1. I am wearing green today. I am not in any way Irish.
2. I have been super hungry lately. Just the last several days. I cannot seem to ever be full. It's a problem.
3. My youngest sister is on a mission to get a diagnosis for my brother who just passed away. I am not sure there is a diagnosis. He had a lot of genetic testing in his life, and it revealed a few variant genes/chromosomes in his genetic profile, but nothing that correlated with a known disorder. My sister has also convinced herself that whatever disorder my brother had (or underlying genetic defect that caused his medical conditions) that she is a carrier for. She emailed my brother's former geneticist yesterday.
4. All of the talks about genetics and my brother yesterday with my sisters and Mom (my sister was feverishly texting and emailing all of us) made me start obsessing about our embryos. There is absolutely no reason for me to believe that any of our embryos are anything other than 100% healthy, and I already have a perfectly healthy biological child... but I still have irrational fears.
5. J and I had a really good talk last night regarding #4 after Will went to bed. I felt a lot better after that. She also said "I love you and all the babies that come from you no matter what." I think we are on the same page. It just still is anxiety causing at times.
6. Will has been wetting through his diaper at night recently. We are going to get some overnight diapers to try.
7. Last night I made my favorite dinner (baked salmon, green beans and butternut squash). It was really yummy. I wish I had made extra to bring for lunch today. Oh well. Tonight's dinner is just going to be a big salad. It is bath night for the boy, and I already know I am not in the mood to cook.
8. We found a new couch that we really like, and I think we might buy it/order it tomorrow. I am excited.
9. I talked to our landscaper last night, and he is going to start work on our backyard makeover on March 30th! I am even more excited for that!
1. shemarie82 we upgraded to a king sized bed so worth it! 2. kh826 yah for RE trip for #2! 3. Emerson is laying in her co-sleeper right now fighting sleep and grunting like crazy she makes so many noises. 4. Scratch that she fussed enough that she is now laying on my chest listening to my heart sleeping. Her absolute favorite sleeping position. 5. I got her to follow a rattle back and forth with her head this morning and briefly put her in tummy time but she wouldn't pick her head up for that. 6. I have had a headache for the last two days. I am hoping it is just from lack of sleep and not that I am developing Pre-e which I am still being monitored for since my BP didn't go down after birth. I have an appointment with the OB tomorrow to check my BP. 7. Emerson also has her 2week appointment tomorrow. I am so excited to see how much she weighs. She seems to eat about every 3 hours during the day and every hour to 2 hours at night but at night I think she is just using my nipple as a pacifier more then anything else. Since I am EBF there is no real way to know how much she gets at a feeding but she was 6lbs10oz when we left the hospital on Friday 3/6 and by Monday 3/9 she was already up to 7lbs4oz. If she keeps gaining like that she will be out of newborn clothes in no time. 8. I am also excited to get out of the house tomorrow even if it just is for two doctors appointments. We may also do a quick Costco run. Those parenting how long did you wait before you first took your baby out of the house. 9. I am excited about the recent BFPs we have had over the last couple weeks and hope more people get their BFPs soon too. 10. Also jealous of all those TTC #2 R wants to be one and done but I think it is important to give Emerson a sibling so that she isn't alone to take care of an old/aging R and myself.
Warning- mine’s a bit heavy today work & non-babies. Sorry to just vent, had to get it all out!
1. I still have not heard on the job I interviewed for 2 weeks ago, makes me think I’m probably not the successful candidate at this point. Things move slow in our company but not this slow!
2. We moved to Houston for my job, it was a great opportunity that was supposed to open all these huge doors. Well I’m at the point in this role that it’s time to move on (it was never intended to be long term, just great growth & learning for 2 yrs) and there is really not much opportunity I’m seeing here anymore with the job in #1 being the exception.
3. Yesterday I got a text from an old co-worker that my job back in Alaska is coming open soon and I should apply. Normally I tell him no way and send him a picture of the sun! Well, thinking about my lack of prospects here it’s REALLY tempting to think about going back. DW’s sisters are there, all of our friends are there… but it feels like settling in my career for what’s familiar. I know I can do it, I’ve done it, I’m good at it & I always felt challenged and competent. It’s really tempting.
