Well - it's official. ::Deep breath::
Mar 20, 2015 11:24:08 GMT -5
Post by NiteStar73 on Mar 20, 2015 11:24:08 GMT -5
I am now the mom of TWO children on the spectrum.
::deep breath::
Psychologist evaluated Lucas, the youngest, and determined he is on the spectrum. He's already in EI and will have his services increased and ABA will begin in the next couple of weeks.
I've done a lot of crying. A lot. Then I embrace it. Then I'm "ok" with it. Then I'm angry. Terrified. Overwhelmed. Then I cry again. Then ok. Lather, rinse repeat.
It wasn't supposed to be this way. That's what keeps going through my head. And I know it's wrong and unfair and I should appreciate the children I have not that ones I don't but sometimes I just want to scream at the world - why? Just why?
Another ASD mom I know says it pretty well - to the outside world, I'm an ASD mom who's gracefully living with the hand she was dealt - but on the inside is a scared, angry, too-much wine drinking mom who's just trying to do right by her kids.
I updated my signature - and cried a little. I want to be ok. I want to rise to the challenge. I do, I really do. My boys need me to. But right now I'm just so scared and sad. In my head I know I can do this. I know but then I get this tightness in my chest and it feels like I can't breathe and I'm terrified again.
So - a little about Lucas. He'll be 3 next month. He's verbal. Can use "I want ..." and even some "ing" words. He scripts - a lot. Once he gets going on a song he likes (that's his thing), it's hard to get him to focus on anything else. He's entered a highly emotional phase - cries over everything but I supposed that's par for the course at this age. And he has major feeding issues - wont' eat anything but french toast, pancakes, french fries, waffles, PB&J, goldfish, teddy grahams, juice and milk. He *might* eat jarred baby food if he's in the cooperating sort of mood, which isn't often. So we're starting feeding therapy next week - we'll see how that goes. Otherwise, he's adorable, affectionate and a happy little boy.
Just wanted to share with you all - you guys have always been the best support there is.
::deep breath::
Psychologist evaluated Lucas, the youngest, and determined he is on the spectrum. He's already in EI and will have his services increased and ABA will begin in the next couple of weeks.
I've done a lot of crying. A lot. Then I embrace it. Then I'm "ok" with it. Then I'm angry. Terrified. Overwhelmed. Then I cry again. Then ok. Lather, rinse repeat.
It wasn't supposed to be this way. That's what keeps going through my head. And I know it's wrong and unfair and I should appreciate the children I have not that ones I don't but sometimes I just want to scream at the world - why? Just why?
Another ASD mom I know says it pretty well - to the outside world, I'm an ASD mom who's gracefully living with the hand she was dealt - but on the inside is a scared, angry, too-much wine drinking mom who's just trying to do right by her kids.
I updated my signature - and cried a little. I want to be ok. I want to rise to the challenge. I do, I really do. My boys need me to. But right now I'm just so scared and sad. In my head I know I can do this. I know but then I get this tightness in my chest and it feels like I can't breathe and I'm terrified again.
So - a little about Lucas. He'll be 3 next month. He's verbal. Can use "I want ..." and even some "ing" words. He scripts - a lot. Once he gets going on a song he likes (that's his thing), it's hard to get him to focus on anything else. He's entered a highly emotional phase - cries over everything but I supposed that's par for the course at this age. And he has major feeding issues - wont' eat anything but french toast, pancakes, french fries, waffles, PB&J, goldfish, teddy grahams, juice and milk. He *might* eat jarred baby food if he's in the cooperating sort of mood, which isn't often. So we're starting feeding therapy next week - we'll see how that goes. Otherwise, he's adorable, affectionate and a happy little boy.
Just wanted to share with you all - you guys have always been the best support there is.