May I go here?

[germaphobe]

I started a natural MC Thursday (spotting) and I am still going through it now. I am still in disbelief I guess. My H and I were TTC #2. This was our second month trying and we were very excited. I have a strong spiritual background along with a scientific / medical education so I am torn on how to be feeling. I don't really know what else to say. I have been lurking for a few days so I thought I should introduce myself. 

[babyzebra]

Welcome. I'm really sorry to hear about your loss. I also have a pretty strong spiritual and medical background, so I get what you're saying about being unsure how to feel. This is hard. ((Hugs))

[followthesun]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[swivelchair5]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[starfishy]

So sorry for your loss. I hope you find some comfort here.

[shytimes]

I'm so sorry you find yourself here... sending lots of hugs

[rablissful]

I'm so sorry for your loss

I actually have a biology/medical background as well (and had a natural mc) and am also really torn on how to feel. My brain is saying "this happens to 1 in 4 pregnancies so you shouldn't feel too bad, plus something was probably wrong with the fetus so it's better this way" while my heart is all "but that was my BABY I lost!" I think anyone with a science background would be torn regardless of the fact on whether they are spiritual or not. ALL of your feelings are valid, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

If you need to talk I'm here!

[Ann612]

So sorry for your loss. It's normal to feel all kind of conflicting feelings during this process no matter what your background is. We're here to listen and help in any way we can.

[kristikayy26]

I'm so sorry for your loss! I'm sending big (HUGS) and positive thoughts your way.

[germaphobe]

Thanks ladies, lurking around here I have found that the feelings I am having are perfectly normal and it's reassuring that I am not crazy for breaking down and crying at random moments.

[mrssqueegy]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I have the exact same feeling as you.

[amandaree]

I'm so sorry for your loss. We are all here for you. ((HUGS))

[rosetyler72]

I'm sorry for your loss. I think we were on the same BMB. Being confused is totally normal. I know that both my M/C were probably a sign that the baby wasn't developing correctly, but it still hurts. Hugs to you!

[snakefisherbub]

I am so sorry for your loss. Trust me none of us know really how to feel but it's all normal. It's so freaking hard. *hugs*

[nikolie93]

I'm sorry for your loss but welcome. The only thing I can say is feel what you feel. I overthink everything so it was hard for me too.

We are here for you and we understand. *hug*