Time for our weekly check in. Hope y'all are having a good week so far! I'm thinking of all of y'all. Please PM me if you would like to be tagged as a reminder to participate: flcl, mrsb1008, yoshijo28, @rocknrollfriend, @wallflwr926, @ordinaryamy, runnergirl812, helloamanda, @giamia923, snarkysparklefart, @alleykat05, bluerainfire, sko14
Thank you!
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Please briefly list your diagnosis/status:
How is your week going?
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?
Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
Post by snarkysparklefart on Mar 24, 2015 10:10:27 GMT -5
Oops, I don't think I checked in last week!
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: primarily Borderline PD
How is your week going? It's going. My H goes back to work this weekend and I am super nervous about it. Thankfully, I have no obvious signs of PPD yet, and my psych appointment for a postpartum check is coming up soon, so I'm feeling pretty confident mentally for now.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? We are struggling with DD2 having awful gas. And Im struggling with DD1 and feeling like I'm not giving her a fair amount of attention because I'm constantly tending to the baby.. And she is not listening wel, for me lately. I'm worried about this when my H goes back to work, worried I may lose my temper on her for something insignificant. :/
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? None lately. I have a Postpartum check wih psychiatrist coming up on 4/13
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. Just a night in with wine and cheesecake sound great these days!
Post by runnergirl812 on Mar 24, 2015 11:03:16 GMT -5
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: GAD
How is your week going? It's been okay so far. Woke up today really anxious. I got 9.5 hours of sleep last night (UNREAL), but was late to work and will have to compensate in hours later. I also have a meeting with my boss this afternoon - reason unknown. I'm always anxious about these last minute meetings where I'm walking into it not knowing what we're discussing. I think because I've been laid off in the past, I'm afraid that it'll happen again.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Struggles - anxiety. Just trying to breathe through.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? No changes in meds. Had my psychiatrist appointment yesterday and I'm staying on the dose I'm on for another two months to see how I do. I go back to her in 8 weeks. My psychologist appointment is this Friday. I need to vent. Can't wait. Plus I need to update her on all the BF/Ex wife drama.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. A picnic on a quiet beach. There'd be an umbrella, cold drinks, sandwiches, and just me and BF with no phones or kids.
Post by juliayadda on Mar 24, 2015 11:31:31 GMT -5
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: Clinical depression, GAD, Social Anxiety disorder
How is your week going? Better. I am glad I intro'd here. I forgot to take my pills on Sunday and was weepy over a decline from a BFF to my son's birthday party. After taking my pills I feel better today. I can just feel this anxiety brewing in the back of my self.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Anxiety is dogging me this week. Big breaths. I think I need to make a to do list.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I have been on this dose since... 2009? I haven't seen my doctor in ... 2 years? I think I know what to add to my to do list!
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. My DH and I used to go to Model homes on the weekends when we first started dating. I loved it!
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: Bipolar Disorder 1, GAD, ADD, Narcolepsy
How is your week going? Started out nice yesterday. I had a very rough start this morning. I've gained ten pounds and nothing fits.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Trying to catch up at work. The paperwork is never ending. People just hand things to me that I don't need but don't know what to do with. Also I went home last week and spent the day in NYC. I miss Brooklyn so much. I hate living up north more than anything.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? Psych last week. Still have to remember to get my blood work done. Overdue for lithium level check.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date.<br/> ETA: Pressed send to fast. My perfect date would be in Brooklyn. I'm really missing it lately. We'd have dinner at a quiet place with sidewalk seating. Then take walk on the Promenade in Brooklyn Heights as the sun was setting.
