Some days just suck so hard. Venting

[lovetruly2015]

It seems eveytime I think im doing ok and moving forward. I get hit with a fucking semi truck. Last night after work I was scrolling through my facebook feed when I see a post from a friend about feeling her baby rolling around. Cue the tears. Even worse is we were both due this june. So it just reminded me of where I should be and what I should be feeling right now. And Sunday marks two months that conners been gone. So yeah. Fuck my life.

[cabgirl]

I'm so sorry you're hurting. It's hard, because sometimes I'll feel normal and okay for a while, and think I'm "moving on," and then out of the blue, something will remind me and it's like a punch in the gut. I'll have to sit down and cry, and it feels like my heart is breaking all over again. It sucks, but it's normal. Progress in grief isn't a straight line; there are so many snags and setbacks. It's normal to feel much better for a while, and then suddenly have a period where all the intense emotions from the earliest stages of grieving come flooding back. (The book I'm reading right now talks about that. It's called "Coping With Infertility, Miscarriage and Neonatal Loss," by Amy Wenzel - I definitely recommend it.)

Anyway, I know it being "normal" probably doesn't help when you're feeling the way you do. I just wanted you to know you're not alone. It will keep getting better. Maybe slowly, but it will. Hugs.

[followthesun]

I'm so sorry you had to experience that. ((Hugs)). I have been having those experiences over and over. FWIW, I'm taking a social media break and it has really helped me focus on my own life, as opposed to feeling sad about what is happening with others. It may help you to step away from those triggers.

[lovetruly2015]

Yeah. Ive been so busy with prom season. Pluse its always so overloaded with crap everybody post that I dont bother much these days. That I rarely give my facebook more than a passing glance to see what's up with a few family and friends so I had pretty much forgotten about her pregnancy until yesterday. I think I might just unfollow her and a few other girls who have gotten prego until I'm doing better. As happy as I am that she is doing well and having to problems im just not ready to read about and be blindsided by it again.

Thank you fuys for listening and your support it means alot.

[vballbaby]

I'm sorry you're sad. Since my loss, everything that never bothered me before surely does now. Facebook scrolling can be a trigger for sure. I haven't been on as much but maybe hiding those feeds is a good idea for now. In the last week, I've had three different texts of babies, two out of the three people who sent them knew of my recent loss. Like WTAF? Some people have no fucking clue in life. ((hugs))

[danenikki]

I'm so sorry. It's so tough when you're feeling okay and get hit by something that brings all the sadness back. Just know it's okay and normal. Sending lotsa hugs

[hollyberry]

I am sorry you are having a rough time. We all understand how you feel here. I hope today is a bit better! *hugs*

[amandaree]

@lovetruly2012 i am so sorry. It does suck. Nothing about this is fair or easy. No mother...we are all mothers even if our children never took a breath on this earth...should have to go through this. I am so sorry.

[snakefisherbub]

It's hard when it comes out of nowhere or suddenly. Just bam in your face. I'm sorry it sucks so bad.

[nikolie93]

I'm sorry for the trigger. I hate to say it but there are times I still have triggers and I lose it. They do happen less and less.

*hugs* to you

[mrssqueegy]

I'm so sorry. Sending lots of hugs!

[lovetruly2015]

Thanks ladies

[Ann612]

Seeing people that are where you should be is a really, really difficult one. I'm so sorry you experienced that yesterday.

[craftcrazymama]

I'm so sorry for your sadness. It's so hard seeing and hearing about the things we want most and have lost or can't have. It's a complete slap in the face sometimes and, just when you're feeling a bit better, it can bring it all the hurt and heartache rolling right back in.

I don't think any of us are immune to it so we feel your pain. Big hugs.