Interested in thoughts on family building...
Apr 6, 2015 5:41:33 GMT -5
Post by kona on Apr 6, 2015 5:41:33 GMT -5
**this is long**
DW and I really wanted to use a known donor to conceive. We asked 4 different guys who all originally said yes and then the significant other was against it and we couldn't move forward. We did find one known donor when we lived in Boston through KDR and tried a few times with at home insemination, without luck and then we moved out of the area.
Fastforward, we ended up using a bank and an RE office to conceive Olivia and the donor cannot be known. We went through 3 donors and 8 IUIs through the bank as well before we got pregnant. When we were in the process, it was a lot of money outlay and after awhile it didn't seem like we were ever going to get pregnant. Maybe our decision making got a little haphazard. I have a lot of guilt over not using a known donor, so that Olivia will never get to meet the other half of her genetics.
Now we are moving on to TTC#2. We have 2 vials left with the donor we used for Olivia. We also had one of our good friends from college offer at Christmas time to donate for us if we decided to have more children. He lives about 7 hours away so we would realistically have to use a bank and RE again to conceive. The method of conception aside (if I try I really don't want to have to use the RE), now we are left with the possibility that Olivia would be the only child that would not know who her biological make up is from. We could try with the remaining 2 vials and not get pregnant again. He doesn't have any more vials left so we would be out of options to give her a bio or 1/2 bio sibling anyway. Or do we just move on and use or friend who so willingly offered. (It could always still fall through with him until we have a signed contract but he is a really level headed guy).
I need to come to some peace with this before we move forward. I feel like this is such a parenting fail and she's only 8 months old. I don't want her to have any issues regarding her family as we love her to pieces and wanted her more than anything. I feel like it's just human nature to want to know where you came from and I'm afraid I don't have adequate answers for her.
Any thoughts? Thanks for letting me share, there is no one IRL that would understand this issue.
DW and I really wanted to use a known donor to conceive. We asked 4 different guys who all originally said yes and then the significant other was against it and we couldn't move forward. We did find one known donor when we lived in Boston through KDR and tried a few times with at home insemination, without luck and then we moved out of the area.
Fastforward, we ended up using a bank and an RE office to conceive Olivia and the donor cannot be known. We went through 3 donors and 8 IUIs through the bank as well before we got pregnant. When we were in the process, it was a lot of money outlay and after awhile it didn't seem like we were ever going to get pregnant. Maybe our decision making got a little haphazard. I have a lot of guilt over not using a known donor, so that Olivia will never get to meet the other half of her genetics.
Now we are moving on to TTC#2. We have 2 vials left with the donor we used for Olivia. We also had one of our good friends from college offer at Christmas time to donate for us if we decided to have more children. He lives about 7 hours away so we would realistically have to use a bank and RE again to conceive. The method of conception aside (if I try I really don't want to have to use the RE), now we are left with the possibility that Olivia would be the only child that would not know who her biological make up is from. We could try with the remaining 2 vials and not get pregnant again. He doesn't have any more vials left so we would be out of options to give her a bio or 1/2 bio sibling anyway. Or do we just move on and use or friend who so willingly offered. (It could always still fall through with him until we have a signed contract but he is a really level headed guy).
I need to come to some peace with this before we move forward. I feel like this is such a parenting fail and she's only 8 months old. I don't want her to have any issues regarding her family as we love her to pieces and wanted her more than anything. I feel like it's just human nature to want to know where you came from and I'm afraid I don't have adequate answers for her.
Any thoughts? Thanks for letting me share, there is no one IRL that would understand this issue.