A little bit of information

[leloyd]

Hi Theophania. I still don't know much about adding signatures, but will learn. I have had 4 losses and am currently TTA because of a partial molar pregnancy.

[leloyd]

Thanks. It has definitely not been fun, but my levels are down (hopefully hit zero today) and I am over halfway through my benched period.

[leloyd]

mistabinx I am so sorry for you loss.

[leloyd]

adelbert I am so sorry for your loss. I know it sucks thinking everything is okay only to find out you had a mmc. Please be gentle with yourself as you heal both physically and emotionally. Allow yourself the time to grieve. Lots of ((hugs))

[octoberstars]

Hi ladies. I've had 2 losses @9w in the past 6 months. I'm still bleeding a little bit am hoping to get back on the temping train soon. I opted for natural for the first and cytotec for the second. Neither one was particularly bad physically. I'm considering switching obs due to their awkwardness in handling both of my losses.

mistabinx what keeps me motivated to keep trying is thinking about where I want to be in 5 or 10 years. I want at least one kid and I'd like the chance to try for a sibling if I'm lucky. I am 30 now so my fertility is dropping off at a faster rate. It sounds kind of brutal, but for me working through grief means actively trying to better my situation. I know that doesn't work for everyone. Good luck to you, and I'm so glad (well sort of, you know) to see a familiar face here.

[ktrue85]

Hugs all around, ladies. I'm currently in the process of miscarrying. This is my third loss and always around the 6-7 week mark. We do have one rainbow but the journey was difficult, (2 losses before him and now this one after.)

I hope everyone here can find some peace and healing in the weeks and months to come.

[nikolie93]

So many hugs to all you ladies!

Little about me. I'm almost 40 (I don't believe it...I swear my mom lied about the year I was born!) and I started TTC for the first time ever with my current husband when we got married 2 years ago.

Since then I have had 3 MC's, the first at almost 6 weeks, the second at 10 weeks (twins), and the last at 5 weeks a few months ago in Oct.

I have been benched since then and have my first RE appointment next week on Wed.

I'm so sorry we have all gone through this shitty shit.

[nikolie93]

Thank you @mistaninx

[Ann612]

nikolie93 shit, no one should have to go through everything you've been through. I'm sorry to hear of your losses.

[adorebel]

Hi everyone,

I had my first BFP at the beginning of October '14. At 13 weeks, a large, visible birth defect was present on the ultrasound that we were told would be fatal for the baby and dangerous for me. After 3 weeks of testing and worsening stages of grieving over the expectation of the inevitable, genetic tests revealed a trisomy as well as the fatal birth defect. We finally said goodbye to our son on December 18, at nearly 16 weeks. We miss him every day, but we are healing. I'm finally ready to find support here and look ahead.

[ronniesgirl]

I'm here, but hope to be moving on to TTCAL soon. We had a spontaneous pregnancy in November after over two years of infertility and multiple failed treatment cycles. My beta was still at 291 a week ago, but yesterday I had a random day of bleeding, so I am hoping our next check will be a zero. My dx is DOR and we are planning a very aggressive IVF protocol with an out of state specialist in March or April.

Another board member shared this with me about grief: it is a spiral, not a straight line. I'm finding that I very much identify with that idea. So be extra kind to yourself when you have a bad day.

[wormy42]

Hi I'm Wormy! I never intro'd on a loss board on TB, because I was really in a dark place about my loss. I have TTC since 2012, with times of NTNP sprinkled in there somewhere. I had a MC in June 2012, only about 8 months after I got married, and my husband, as loving and supportive as he is, didn't identify what we experienced as a loss. I had not had a positive test before the loss, but I knew. I saw too much not to know. I am still in a dark place, even though I have come out with my loss to a few others. I am hoping that I can find my way back to a lighter place now that I have finally come out to y'all. You are a wonderful group of ladies, and I hope I can add something positive to this group for others in need. Thanks for allowing me to let that out.

[nikolie93]

Jan 22, 2015 10:16:39 GMT -5 adorebel said:

Hi everyone,

I had my first BFP at the beginning of October '14. At 13 weeks, a large, visible birth defect was present on the ultrasound that we were told would be fatal for the baby and dangerous for me. After 3 weeks of testing and worsening stages of grieving over the expectation of the inevitable, genetic tests revealed a trisomy as well as the fatal birth defect. We finally said goodbye to our son on December 18, at nearly 16 weeks. We miss him every day, but we are healing. I'm finally ready to find support here and look ahead.

I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. We are here for you! *hug*

[nikolie93]

Jan 22, 2015 20:36:09 GMT -5 ronniesgirl said:

I'm here, but hope to be moving on to TTCAL soon. We had a spontaneous pregnancy in November after over two years of infertility and multiple failed treatment cycles. My beta was still at 291 a week ago, but yesterday I had a random day of bleeding, so I am hoping our next check will be a zero. My dx is DOR and we are planning a very aggressive IVF protocol with an out of state specialist in March or April.

