Please hold me for a second? **pg/LC mentioned (not mine)**
Jan 19, 2015 8:18:00 GMT -5
Post by holdingouthope on Jan 19, 2015 8:18:00 GMT -5
Hi ladies. Some of you have noticed that I've crept back to posting since we've moved to this board. I was struggling with what TTCAL was becoming on TB, but with this clean slate I'm feeling a bit better about posting, and I'm also in a better place at the moment. So, thank you all for being here, and I'm sorry that I haven't been around the past couple weeks to offer support.
Some of you know that one of my very best friends and I were due the exact same day, with my last pg/loss. As you can imagine, it was really tough on me after I discovered I was experiencing yet another BO and had my D&C.
Now that I live in the same city as her again, I have seen her regularly and managed to (mostly) get beyond my sadness over the situation...at least to the point where I could see her growing belly without wanting to cry. A couple months ago, she asked me to be her son's Godmother, and I was (and am) so, so honored.
Well, she had her son this weekend and the day has come for me to visit them in the hospital before she gets released. I went and bought some gifts yesterday and have been trying to prepare myself mentally for the MF that is about to occur with all my conflicting feelings. Last night I was feeling super excited about going to the hospital, but this morning I am starting to have a panic attack over the situation. We were actually going to go yesterday, but my H shocked me and said he couldn't deal with it (I don't blame him - it's just the first he's really vocalized that this bothers him as well).
I know there is nothing anyone can do to wipe away the feelings I'm having, but if you could spare some hugs, I would really appreciate it. Just feeling some positive vibes from ladies who understand will be helpful.
Thank you, loves. And here are some treats for reading my novel:
Some of you know that one of my very best friends and I were due the exact same day, with my last pg/loss. As you can imagine, it was really tough on me after I discovered I was experiencing yet another BO and had my D&C.
Now that I live in the same city as her again, I have seen her regularly and managed to (mostly) get beyond my sadness over the situation...at least to the point where I could see her growing belly without wanting to cry. A couple months ago, she asked me to be her son's Godmother, and I was (and am) so, so honored.
Well, she had her son this weekend and the day has come for me to visit them in the hospital before she gets released. I went and bought some gifts yesterday and have been trying to prepare myself mentally for the MF that is about to occur with all my conflicting feelings. Last night I was feeling super excited about going to the hospital, but this morning I am starting to have a panic attack over the situation. We were actually going to go yesterday, but my H shocked me and said he couldn't deal with it (I don't blame him - it's just the first he's really vocalized that this bothers him as well).
I know there is nothing anyone can do to wipe away the feelings I'm having, but if you could spare some hugs, I would really appreciate it. Just feeling some positive vibes from ladies who understand will be helpful.
Thank you, loves. And here are some treats for reading my novel: