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[bluedaisy0627]

So my life is a mess right now. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be fired today. Honestly, I think I deserve it. I've been out of it for a few months. I am struggling to function, which is why I asked about therapy. Only to find out that insurance won't cover it. I made an appointment for tomorrow, and I'm not 100% sure how we are going to afford it, especially if/when I don't have a job. My mom has offered to help, but I hate knowing this is what I am resorting to.

I'm so glad our community is here. I am grateful to have people to talk to who get where I'm coming from.

[mlal78]

Huge (((hugs))) for you love. Would it help at all to come clean to your boss about everything?

[therealbug]

Oh love ((((((hugs)))))))

I am so, so sorry. I agree with mlal78. Either your boss or an HR department? If your employer is big enough, they should have free counseling services available.

[bluedaisy0627]

Jan 21, 2015 9:59:14 GMT -5 mlal78 said:

Huge (((hugs))) for you love. Would it help at all to come clean to your boss about everything?

She knows everything already. She's been great about everything, doing the best she can to shield me. Like I said, I don't blame them. I'm just having a hard time caring about anything and it shows.

[towerclimberswife]

Sorry you're dealing with all that. Sending you big (((hugs)))!

I agree with mlal78... maybe coming clean will help everyone understand... that is if you haven't already. Good luck. It sucks to know you aren't operating at the level you know you are capable of. I've totally been there.

[bluedaisy0627]

Jan 21, 2015 10:01:20 GMT -5 therealbug said:

Oh love ((((((hugs)))))))

I am so, so sorry. I agree with mlal78. Either your boss or an HR department? If your employer is big enough, they should have free counseling services available.

I wish they did, but they don't. I tried that. We aren't all that big in the grand scheme of things.

[therealbug]

Jan 21, 2015 10:02:43 GMT -5 bluedaisy0627 said:

Jan 21, 2015 10:01:20 GMT -5 therealbug said:

Oh love ((((((hugs)))))))

I am so, so sorry. I agree with mlal78. Either your boss or an HR department? If your employer is big enough, they should have free counseling services available.

I wish they did, but they don't. I tried that. We aren't all that big in the grand scheme of things.

Fuck. It's too close to February for this ((((hugs))))). 

I'm glad your mom is willing to help out and I think you need to take her up on her offer. 

[mrsk91011]

I am so sorry. ((hugs)) I hope that you get to keep your job.

[tkford216]

I'm so sorry. I really hope everything works out okay. ((hugs))

[yummybunny]

I'm so sorry you are struggling. I really hope you don't get fired. I agree that you should take your mom up on the offer for help.

[holdingouthope]

Oh sweetie. I'm sending you so many (((hugs))). I really hope things aren't as bad with your work situation as you think. That is really sweet of your mom to offer to help. I'm sending you lots of positive vibes.

[sarcaztic10]

Sending tons of (((Hugs))) I seriously hope that you get to keep your job.

[rmpar29]

I'm so sorry honey. Many, many ((((HUGS))). I hope you can keep your job and find some way to get some counseling. Know that we are here to support you. I agree that you should take your mom up on her offer to help.

[littleducky]

(((hugs))) I am so sorry you are dealing with job troubles and have been having trouble with finding affordable/insurance covered therapy. Perhaps you can find a place that has a sliding scale? I would also encourage you to consider trying to accept the financial help that is offered to you. If you need therapy to get back into a place where you can focus and succeed in your job, perhaps instead of seeing it as your mom helping you, you could see it as your mom investing in a healthy future for you. And if it made the idea more palatable, you could offer to pay your mom back once you are in a better place and working again. Of course - it's a very personal decision and you have to make the best decision for you, given all of your own personal feelings and circumstances. I'm sorry.

[grneyes]

So many (((hugs))). I am so sorry things are difficult right now.

[ltlbandito]

Lots of ((hugs)). I hope you get to keep your job

[cavewmn]

*huggles* I also think you should take her up on her offer. Get help and worry about the money later(or paying your mom back later).

[pantaloons55]

I'm so sorry you are going through all this. I'm sending lots of good vibes your way and hope that your job will remain secure.

It might be worth letting your Mom help out, if she's offering. As a person who is fiercely independent, I would struggle with this too, so I get it, but people who love us, ultimately want the best for us. Its ok to let your Mom (or any loved one) take care of you when you're down. I'm sure you would do the same for someone you loved if you could right?

Sending many hugs.

[AmazingTulip]

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time with everything right now. I think you made a major step in seeking out therapy. I would hate to see other circumstances prevent you from getting that help. Your mom doesn't want to see you hurting - I think you should take her up on her offer. ((hugs))

[eurydicenymph]

Lots of ((Hugs)) and positive vibes that things turn around for you. 

[kellybenelly83]

I'm sorry you have to deal with this
((hugs))

[bluedaisy0627]

Just got off the phone with my mom. She offered again to help and I accepted if we need it.

Thanks for your support. I'm not sure where I'd be without you all.

[littleowl913]

Jan 21, 2015 10:23:07 GMT -5 littleducky said:

(((hugs))) I am so sorry you are dealing with job troubles and have been having trouble with finding affordable/insurance covered therapy. Perhaps you can find a place that has a sliding scale? I would also encourage you to consider trying to accept the financial help that is offered to you. If you need therapy to get back into a place where you can focus and succeed in your job, perhaps instead of seeing it as your mom helping you, you could see it as your mom investing in a healthy future for you. And if it made the idea more palatable, you could offer to pay your mom back once you are in a better place and working again. Of course - it's a very personal decision and you have to make the best decision for you, given all of your own personal feelings and circumstances. I'm sorry.

well said littleducky.  I know you don't like the thought of your mom helping out but you have to take your mental health as serious as your physical health. If you do lose your job, you'll need to get your mental health in check in order to get another job no? (((hugs)))

[mellymel15]

I'm so sorry you're struggling. I really hope everything ends up being OK with your work situation. That sucks. I'm thinking of you and sending you hugs. Hang in there and please know I'm only a PM away if you ever want to chat.

[agpjt413]

Awww sweetie - ((hugs)) I'm so, so sorry.

[4furrypaws]

Oh sweetie...sending you so many ((hugs)). I'm glad you accepted help from your Mom.

Could you call your local county office to see if they have any free services? Or you could call different therapists and see if they use a sliding scale for fees.

More ((hugs))

[nikolie93]

First I am so sorry you're going through this *hugs* Second, I am so glad you took your mom up on her offer and it will be really good to talk to someone. You say that your boss knows what's going on and has been trying to shield you so you think the issues are with higher up's? Maybe at least let your boss know that you plan on talking to someone to get you down a better path. I wish I was there to give you a real hug..in a total, non creepy way of course!

[fionnathehuman]

Oh NO... I am so so sorry you are going through this... Lots of (((hugs)))

[readinglove]

So many (((hugs))) for you. I'm sorry you're not in a good place, and I hope you're able to find a way to make it work so you can get the help you need. Sending good vibes and positive thoughts that things go well today.

[scrang92]

I'm so sorry you're struggling with this. I'm glad you accepted the help from your mom if you find you need it. Good luck at work and positive vibes for you that your day and week goes well!