@icequeen

[icequeen]

@giamia923, thank you so much for thinking of me. Unfortunately, the appointment did not go well. My HCG was only a 4.7 and my RE considers pregnant >10 and not pregnant <2. So I was somewhere in between. Regardless, that is a low number for 14 DPO. I had an awful encounter with a nurse who flat out told me "This is not going to be a good pregnancy for you", to which I promptly called my RE on his cell phone and reported her behavior. I am supposed to return on Monday for a repeat to see if the HCG went up at all.

I had a panic attack with my 15 month old DD in the car before we started driving home, and that made me feel even worse, because I made her cry too. I've been trying to keep my head up and just wait until Monday to confirm exactly what's going on, but my concern is that this is another CP. Today I started spotting, so I guess that confirms my biggest fear. Another loss. At least I didn't have to wait long to start a new cycle, although I'm really feeling like a failure. I'll be ok, though. I've been trying to lay low because I feel like I'm a downer most of the time.

Thanks again for the well wishes. They really mean a lot

[bluerainfire]

Hugs

[helloamanda]

Sending you all the ((hugs!)) I am glad you reported that nurse's behavior. They work in such a sensitive field that they really need to watch their attitudes. I had an ultrasound tech call me a liar once and made me cry. I wish I would have reported her! Don't worry about the panic attack. That was a reasonable situation. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

[Deleted]

Just something to make you smile icequeen

[icequeen]

Thank you so much, everyone! Y'all are so sweet, and this group means so much to me.

My CP was confirmed this morning and I started my period when I got home. Here goes cycle 8, but I'm trying my best not to let this keep me down.

[olivegoose]

I'm so sorry icequeen. We are all here for you.

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry icequeen. My first pregnancy was a CP. It sucked.
You don't need to lay low here, I think we all take our turns being downers and lifting each other up.

[lulu]

So sorry icequeen. It's been so tough for you lately. But like @rocknrollfriend says, you are certainly not a downer......you always have such kind things to say to all of us here and you always have the time to listen and give really great advice.

[icequeen]

Thanks, ladies. Y'all are definitely a huge motivation to me and I love being a part of this community. We all deserve the love and patience we show one another.

[sko14]

I know I'm new to this board but I'm so sorry icequeen!

[icequeen]

sko14, thank you. I will take all the positive vibes I can get at this point. Welcome!