I just lost my shit at the grocery store

[PiradicalMaid]

And I have to tell you guys about it because I think you will understand. This is a post and run but I'll check back in later. Please don't read if you're feeling sensitive, obviously it was upsetting to me...

I had to go to the grocery store to buy more pads because when I bought them last time I didn't yet know I'd lost the pregnancy and didn't buy enough. Sucky already. Right as I walked in the door, this conversation took place.

Woman with child to visably pregnant woman: How far along are you?
Visably pregnant woman: 5 months
First woman: I'm 5 weeks! We aren't telling anyone yet.

I just was totally unprepared to hear and see that right at that moment and I started bawling my eyes out. They were so sweet and asked if I was ok and I explained and they were very kind. Still, not really something I ever thought I would do!

I'm still shakey. It feels like it shouldn't be that big of a deal but it just hit me so hard especially considering why I was there. Thank you for listening. I'm so grateful you're here (well, I'm devastated you're here, but I hope you know what I mean).

[vlinder]

(((Hugs))) I had enough trouble keeping it together just seeing pregnant women today.

[soultrane]

Big big hugs! I've only really left the house this week to go to the doctor, so I give you props for getting out there.

[vivela]

I'm so sorry, what terrible timing. There are a lot of triggers out there, but it does get easier.

[muscari]

Oh sweets ((hugs)) I'm glad that those women were so sweet and kind, but I can imagine it shook you up.
When I was preparing for the medically-assisted mc my sister was so sweet to bring me pads and stuff so I didn't have to go to the store to get them. It wasn't until a month after that I realized how incredibly helpful that had been -- I don't think I could have handled it myself at the time.
(more hugs) hope you are feeling a bit better again now that you're back home.

[PiradicalMaid]

Thanks for the hugs and understanding. It makes the shitty stuff a little easier.

[cabgirl]

I'm so sorry. Those triggers are everywhere in the beginning, and they're terrible. I was afraid to leave the house, because I knew I'd encounter something that'd make me want to lose it. What you heard must have been especially hard. Huge hugs.

[PiradicalMaid]

Thank you, cabgirl. Reading through everyone's responses again makes me think I might be trying to do too much too soon right now. I really appreciate hearing everyone's experiences.

[starfishy]

I'm so sorry. You never know when it will hit you the hardest. : (

[Ace]

I'm so sorry. Those unpredictable triggers are the wost.

[hollyberry]

I am sorry, I find it hard to see pregnant women, it always makes me sad and I always have to turn away and not look at them. Hugs

[followthesun]

Triggers suck I'm sorry. Be kind to yourself.

[nikolie93]

Damn triggers Just know that it's normal so don't feel like you're crazy.. And your reaction is justified. I know it seems hard to believe now but with time the hard times become less and less. I won't lie and say there are never triggers because our hormones are just fucking dumb, but they do get less *hugs*