TTC- Frustrated
Apr 3, 2015 13:13:04 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Apr 3, 2015 13:13:04 GMT -5
I'm having a pretty awful day today. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant since roughly Nov, but just recently started charting and tracking. The last 2 days I have had spotting- I won't get into detail unless someone wants to help, but through PM (I know some women do not like reading about it). Anyways, I was hopeful at the start, but today I just can't stop crying. I feel like there is too much spotting, or like it has been too many days. My temp is still up, so I want to be hopeful, but I just have this bad feeling. I had implantation spotting when I was pregnant with my boys, but I just can't remember it being this much. I took a test this morning and it was negative, so I'm trying to wait and see what happens in the next few days. If the spotting stops I will test.
I feel like I'm being selfish because there are women who have been trying years to get pregnant, or can't have children at all. I know I should be patient, I just feel like the minute we started trying, there seems to be all of these issues. My cycles were normally 25-28 days. Now they are stretching out to over 40 in some cases. I'm reevaluating my whole diet and lifestyle, thinking that might be why nothing is happening. I also worry that having twins at 38 weeks caused some internal issues, because they were so big and I was so tiny.
I really needed to vent, and I hope this is ok. I'm having a very difficult day, and I just needed some help/support. It doesn't help I do have anxiety and can be incredibly hard on myself. If anyone wants to chat/give guidance I will accept anything anyone is willing to give.
Thanks for listening ladies.
I feel like I'm being selfish because there are women who have been trying years to get pregnant, or can't have children at all. I know I should be patient, I just feel like the minute we started trying, there seems to be all of these issues. My cycles were normally 25-28 days. Now they are stretching out to over 40 in some cases. I'm reevaluating my whole diet and lifestyle, thinking that might be why nothing is happening. I also worry that having twins at 38 weeks caused some internal issues, because they were so big and I was so tiny.
I really needed to vent, and I hope this is ok. I'm having a very difficult day, and I just needed some help/support. It doesn't help I do have anxiety and can be incredibly hard on myself. If anyone wants to chat/give guidance I will accept anything anyone is willing to give.
Thanks for listening ladies.