Exhaustion or PPD?
Mar 8, 2015 7:55:02 GMT -5
Post by MoreThanSparrows on Mar 8, 2015 7:55:02 GMT -5
I don't know if this is just pure exhaustion or something more. If I continue to feel like this, I will be talking to my doc about it.
I went to bed at 10:40, which if you adjust for DST was 11:40. Was up at 1:40, technically 2:40 because he lost his paci. He was also grunting a bit. Up again around 3, changed him and nursed him on one side, which is usually all he wants even after a 5 hour stretch of time. He still acted hungry, so I nursed for just a few minutes on the other side. He proceeded to spit up at least 3 times, all over my bed, comforter and myself. Then he won't go back to sleep, also not normally an issue for him. Finally get him to sleep around 4:45, but wasn't really solidly asleep. Kept grunting, spitting out his paci and then wanting it back, etc. Long story short, I haven't slept since around 3 am, and for someone who needs her 8 hours just to function, I'm exhausted and emotional. I nursed him again just a while ago, and he once again spit up three times all over me, the bed, and the comforter. Now he's smiling and cooing at me, and I'm just too upset to care or be happy that he's smiling at me.
I want so badly to be a good wife and mom, but everything my husband and older boys do seems to annoy the crap out of me. I hate that they can't seem to pick up their trash, and that I have to tell the boys repeatedly to do the same things they do everyday. I want nothing more than to sleep, but then I feel bad for leaving DH to take care of the kids, and then I get mad at him for not picking up a little bit. I'm barely keeping up with the housework, and I haven't touched DH romantically in over a week (his love language is touch), and while I know it's irrational, I feel like every day that goes by that I don't touch him makes him resent me that much more, and every time I ask him for help, he's going to hold it over me until I help him. Like I said, it's completely irrational because I know he loves me unconditionally.
I don't have bouts of wanting to cry randomly, and I'm not always sad. I mostly enjoy my baby, but this sleep deprivation thing sucks. I'm just wondering at what point it becomes PPD.
really no point to this post - just needed to tell it to women who understand. As much as we love our hubby's, they just don't get it sometimes. if you made it this far, cookies, cake, and ice cream for all (If I could figure out how to insert images on mobile, I would post pics for you all). Thanks for reading.
I went to bed at 10:40, which if you adjust for DST was 11:40. Was up at 1:40, technically 2:40 because he lost his paci. He was also grunting a bit. Up again around 3, changed him and nursed him on one side, which is usually all he wants even after a 5 hour stretch of time. He still acted hungry, so I nursed for just a few minutes on the other side. He proceeded to spit up at least 3 times, all over my bed, comforter and myself. Then he won't go back to sleep, also not normally an issue for him. Finally get him to sleep around 4:45, but wasn't really solidly asleep. Kept grunting, spitting out his paci and then wanting it back, etc. Long story short, I haven't slept since around 3 am, and for someone who needs her 8 hours just to function, I'm exhausted and emotional. I nursed him again just a while ago, and he once again spit up three times all over me, the bed, and the comforter. Now he's smiling and cooing at me, and I'm just too upset to care or be happy that he's smiling at me.
I want so badly to be a good wife and mom, but everything my husband and older boys do seems to annoy the crap out of me. I hate that they can't seem to pick up their trash, and that I have to tell the boys repeatedly to do the same things they do everyday. I want nothing more than to sleep, but then I feel bad for leaving DH to take care of the kids, and then I get mad at him for not picking up a little bit. I'm barely keeping up with the housework, and I haven't touched DH romantically in over a week (his love language is touch), and while I know it's irrational, I feel like every day that goes by that I don't touch him makes him resent me that much more, and every time I ask him for help, he's going to hold it over me until I help him. Like I said, it's completely irrational because I know he loves me unconditionally.
I don't have bouts of wanting to cry randomly, and I'm not always sad. I mostly enjoy my baby, but this sleep deprivation thing sucks. I'm just wondering at what point it becomes PPD.
really no point to this post - just needed to tell it to women who understand. As much as we love our hubby's, they just don't get it sometimes. if you made it this far, cookies, cake, and ice cream for all (If I could figure out how to insert images on mobile, I would post pics for you all). Thanks for reading.