snarkysparklefart, glad to see you again! I was wondering were you were. We missed you! I'm so glad that you are doing well and that baby is healthy. It's totally normal to get worked up more than usual with two babies than just one so please cut yourself some slack, your babies will still love you just the same. runnergirl812, I hope the meeting goes ok! I'm glad that your appointment is this week, I know you need to talk regularly because you have so much going on. ((HUGS)) juliayadda, I don't know what I would do with out my to-do list. I have a big planner and I write down exactly what I'm going to do each day, down to meal I'm cooking for dinner. I write down my chores, reminders for specific tasks, any appointments I have. I hope you can get an appointment with your doctor soon, I think that's super important! @wallflwr926, I'm sorry you are having a rough week. Is there any way you can delegate the work? If not, I would just make sure you prioritize what is most important instead of stuffing it all in one drawer. Have different folders for "immediate" "pending" and "can wait" paperwork (or something like that). Maybe you can add some small work outs to your weekly goals? Like one day a week to ease yourself in?
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: Anorexia Nervosa, Bulimia Nervosa, GAD
How is your week going? It's going well! I had a great weekend with my sister visiting. I really wanted to show her all the improvements I've made with my eating and overall mood. She was so happy to see me doing better. I miss her so much and I wish we lived closer. I also had a good RE appointment yesterday; it seems like I responded to my drugs this time and my B/W and U/S looked excellent. One follie, awesome lining, and no extra supplements needed. DH and I had a few rough patches yesterday but he apologized and it's better this morning.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? I am doing pretty well with my eating so far this week. My sister and I went out to eat twice over the weekend and I was able to eat meals that were really scary for me. I had tilapia, broccoli, red beans and rice at the zoo, and 2 pot stickers, and a grilled asparagus/tomato and goat cheese crostini salad with chicken at Kona Grill without throwing up. I was so proud of myself for that. I didn't even order dressing on the side because I forgot. I usually skip all carbs but I had half the crostini and all the salad, and half of the tilapia and ate the rest at home in the afternoon. I'm struggling with working out too much. I have started running more because I feel like I'm still chasing a particular number and I feel like the runs I was doing before were way too easy and I wasn't feeling challenged enough.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? No med changes, I will see my therapist this Thursday.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. I would love to do something fun outdoors and then go out to a nice dinner and dress up all fancy
Post by bluerainfire on Mar 24, 2015 13:20:42 GMT -5
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: anxiety, pstd, touch of depression
How is your week going? meh, not so good, some good points, but a lot of just crap.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? just had a week of complete stresses. first one is I found out that there were missing some form, and I am not on my husbands health insurance plan- this totally sucks, I am working it out, but kind clueless on what do to. Secondly- my parents don't have a home computer, they basically don't use computers at all, and don't need them at there jobs. They are in early sixties. I had to figure out tax info for my dad because he didn't sign up for something at work, and had to figure my mom's fmla- They need to figure out there retirement plans, plus they need all this info for some type of loan- they shouldn’t be needing to take out loans. they both have problems with gambling at the casino, and banned themselves, problem is they open another chain by where they live, and I know they are fucking going to much- there is no reason or logic with them- I can't even talk to either of them about them, especially my mom, because she will have some type of guilt, and then she will just end up going again to win it all back- I don't get it at all- they are making terrible choices, I don't have the money in my pocket to support them, as they age- I just feel like they could be open, and we could work together about some type of spending plan, or lock down on there assests. but i am there daughter, so at this point, I can't parent my parents, so it all sucks! thirdly- i have more paperwork to fill out for my lawyer, even though i didnt nothing wrong for my lawsuit, it just really difficult for me to deal with- i don't want strangers piling through my medical records.. fourthly- i just start getting really emotional at things, like my son getting to old to believe in the Easter bunny any-more.
to balance all that out- i did plant my spring gardens, it was nice to do, and the dh is getting into it- even though its my thing, its nice that he wants to spend time with me..
sorry for the length of this, i been pretty much keeping this all in all week!
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? no
GTKY: Describe your perfect date.
