Loss Check-In 3/3/15

[mrswheelo]

I'm sorry to anyone that was looking for this yesterday. It was a crazy day at the Wheelo's! Crazy good though. I see that we've had a few into's this week, so please feel free to join in if you wish.

1- How are you feeling this week. What emotions are getting the better of you, or vice verse?

2- Any events or milestones this week?

3- Has your loss changed your outlook on life, people, emotions? For the better or the worse?


Because we all deserve chocolate, just for being awesome. Here are some "healthy" goodies. Enjoy!!






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[abi]

I'm new around here and did an intro in CAL. I'm 10 months out.

1- I'm doing pretty well this week, especially since my sister is visiting. I spend a lot of my time alone at home, so it's really easy to get lonely and discouraged.

2- Not quite. We're getting pretty close to a year, and it feels strange because I really thought I'd be expecting another baby by now.

3- I'm kind of bitter towards my coworkers. They don't know about my loss, but it still makes me really angry and frustrated when they go gaga over other people's babies.

[penguininthecity]

How are you feeling this week. What emotions are getting the better of you, or vice verse? Hanging in there for the most part. Last night was rough b/c I was caught off guard when a patron asked about my daughter. Thank goodness he was there ~ 15 minutes before I was about to leave for the night.

Any events or milestones this week? In a couple of days, It'll be three months from when Aurelia passed away. As I responded to one of our new posters, It's just a surreal feeling that I *should* have a three-month old when she's not here.

Has your loss changed your outlook on life, people, emotions? For the better or the worse? It's solidified lessons learned while I was in cancer treatment. Lean on members of your "village" when you need them. I've also stared at my own morality in the face while I had cancer, but this experience has reaffirmed that life is too precious, fragile, and short...

[littleowl913]

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1- How are you feeling this week. What emotions are getting the better of you, or vice verse? Yesterday I got a BFP! I am beyond ecstatic. I thought I would be more anxious with PGAL brain but maybe it hasn't sunk in yet. DH wasn't home so after I called him, I spoke with my angel baby Ronin and told him we love him and miss him and to look over us and his new sibling!

2- Any events or milestones this week? One year ago yesterday was when I had my D&C for my miscarriage. I hoping my BFP on the anniversary of that day signals a new happiness.

3- Has your loss changed your outlook on life, people, emotions? For the better or the worse?
After I loss Ronin and started to TTC again, I wondered whether having children was not part of my future. It was a scary thought.

For the most part, my losses have changed my outlook on people, for the better. Maybe change isn't the right word - Reaffirmed. The support I have received from my friends and family have been amazing. Also being here (and before on the Dump) has amazed me - I don't know what I would have done without the Loss and CAL board. For people that I've never met and probably will never meet to be so supportive and to care so much about me and my story has been overwhelming lately. Likewise I never thought I would so happy (or completely heartbroken) for someone from an online forum.

[mrswheelo]

Welcome to the board and the check-in abi. I hope that you are finding this community helpful.
penguininthecity, It still kinda takes my breath away when someone asks how my babies are doing or if I've had them yet. I'm sorry this keeps happening to you at work, but I'm glad you're hanging in there. I didn't realize you were a cancer survivor as well. (Sorry if that isn't the right term) I'm so happy you kicked cancer's ugly ass and that you have those ppl to lean on during hard times!

littleowl913, Holy guacamole! ! How exciting for you! I am so happy you finally got your BFP & soon a little sibling for Ronin. I hope you are still able to check in here occasionally. I'm glad that your loss brought you closer to those around you. I've found it can easily do the opposite.

[littleowl913]

Thanks mrswheelo! I will definitely stay around here. Back in November My MFM warned me there's a whole different mess of emotions that I have to deal with once I get pregnant again.

[mrswheelo]

How are you feeling this week?

This week, I'm mostly ok. Maybe even optimistic. I'm feeling less guilty about happy feelings and planning for the future.

Milestones/events?

My only reportable event this week was turing an OPT to a solid smiley face. A small but very satisfying accomplishment.

How has your loss changed your outlook?

My loss has changed me so much. I was completely unaware that pregnancy could have so many complications. Ignorance is bliss, right? I am learning what is actually important in life. And that its easy to appreciate things when ypu have everthing. To be truly grateful, you must feel grateful when things are falling apart.

[mommytoava]

1- How are you feeling this week. What emotions are getting the better of you, or vice verse?
I've had some rough days. Just getting out of bed in the morning to go to work is difficult. The anger has come back, I can't help feeling how unfair it is that Ava is not here.

2- Any events or milestones this week?

I made it through the six month mark. The days leading up to it were harder than the actual day. My parents were staying nearby for the last few months and left on Sunday so my husband and I are having to get used to being on our own again.

3- Has your loss changed your outlook on life, people, emotions? For the better or the worse?

I have a harder time being sympathetic to some of my claimants at work, I really have to fake it sometimes.

[happyin14]

I am going to do a full check-in tomorrow and respond to all then BUT: littleowl913 - YAY!!!! Congrats! Such great news. Sending so many good thoughts your way.

[mrswheelo]

mommytoava, I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I think faking it in public is just part of the awful process.((Hugs))