not going here.

[KayVeeKay]

I really wish I could give you a hug right now. Sounds like you've been going through so much, and the light at the end of the tunnel just isn't visible right now.

The best advice I've every gotten is to take it one step at a time. It's so easy to get overwhelmed and then even disgusted with how things are going. From everything I've seen so far with the ladies here and on other boards, we are here to support each other. I can't say I know exactly what you are going through, but I, for one, am willing to listen. Sometimes the anonymity helps.

[helloamanda]

Hey girl. First off I want to give you some hugs! You deserve it! IF is rough in itself!

I too have IF issues (I recognize you from the 3T board!). Clomid for me was the worst. I spoke with my RE about it and I got fully put on injectables, which made me feel better at least during the stimming. The 2WW and the aftermath of a BFN is where I struggle, and have to keep myself busy. I wonder if you would be able to see a PCP who could get you started on meds, or a therapist you could see on weekends so you can work on your mental wellness. Depending on your anti-depressants, it shouldn't derail your IF plans. I know you can take Prozac or Wellbutrin, which is what my psych, OB, RE and MFM recommended, but it didn't work for me. I'm on Cymbalta and they all said that would be fine too- There just isn't as much research on it with pregnancy. But they all agreed that being in a depressive state off pills was much worse for pregnancy.

I know it's hard, but as KayVeeKay try taking one step at a time. Start with taking a deep breath! I'm also here to listen if you need it.

[olivegoose]

I'm sorry you've felt the need to join us over here, but we are all here to support you in whatever path you decide to take!

That being said, there are options other than medication to help as well. Especially with everything you're going through TTC, just seeing a therapist might help you deal with your emotions. They can suggest medications to you, but you don't have to take them unless you agree that it's necessary! For me, learning more about positive self talk has been really helpful. It sounds cheesy, but it works better than I expected.

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Hi @sluttybigb00bz , PPs have given some great advice. I've only TTCing for 8 months but I share many of your concerns. I was in and out therapy and out patient treatment for several years before finding a doctor I worked well with. I still refuse to do weekly therapy sessions. I have alot issues with scheduling extra time off from work as well. I currently take Lithium but may be switched to Latuda if/when I get pregnant. I've heard some really positive things about it. Based on the little bit of info you shared it might be something to look into. (This is not medical advice, just personal opinion)
There is always a possibility the Clomid could cause mood swings because of how it effects hormones. It's not as common of a side effects; but you should bring it up with your doctor if you feel it's causing you significant anxiety.
Please don't give up. We are all here to listen and support you as much you need.

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Welcome. I'm glad you intro'd and I hope you stick around. I might be too embarrassed to ever write out your SN to tag you though.

You are going through a LOT right now! I hope we can help. Some employers allow sick leave to be used for medical appointments or treatments. Could that be an option for you? I struggle with my work schedule as well. I am in couples therapy with DH and should be in individual therapy but finding the time for both is hard.

[icequeen]

Hey! I don't know if this is off-putting or not, but if it is I'm very sorry in advance. I recognize you from both sites and am happy that you had the courage to speak up and share what you are going through. We can definitely support you in the best way we can and answer questions. I personally can relate to your IF discouragement and have a lot of compassion for you. I am so very sorry for the painful IF struggles and I am always here if you want to talk about anything. The whole process takes so much out of you, and believe me, I know how helpless you feel. Don't lose hope and keep fighting. I'm here for you.

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Mar 2, 2015 17:54:15 GMT -5 @sluttybigb00bz said:

@rocknrollfriend I hope you feel comfortable knowing I have small breasts and they're always covered I struck gold as far as being able to come and go as I please at work (meaning nobody questions me because if I come in late I just work late)...but I still have a mountain of responsibility. I manage my department but wish I was an employee....so the issue isn't in getting permission it's more feeling guilty or like a bad leader I that makes any sense.

That definitely makes sense, and it's something I struggle with as well (I'm not a manager but do have people that rely on me). I'm glad you have a flexible work environment though, I think that helps me a lot with juggling obligations.

[yoshijo28]

((hugs)) to you. I recognize you from 3tif, I also post there. We are dealing with IF and I am on clomid Too. I agree with you that it increases my anxiety and some depression. Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to.

[lulu]

Welcome!! I always just give a short and sweet "welcome!" But looking forward to getting to know you x