I would like to go camping and fishing with my husband, have drinks by the lake, and have quiet
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: Schizophrenia, PTSD, in treatment
How is your week going? Meh. I've been sick and am just starting to get better.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Nothing noteworthy.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I was supposed to increase the Abilify, but the edema was so bad I couldn't put my shoe on one day so that was the end of that. I have a follow-up scheduled for April 1st really early in the morning, so I don't know how well that's going to go. I hate trying to fight through the early morning rush hour on the bus. There are a lot of people and I don't tend to do great in crowds. So we'll see how it goes.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. My perfect date would be going out for dinner somewhere where I could get dressed up and feel pretty. Then coming home and playing board games or watching a movie on the couch. Then hot steamy awesome sex.
Struggles: I mentioned this on my goals post but a co-worker, who is also a friend, took credit for work that I did and distributed this work amongst the entire department. That made me feel really shitty and now I'm stuck on how I go about handling this situation. I want to talk to her about how I feel with what she did, but I'm not sure how to go about it yet.
I finally made a step in finding a new psychiatrist and got my medical files from my old doctor. The next step is to make the call... Maybe that should have made my goals post!
GTKY: I love trying new restaurants with H...mmmm food
Post by runnergirl812 on Mar 24, 2015 17:41:43 GMT -5
I just wanted to add. Thank you icequeen, snarkysparklefart, juliayadda, @wallflwr926, bluerainfire, @led, flcl, @sluttybigb00bz for all of you posting in here. Just knowing that I'm not alone in my struggles helps. I'm so anxious right now that I'm about to cry. I really think my job is getting to me and that I may need to start finding something else to do. The sucktastic thing is that I have a REALLY good job. It pays well, I have a good boss, it's fairly stable, and many of my former colleagues would say it's their "dream job." The problem is that it keeps me away from BF for most of the week - he's 2.5 hours away. And I really don't like the projects I'm working on. Because I have this added skillset that no one has in this office, I'm the end all - be all to getting it done. And that pressure combined with the GAD, I'm about to go nuts.
I'm not even sure a job change would alleviate it. Anyway. Just a vent. But I did want to thank all of you for being out there. It gives me hope that I can keep going and it's okay to struggle. I'm not a failure. I'm NOT a failure. Just a walking ball of nerves and depression.
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: OCD, anxiety, anorexia
How is your week going? Really the same as any other. Feel dizzy and faint because I'm not eating enough and I'm making stupid mistakes at work because I can't remember things and concentrate. I'm also constantly zoning out.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? I stopped myself at 30 minutes of cardio yday because my stomach hurt. Normally, I'd be really anxious I didn't finish but I was ok with it. Although I feel like I will try to make up for it somehow.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? No apt w therapist this week. I'm interested to see how this is going to go with her. I feel like she really hasn't given me any tools to help figure any of this out. I've only seen her twice and just talk to her about my behaviors. I don't know what I'm expecting so we will see how next week goes.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. I prefer staying in and watching dvr with a glass of wine. That's our every Friday (minus the wine for me right now ). This weekend DH is taking me out to my favorite restaurant. I'm anxious but excited because I love eating there, I just hope it doesn't make me want to compensate in another way.
Post by juliayadda on Mar 24, 2015 18:47:28 GMT -5
runnergirl812, big hugs for your work anxiety. I have a lot of problems with work anxiety, which is one of the hold overs from social anxiety disorder I think. One thing that has helped me at my work (I am lucky to have someone like this) is my peer mentor. It is not an official mentorship, but she is someone I consider my mentor. I feel comfortable that she will keep what I say in confidence. She challenges my way of thinking, and gives me ideas when I am spiraling into work anxiety.
Full circle I have taken on this role with a newer girl in my department. She also has anxiety, and has a hard time advocating for herself. Helping her with her goals, and find a positive outlook has actually helped me too.