4. DW and I had a long talk last night about where we are both geographically located & life in general. Neither of us are very happy here. I mean we like it OK, but it’s not “home” and we’ve yet to make really great friendships. We have some friends, but no one that really ‘gets’ us and they take effort, much more effort than our old friendships too, so I think that makes it harder to want to stay.
5. We decided two things last night. If I get the job in #1 & our next 2 IUI’s are a bust, we’re moving out of the suburbs & into the city. We are constantly surrounded by the family’s we can’t seem to create for ourselves and frankly it’s starting to depress me being out here seeing all the mom’s walking with their 2.5 kids & a dog every night.
6. Decision #2, if I don’t get the job in #1, we’re going to seriously consider moving back to Alaska to be with our people & be “home” again.
7. Oye! I’m not really ready for either to happen!
8. I need SUN, all this gloomy weather we’ve been having for a few weeks is really starting to depress me! Probably not the best time to be making big decisions! LOL
9. I woke up in the night last night & felt super queasy, but nothing happened. Finally went to bed & slept, but I’m feeling sick again this AM! I’m not a puker- so this is really a very ODD feeling. I know it’s irrational and not even possible, but I’m going to take another HPT tonight just to be sure. Someone please tell me I’m f*cking crazy! I had my CD 3 US yesterday, they would have seen something right?! oy! I’m losing it!
10. For being such great sports & reading this far (if you made it!) here’s a cute puppy gif!
1. I think I've over adjusted on the sleep front. I've been needing less sleep for the last couple of weeks but now I think I'm not getting enough sleep. Given how many times I wake up to pee (generally 2 times, sometimes 3) and roll over/adjust during the night, my quality of sleep can't be that great.
3. Tomorrow we should get a bonus ultrasound at the RE's office because we have to go in anyway for blood work and the RE said we could have an ultrasound. Since we probably won't have another one until 20 weeks (unless something goes wrong), I'm looking forward to this one.
4. On Thursday we leave to drive to Chicago. I have to be in Chicago for work this weekend and since that's where my family lives, we're making a short trip out of it.
5. I'm stressed about our dog and my brother's dog getting along. My brother lives at home with my parents, which means his dog will be there the whole time we're there. He just got the dog before Christmas, so Christmas was the first time the dogs met. While they didn't fight, there was always some tension in the air. I'm not so worried about the tension. I am worried about the fighting. They're both dogs that could do serious damage.
6. Tea just isn't the same as coffee. I know I can have some coffee while pregnant, but I've tried to switch mainly to tea so that I can have it more than once a day or have a diet coke too or something like that.
7. RM80, I'm sorry you're dealing with so many unknowns about where it would be best to live and work. I guess the one good thing is that you and your wife seem to agree about what the best plan is in the different scenarios. I know I'm grateful that M and I seem to have similar ideas about where we'd like to live in the future.
8. I'm jealous of those with a king sized bed. M and I have also talked about this. When we travel and stay in a king sized bed, we tend not to cuddle, which makes us both sad. But our queen sized bed just feels so small some times. We're both big people and then add in the pregnancy pillow and neither one of us has enough space. But a new bed is not our top financial priority and between a mattress, frame, and bedding, it would really add up fast.
9. I think I might bring a travel mug to work with me and leave it at my desk so that I can keep my tea warmer longer. Cool tea is just not the same as really warm tea.
10. We bought a new part for our sewing machine which means that manada can resume making me maternity pants. I'm super excited; I need some jeans!
****loss and living child discussed***** We're queer. I'm 34, have severe stage 4 endo, and both fallopian tubes are gone. My love ("Manada" 33) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tav.in and Ca.sey at 21 weeks gestation.
9. I think I might bring a travel mug to work with me and leave it at my desk so that I can keep my tea warmer longer. Cool tea is just not the same as really warm tea.
I got a Teavana mug for Christmas and it's awesome. It keeps tea warm all day.
healz413, I'm totally intrigued how manada is making your pants! Pics!!
I will totally provide pictures (I don't have any yet, though, so you'll have to wait).
But basically, we start with a pair of pants that fit me in the hips. Then, while I have them on, she marks of them where to cut (for the one pair she has made so far, she cut the top off all around and then cut down in the front to the bottom of the fly so that I basically have a belly cut out). Then she sews in a 2 inch elastic around the pants to help hold them up around my hips and under my belly. Then she sews in jersey nit fabric above that to create the part that goes up over the belly. I'm sure she can do a better job of explaining it.
