like I was given the time and tools to handle it better.

helloamanda: That's so frustrating. I'm surprised they let you get so involved before dropping another challenge on you. I'm glad your appointment helped and you've made a plan. Good luck!

@wallflwr926: Praying that this your cycle! 

booksntea: Yoga and pilates are great for gathering that feeling of being centred. I highly recommend taking the yoga breathing pattern into daily life, it forces me to slow down and focus on breathing rather than whatever thoughts are racing through my head.
I'm a journal writer too. I find some days I can write pages and pages and pages about how I'm feeling. There's just something about writing the words down. 
It may be a good idea to look into therapy again. I'm not good at maintaining a regular schedule of therapy, but I never regret it when I go.

EDIT: Well wishes and prayers to all of you! 

[snarkysparklefart]

Thank you @ordinaryamy, I really appreciate the tips/ kind words and knowing that I'm not the only one who just struggles with family issues, there are so many for DH & I and they're all complex so I feel like any coping skills I may have fly out the window, because I have struggled with moving past pain from the past.

[runnergirl812]

@ordinaryamy, I was able to get some GREAT sleep last night with the clonazepam. Unfortunately because of the snow and a glitch in my dr's computers, I have yet to get the Prozac. She put the order in with the pharmacy, but the pharmacy doesn't have it, and her office was closed yesterday and today. I've called and left messages with the answering service TWICE that it was important and that I was without meds. They were sympathetic and said they'd let her know. My luck, I won't get it until Monday. But at least I have the clonazepam.

I slept 8 hours last night. EIGHT BEAUTIFUL SOLID HOURS. I woke up a little groggy and I really could go back to sleep today, but I otherwise I feel good. No other side effects. I also was able to get through my yearly performance evaluation my boss. I still have a lot of work to do, but it was overall good. What a relief!!!

[olivegoose]

Please briefly describe your diagnosis/status: SAD/GAD/ADHD.

How is your week going? It's ok. The kids have been cranky lately. CHADD is doing an awareness campaign and I shared about being diagnosed with ADHD a last winter on my FB. Not a single person who didn't already know commented on it or like it. So basically, just my friends from my BMB did. I really wish I had just kept it to myself.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?: It's hard for me to gauge if bad days are just bad days or if I need a medication adjustment.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Still going to my group therapy.

GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world and time, money or other obligations were not a factor, where would you go?: I feel like I should pick something that would stop an atrocity from being committed, I really don't know.

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Feb 27, 2015 10:18:55 GMT -5 @giamia923 said:

Feb 27, 2015 6:04:16 GMT -5 flcl said:

@wallflwr926 FX this is your cycle!

this!!! positive thoughts your way!

Thanks @giamia923 and flcl - It looks like I might have O'd super early so it's thrown a wrench into the mix. I'm trying to remain calm because there is not much I can do about it.

Edit:autocorrect is annoying me.

[kmmd]

I can't remember if I've done an intro here so I hope it's okay if I post.

I currently have a diagnosis of general anxiety disorder and emetophobia with panic attacks.

My week has been okay.

DD has been sick, and we had to spend a couple of days at the hospital, which is extremely difficult for me but I made it through.

I am currently on cipralex. It is probably the best drug I've ever tried. I really need to see my therapist but I have to make an appointment.

GTKY - I have too many to choose! Top three in random order are Hawaii, Australia, and Great Britain

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olivegoose: I'm never brave enough to participate in awareness campaigns so I think it's awesome that you did! You never know who clicked on it then didn't say anything. Also, I've got family members with ADHD, so I thank you on their behalf for increasing awareness with your story.

kmmd: I'm pretty new myself and never intro'd really either. I find these check ins a great place to jump into the community. Welcome!

[olivegoose]

Thank you @ordinaryamy. It was really hard to share, especially since my ILs don't know I was diagnosed, so the lack of responses was disheartening.