Is there anyone at your work that you can bounce ideas off of?
snarkysparklefart, I just wanted to wish you luck as you transition to H going back to work. I had a TON of anxiety about being with LO on my own and I only have one! Are you able to get some help here and there, even if it's just for an hour or two once or twice a week? I hope your appointment goes well and that you continue to feel well.
runnergirl812, I hope your meeting with your boss went ok. It's so nerve racking to have no clue why you're being called in. I'm also sorry you feel so torn about your job... it sounds like a lot gets dumped on you and you're then stuck with it all. I hope that that somehow gets better soon. I also hope you have gotten a break on the BF/ex wife drama and that your anxieties ease up as the week goes on.
juliayadda, I may have missed it but when's your son's bday party? I hope you end up having fun, even though your BFF isn't able to go. Making a to-do list is a great idea...hope that helps squash those anxious feelings you're having. Btw, H and I LOVE going to model homes too!
@wallflwr926, it's hard to be homesick. Are trips to NY something you can do on a semi-regular basis? I can definitely commiserate with not fitting into my clothes... it's just an awful feeling and it really starts my day off in a shitty way. Hope you're feeling better now that it's the end of the day and that you made some headway on your paperwork.
icequeen, you have been making such strides with your eating... kudos to you! I'm so happy to hear that you had such a great time with your sister, that things with H has been mostly good and that you're RE appointment went so well. You seem like you're in a great place and I really appreciate all the support you've been giving us on this board.
bluerainfire, wow... I can't even imagine all that you have to do to try to take care of your parents. It's so hard b/c they're your parents, you love them and you want them to be ok but it's unfair to you to assume responsibility for them. Is there any support you can get for them or are they not even willing to address their problem? I'm also sorry to hear the extra hoops you have to jump through with your health coverage and your lawsuit. And it's also sad that your LO is getting to the point that he's not believing in certain things. I'm really impressed though that through all of this, you were able to do something so positive! Unfortunately, I don't do plants... I only kill them
@led, I hope you're feeling better real soon and that you have good luck with your April 1st appointment. Abilify didn't work for me either, though for other reasons. Hope you have a good rest of the week!
@sluttybigb00bz, I'm glad that you're recognizing that you need to be kind to yourself... you sound like you're dealing with a lot right now. I agree, sometimes FB only makes me feel worse but it's so hard for me to stay off of it. During those times, I actually delete the app off of my phone so the only time I can go on is when I'm home by a computer (since it's blocked at work). I hope your appointment goes well and that you get the support you need. Hang in there...
yoshijo28, I'm sorry to hear about the eating and how it's making you feel. Do you feel comfortable enough to talk to your therapist about what you're getting or not getting out of your sessions? Good luck seeing her next week and hope you have a good week.
@led, if you don't like the morning rush, maybe you can go in a little bit earlier to try to beat most of the traffic and just hang out at a local Starbucks or coffee shop and read before your appointment, just to relax? flcl, I'm so happy you got your records, keep pushing forward! @sluttybigb00bz, I know you are going through hell right now. I think the new RE is a really good, fresh new start for you and I love that they have better support available. Take advantage as much as you can. Maybe if you had some time, you could find some other kind of pleasurable activity to get you in a better mood overall, like volunteering at a pet shelter or dog rescue. I would love to do that but I have no time and I'm sure that would give me all the feels yoshijo28, I know you haven't been seeing the therapist for long, but do you have any behaviors in mind that you want specific help with? What do YOU want out of therapy with her? I think you should use that to guide your sessions, or at least influence the way your treatment is set up. I think it would be great if you could treat this weekend like a challenge. Just ask yourself, what is the worst that could happen? Chances are nothing extreme will happen to you if you eat even just a slightly larger meal than usual. If you do find yourself using multiple compensatory behaviors, try to eliminate just one if not all. Just this one time to see what happens. It will be ok.
Post by snarkysparklefart on Mar 24, 2015 20:57:15 GMT -5
flcl, thank you! I don't have much help, but my H is a retail supervisor so his hours are usually second shift, which gives me more help in the morning and even though he works most weekends, he usually has 2 weekdays off which is helpful when it comes to appointments and errands. My mom is here, and she can be helpful sometimes (I don't drive because of anxiety, and she will sometimes come over and take me to the store; we typically plan holidays together) but she is also difficult for me to deal with.