Non-pregnant I'm a size 22 (although I can wear most size 20 maternity close because my hips are narrow and the belly is accounted for in the stretchy part) but I'm also 6'1. We have managed to buy one pair of maternity pants that fit and they cost $100 and they were the only pair we could find.
In warmer weather, I should be able to get by with regular length maternity capris, but in this long pants weather, I can't wear regular length maternity pants.
****loss and living child discussed***** We're queer. I'm 34, have severe stage 4 endo, and both fallopian tubes are gone. My love ("Manada" 33) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tav.in and Ca.sey at 21 weeks gestation.
healz413, I'm totally intrigued how manada is making your pants! Pics!!
I will totally provide pictures (I don't have any yet, though, so you'll have to wait).
But basically, we start with a pair of pants that fit me in the hips. Then, while I have them on, she marks of them where to cut (for the one pair she has made so far, she cut the top off all around and then cut down in the front to the bottom of the fly so that I basically have a belly cut out). Then she sews in a 2 inch elastic around the pants to help hold them up around my hips and under my belly. Then she sews in jersey nit fabric above that to create the part that goes up over the belly. I'm sure she can do a better job of explaining it.
Non-pregnant I'm a size 22 (although I can wear most size 20 maternity close because my hips are narrow and the belly is accounted for in the stretchy part) but I'm also 6'1. We have managed to buy one pair of maternity pants that fit and they cost $100 and they were the only pair we could find.
In warmer weather, I should be able to get by with regular length maternity capris, but in this long pants weather, I can't wear regular length maternity pants.
1. Home sick with a stomach bug. It's odd for me since I am very rarely sick enough to miss work. Yesterday was a complete waste and DW had to come home early to care for Olivia. Feeling better today but not 100% and decided not to push it.
2. I know I push myself too much with my working and needed some R and R. I will be able to watch Olivia this afternoon so DW can work her full day.
3. We finally bought another car seat so I can take Olivia out in the afternoons when I am alone with her. We also live in a very walkable neighborhood and if the weather ever warms up we can get outside!
4. I wonder about my future/our future as a family. Are we making the right decisions to raise a healthy/productive adult? I feel more pressure now not to mess things up. There always seems to be so many decisions to make.
5. I need to get my life insurance in line (see # 4). The process takes forever, we started in October and they won't write the policy until I have a test that a doc recommended. I saw this doc once and don't agree with his recommendation but that of course doesn't matter to them. I can't stand the medical field which is ironic since I am a medical professional.
6. Work has gotten boring lately. I've realized I don't work for a company that cares about it's employees and there are no advancement opportunities unless I want to be a supervisor for the same pay I make now (I don't) or get my law degree (I don't).
7. My college roommate is going through some stuff right now and I feel like it may put a hole in our relationship. We are both born and raised Catholic although I no longer practice. She is feeling like she needs to get back to her religion to deal with her issues and the language she is using just turns me off. She is my oldest friend who I still have contact with and I would be sad to lose her. And I would essentially have no friends IRL then.
8. The dog has really gotten neglected lately and I'm hoping with better weather that will be alleviated.
9. I love reading to my daughter she is so engaged.
1. R is battling a nasty cold/virus and it's just so sad seeing how pathetic he is. 2. RM80, sounds like you are at a crossroad right now. I hope you get a clear answer one way or another.
3. We have a king size bed. We bought it for one of our anniversaries a long time ago. My wife thought it would give her more space in bed, nope, I still find her:)
4. Today is our 12 year dating anniversary. We are one of those couples that celebrate our wedding and dating dates.
5. We also never tell people that today is the day because well, drunk, St. Paddy's day, so we lie and tell people it's March 18th.
6. If this baby is a boy we are giving him the middle name Patrick to honor the day that we got together. Seems fitting as R's middle name is after the place where we met.
7. I need to start doing some prenatal yoga. I can barely touch my toes.
8. We need to disinfect our house with 300 gallons of bleach.
9. I saw flowers poking through my yard. Since it's our first Spring in the new house I'm excited to see what they are.
10. I finally ate a full meal last night. The first time in days.
****loss and living child discussed***** We're queer. I'm 34, have severe stage 4 endo, and both fallopian tubes are gone. My love ("Manada" 33) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tav.in and Ca.sey at 21 weeks gestation.
