Intro - Waiting to Miscarry
Mar 7, 2015 22:55:10 GMT -5
Post by amandaree on Mar 7, 2015 22:55:10 GMT -5
Hi Ladies,
I wish, as all of you do, that I weren't writing this right now. An ultrasound confirmed yesterday that my little one was not growing and there was no heartbeat at 6 weeks. All that was there was the gestational sac and it was the same size it was from the week before. So my RE diagnosed me with another missed miscarriage. My history is in my signature, but for those on mobile, this is my 4th loss. I've had two prior ectopic pregnancies, the first one was nearly fatal. Then in 2013 I had another missed miscarriage at 8 weeks.
We had to TTA for a year while I underwent weight loss surgery, it was in an attempt to correct some of my issues with PCOS and to get a healthier body to support a pregnancy. I lost 180 pounds and had just been given the ok from my surgeon and RE to start trying again and we got this BFP on my first cycle of Clomid. We were surprised by the quick BFP but quickly discouraged by slow rising Betas. My RE wasn't ready to determine the HCG levels were the end of it until he could confirm it on ultrasound.
So now, we're just waiting for my body to recognize the loss and start the miscarriage naturally. My RE wants to give it at least 2 weeks before we consider any intervention. I know that's the best course as the other options always involve risks and further complications for the future, but the wait seems agonizing. I know I've got at least a month a head of me of waiting, then bleeding, then blood tests to make sure it goes all the way negative. I really struggled with my last miscarriage with some serious depression and had to seek professional grief counseling. I don't know how I'll handle this one. Right now I feel numb.
Thanks for reading, and I am so sorry for all of our lost little ones. I'll light a candle for all of us tonight.
Love to you all.
I wish, as all of you do, that I weren't writing this right now. An ultrasound confirmed yesterday that my little one was not growing and there was no heartbeat at 6 weeks. All that was there was the gestational sac and it was the same size it was from the week before. So my RE diagnosed me with another missed miscarriage. My history is in my signature, but for those on mobile, this is my 4th loss. I've had two prior ectopic pregnancies, the first one was nearly fatal. Then in 2013 I had another missed miscarriage at 8 weeks.
We had to TTA for a year while I underwent weight loss surgery, it was in an attempt to correct some of my issues with PCOS and to get a healthier body to support a pregnancy. I lost 180 pounds and had just been given the ok from my surgeon and RE to start trying again and we got this BFP on my first cycle of Clomid. We were surprised by the quick BFP but quickly discouraged by slow rising Betas. My RE wasn't ready to determine the HCG levels were the end of it until he could confirm it on ultrasound.
So now, we're just waiting for my body to recognize the loss and start the miscarriage naturally. My RE wants to give it at least 2 weeks before we consider any intervention. I know that's the best course as the other options always involve risks and further complications for the future, but the wait seems agonizing. I know I've got at least a month a head of me of waiting, then bleeding, then blood tests to make sure it goes all the way negative. I really struggled with my last miscarriage with some serious depression and had to seek professional grief counseling. I don't know how I'll handle this one. Right now I feel numb.
Thanks for reading, and I am so sorry for all of our lost little ones. I'll light a candle for all of us tonight.
Love to you all.
Congrats on losing the weight, that's really amazing. Hang in there...we are all here for you whenever you need support. 