On an unrelated but positive note: if anyone remembers my wisdom tooth drama and pain in the 3rd trimester, I got word that my dentist is willing to do the extractions for a LOT less than I expected, he'd like for me to wait until LO is 3 months if possible, but the financial burden is definitely less huge and I am so glad!! That's my good news for the week
icequeen - you have to tell me secret to responding to everyone's post in one singular post. This is what's taking me so long to respond today. The GKU threads move so fast that I don't even try to address everyone.
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: Schizophrenia, PTSD, in treatment
How is your week going? Meh. I've been sick and am just starting to get better.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Nothing noteworthy.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I was supposed to increase the Abilify, but the edema was so bad I couldn't put my shoe on one day so that was the end of that. I have a follow-up scheduled for April 1st really early in the morning, so I don't know how well that's going to go. I hate trying to fight through the early morning rush hour on the bus. There are a lot of people and I don't tend to do great in crowds. So we'll see how it goes.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. My perfect date would be going out for dinner somewhere where I could get dressed up and feel pretty. Then coming home and playing board games or watching a movie on the couch. Then hot steamy awesome sex.
Do they have taxis by you? You might be able to get free transportation to your appointment.
Post by cozydreams34 on Mar 24, 2015 23:12:00 GMT -5
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status:
GAD
How is your week going?
Actually really good. I had a horrible Saturday where I basically cried nonstop all day. Complete breakdown. Then Sunday the morning was rough but I got to spend half of Sunday and all day Monday with my husband and that really cheered me up. We had an amazing time together and we talked about me getting on anxiety meds after the baby is here. He was very supportive and is going to talk to my ob with me at my next visit. We contemplated starting them now but I'm so close to the end of this pregnancy I think it's best to just hold off so I have zero regrets.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?
I went grocery shopping today and yesterday hung out with a friend for a couple hours! Two weekly goals done!
Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
Nope
GTKY: Describe your perfect date.
On the beach somewhere tropical. Watching the sunset and drinking wine just me and my husband not a care in the world. ahhhh. Next weeks goal maybe to plan a date like this?!! Minus the wine of course.
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: Schizophrenia, PTSD, in treatment
How is your week going? Meh. I've been sick and am just starting to get better.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Nothing noteworthy.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I was supposed to increase the Abilify, but the edema was so bad I couldn't put my shoe on one day so that was the end of that. I have a follow-up scheduled for April 1st really early in the morning, so I don't know how well that's going to go. I hate trying to fight through the early morning rush hour on the bus. There are a lot of people and I don't tend to do great in crowds. So we'll see how it goes.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. My perfect date would be going out for dinner somewhere where I could get dressed up and feel pretty. Then coming home and playing board games or watching a movie on the couch. Then hot steamy awesome sex.
Do they have taxis by you? You might be able to get free transportation to your appointment.
They do, but I don't qualify because I'm not low income. And paying for a taxi would be upwards of $50. So not worth it.
I think H is going to take a half day and take me, though. We have another errand that he had to take time of for anyways.
I am going to check in briefly but am not very available this week.
Please briefly list your diagnosis/status: depression and anxiety, under treatment
How is your week going? Not great. DS and I are both sick.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Accomplishment: DS's 3rd birthday party was this Saturday, we had it at our house, and normally I'd be seriously stressed out and snapping at DH in this circumstance, but I did really good! I stayed calm and asked for help when I needed it. I'm so glad we all got to have a good time. Struggles: DH and I went to a soccer game he was really looking forward to on Sunday, and on the way there we had a disagreement and I was upset when we got there. We went in and there were so many people in the concourse, I started to panic (crowded places are one of my anxiety triggers, plus already being upset made it worse). I felt embarrassed and bad that I was ruining DH's fun day. He comforted me and we had a good time but I still wasn't feeling great the rest of the day. Then we got home and DS was sick. Another trigger for me is lack of sleep and worrying about DS. And I'm sick too so ugh. It's just not good. DH is helping as much as he can but he really needs to work so I'm mostly alone with DS during the day.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? No.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date. Any date where I'm not worrying about DS sounds great.