Another board member shared this with me about grief: it is a spiral, not a straight line. I'm finding that I very much identify with that idea. So be extra kind to yourself when you have a bad day.

Once again I'm sorry for you loss and hope to see you in CAL soon *hug*

[nikolie93]

Jan 22, 2015 20:55:55 GMT -5 wormy42 said:

Hi I'm Wormy! I never intro'd on a loss board on TB, because I was really in a dark place about my loss. I have TTC since 2012, with times of NTNP sprinkled in there somewhere. I had a MC in June 2012, only about 8 months after I got married, and my husband, as loving and supportive as he is, didn't identify what we experienced as a loss. I had not had a positive test before the loss, but I knew. I saw too much not to know. I am still in a dark place, even though I have come out with my loss to a few others. I am hoping that I can find my way back to a lighter place now that I have finally come out to y'all. You are a wonderful group of ladies, and I hope I can add something positive to this group for others in need. Thanks for allowing me to let that out.

Hey Wormy! I'm sorry for your loss and that you find yourself in a dark place. I hope we can give you the support you need go start feeling better. Have you thought of counseling? It's helped many ladies here.

Also, you can come and lurk in the CAL board, there are some funny ladies over there the may help you laugh

So many *hugs* to you And we are here for you when you need it.

[arb213]

Hi everyone. This is my first time posting on this board. I never posted much on The Bump's pregnancy loss board. I have one healthy living daughter who is 5 and I lost my first pregnancy at 6 weeks along back in March 2009. I don't know that I've fully moved on from it (you never really do). Every March and October (baby's due date was around Halloween) I think of that baby. I know I am lucky to have my daughter but I wonder if that lost baby was a boy or girl, who he/she would have been today.

[emmylo413]

Well I am officially here. First I want to say how so very sorry I am for everyone's losses. We confirmed our second blighted ovum in at my OB appointment today. It's brutal, but I'm surprised at how much better I am taking it this time. Probably because we had a wait of a week or so in between ultrasounds before it was fully confirmed. I had time to adjust. Last time I went for the D&E, but ended up miscarrying almost everything on my own. I had a really bad experience and ended up in the ER so we are opting for the D&E again and hoping no bleeding starts before then. Sending ((hugs)) to all.

[nikolie93]

Jan 28, 2015 17:58:47 GMT -5 arb213 said:

Hi everyone. This is my first time posting on this board. I never posted much on The Bump's pregnancy loss board. I have one healthy living daughter who is 5 and I lost my first pregnancy at 6 weeks along back in March 2009. I don't know that I've fully moved on from it (you never really do). Every March and October (baby's due date was around Halloween) I think of that baby. I know I am lucky to have my daughter but I wonder if that lost baby was a boy or girl, who he/she would have been today.

Sorry for the I loss but welcome. EDD's are always hard and just because you already have a child doesn't make it any easier. *hugs*

[nikolie93]

Jan 28, 2015 19:36:27 GMT -5 emmylo413 said:

Well I am officially here. First I want to say how so very sorry I am for everyone's losses. We confirmed our second blighted ovum in at my OB appointment today. It's brutal, but I'm surprised at how much better I am taking it this time. Probably because we had a wait of a week or so in between ultrasounds before it was fully confirmed. I had time to adjust. Last time I went for the D&E, but ended up miscarrying almost everything on my own. I had a really bad experience and ended up in the ER so we are opting for the D&E again and hoping no bleeding starts before then. Sending ((hugs)) to all.

I'm so very sorry you find yourself here, I'm sorry for your losses. I hope the bleeding holds off for your D&E *hugs*

[craftcrazymama]

Hi all

Joining this board as I go through my 3rd loss and realise I need support.

I have one beautiful baby girl after 3 years TTC and 2 losses and have been TTC agin for the past 6 months. Got a BFP on my first Clomid cycle started last month but am losing this pregnancy as well.

Feeling upset and angry at having to go though this again and hating all the worry and the doubt that comes with all my pregnancies because of these losses.

[emmylo413]

Jan 30, 2015 3:34:49 GMT -5 craftcrazymama said:

Hi all

Joining this board as I go through my 3rd loss and realise I need support.

I have one beautiful baby girl after 3 years TTC and 2 losses and have been TTC agin for the past 6 months. Got a BFP on my first Clomid cycle started last month but am losing this pregnancy as well.

Feeling upset and angry at having to go though this again and hating all the worry and the doubt that comes with all my pregnancies because of these losses.

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I am currently going through my second loss and can relate to how frustrating it is.  I think you'll find this to be a very supportive group of ladies.  We're here for you!