1. RM80, CET always says it's easier to find a date than a friend.
2. Just made our CD3 appointment for an ultrasound and blood work for tomorrow morning. We'll also meet with our coordinator. We both are finding the idea of trying again strangely addicting (in a non-creepy way).....we originally were going to wait a couple months but then felt like we would feel disappointed if we didn't try again this month. We'll see.....
3. I'm basically doing data entry for work.....it's kind of tedious but necessary. I'm optimistic that the end product will be really helpful.
4. For what I'm doing, Re #3, I have to use my old laptop. It's so much bigger than my surface.
5. We've been making a lot of recipes out of this (http://www.amazon.com/Clean-Slate-Cookbook-Guide-Health/dp/0307954595) cookbook and have really enjoyed them all! I love trying new things.
Handing it over to CET
6. My desk is a mess, it's to the point where I can't find anything.
7. Ordered our vial from the bank in case we need it for this cycle. It's always a strange combination of bizarre and empowering.
8. I/we're not traveling again for the next month unless something comes up. It's the longest we've gone both being at home since ....since....actually maybe last May.
9. We moved into new offices awhile back and my boss didn't like how thick the tree was outside his window, so he basically had half the branches taken off. It cracks me up every time I go in there.
10. I'm really glad CAR's back in town. I was running out of ramen noodles to feed myself
CET & CAR - both 30, married Aug, 2013, together 12+ yrs.
TTC #1: CAR carrying IUI #1 & 2 - Clomid, trigger = BFN IUI #3 - Switched to Gonal 150iu. Overstim led to 'surprise' IVF. Retrieved 21, 14 mature, 13 fertilized, all 13 made it to day 5, 9 PGS normal. Transferred 1 AA hatched blast 5/1/15 Baby Girl M born 1-21-16
Post by officerofthelaw on Mar 17, 2015 19:28:31 GMT -5
1. I don't know how much longer I can stay awake during my MHMR class. I still have three days left of it! 2. I am sure glad that I did my chores right when I got home from work because now I can relax. 3. I really need to make a honey to do list for my wife. 4. I sure would love to be playing poker right about now. 5. I feel so lame that we didn't do anything for St. Patrick's Day. 6. I really wish we had friends, once I became a police officer, they all disappeared. 7. I think it would be healthy for my wife and I to make new friends and start hanging out with them. 8. I really want next Tuesday to get here, I want to hear this baby's heartbeat. 9. I still can't believe that I am finally going to be a mom. 10. Am I the only one with random thoughts going through my head all the time?
1. I've been exercising like a mad woman these past two weeks! I'm very proud of myself and I've been having fun. 2. Today I got my period and when I look in the mirror, I look so awful and fat. It makes me hate myself. 3. I'm gearing myself up to go to the gym. It's really hard when I have to try to convince Sweetie to come too. I would just go by myself, but we have a rental car that she's the only authorized driver for. 4. We might just watch Law and Order all night, but I think it would make us both feel icky. 5. I have my BBT thermometer! But when I wake up, all I can manage is to either hit snooze and pass our or fling myself immediately out of bed. How do you people remember to take your temp in the morning?! 6. Spring Break is sooooo soooooooon!!! 7. Well, we didn't watch Law and Order all night. We wound up taking a friend on a night-time trip to Sonic for grumpiness-banishing milkshakes. 8. I weighed myself and it is exactly as bad as I feared. Gonna try the DIY Weight Watchers: Fitbit, MyFitnessPal and Tuesday night weigh-ins with my sweetie, who loves me. It's good to have a plan and to know the damage. 9. It is so hard to be motivated to lose weight without slipping into a self-loathing ball of body-image angst. 10. I am so sad about Terry Pratchett dying. I want a Terry Pratchett tattoo, but I don't know what.
7. Well, we didn't watch Law and Order all night. We wound up taking a friend on a night-time trip to Sonic for grumpiness-banishing milkshakes.
Yay for sonic!! manada and I are driving to Chicago tomorrow from Toronto and we will be stopping in at least one (maybe 2) Sonics in Michigan. We will probably get a chocolate banana milkshake in addition to tater tots and other things of the sort.
****loss and living child discussed***** We're queer. I'm 34, have severe stage 4 endo, and both fallopian tubes are gone. My love ("Manada" 33) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tav.in and Ca.sey at 21 weeks gestation.
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