@wallflwr926, I feel ya on the homesickness. I miss my old home too and we moved 7 years ago. bluerainfire, I second finding some more help with your parents. Is there a Gamblers Anonymous group they could go to or something? This shouldn't all be on your shoulders. flcl, that is really awful of your co-worker. I'd be upset too. I don't even know what I'd do in that situation. Everybody else, my love tits are hugs. Sorry but I need to get some sleep now. Hope you all have a good day tomorrow.
I've been okay, I guess. Just got told that I'll be moving to the west coast this summer for my job. I'm not happy about this, especially because it means being separated from DH and possibly LO for quite a while.
Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?
I've struggled to put my finger on what exactly it is I'm feeling these days. I feel like I'm not longer making progress. I'm not drowning in despair, but I'm not happy, either. I feel kind of empty and just not myself. Today marks 5 months since DD was born, and I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get through this. I'm so sick and tired of not feeling "right," if that makes any sense at all.
Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
I have an appointment tomorrow. I'm going to talk to her about what I described above and maybe getting some medication.
GTKY: Describe your perfect date.
A quiet gourmet dinner at a fancy restaurant or at home followed by a play, ballet, or something of that nature (not a movie.)
@rocknrollfriend, yay for rocking DS's 3rd birthday! (Happy belated btw!) I'm sorry to hear that you're both now sick... I hope you two get better soon. Btw, I think you're brave for going to the soccer game... I can't do crowded places at all so I'm really impressed that you did so even though it's a trigger for you
KayVeeKay, hang in there. It definitely isn't easy to feel so down. Keep in mind that it may not feel like it, but things will get better. As for your job, is moving to the west coast set in stone? I can't imagine how hard that is, to not have a say.
flcl It looks like it may be. I would love to stay here, but I don't think I can do that unless I leave my job. I feel like I'm backed into a corner. I knew this could be a possibility from the get-go, but I can't stop thinking about how awful the timing is.
runnergirl812, big hugs for your work anxiety. I have a lot of problems with work anxiety, which is one of the hold overs from social anxiety disorder I think. One thing that has helped me at my work (I am lucky to have someone like this) is my peer mentor. It is not an official mentorship, but she is someone I consider my mentor. I feel comfortable that she will keep what I say in confidence. She challenges my way of thinking, and gives me ideas when I am spiraling into work anxiety.
Full circle I have taken on this role with a newer girl in my department. She also has anxiety, and has a hard time advocating for herself. Helping her with her goals, and find a positive outlook has actually helped me too.
Is there anyone at your work that you can bounce ideas off of?
I"ll have to think about this. It may be someone outside of work but in the same field. I may have an idea of a person. That's an interesting concept. Thanks for bringing it to my attention.
icequeen I would bring home a new pet every week lol ... I have 4 rescues and they get all my love. I have thought about transporting for local rescues since you just sign up for a leg when you're available. I find my schedule never lines up with shelters because of travel. I did ask to have an appointment with a therapist on my info paperwork I sent in today. IF is definitely the trigger for me now.
Once this snow melts I'll be back to running, hiking and gardening and I think I might do a little better. I hope.
Aw good for you for taking in the rescues. DH said we can get a rescue if this new job falls through. I'm really keeping my FX that this therapist can help you because it would seem she would center on your IF struggles. And definitely start getting outside, that is always such a huge help for me too! ((HUGS))
icequeen - you have to tell me secret to responding to everyone's post in one singular post. This is what's taking me so long to respond today. The GKU threads move so fast that I don't even try to address everyone.
I always have a notebook next to me and jot down the comments I want to make and to whom. It doesn't take me long! Then I just go to the quick reply box.
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