Feeling defeated too soon?

[dannigirl]

AF is due in about 3 days, but I tested the last two days with a First Response, the one that you can take 5 days before AF, and the first day there was no line, the next day there was a very, very light line, and this morning there was nothing again.

I know I still have 3 days to go till AF should be arriving, but I'm feeling like this month was a bust.

I wish this constant sick feeling I've been having the last 3 days was from a pregnancy, but it's probably not and its been messing with me.

Has anyone gotten a late positive?

I have a feeling I expected too much from this IUI as last time we had such great success, I was hoping for the same this time.

[cetcar]

How many days past IUI are you? It could be too soon. Also, have you tried testing at different times of day? Some people's bodies don't seem to test as well in the morning, even though that's what the test says to do.

Sorry you're feeling stressed about it, definitely know how that feels!

[dannigirl]

I'm 11dpiui.
Only been testing in the morning.
I know it's not over till AF shows her ugly head...
Trying to not be too down.. But it's hard since last time I saw my positives already with our last pregnancy.

[jgy]

dannigirl, it's still early. With Gabe I tested at 10DPO and it was stark white. I was so depressed about it that I had 2 giant beers at the airport on the way home that night (not that I think that matters, but I was way more conservative about that stuff then). I tested 2 days later and there was the slightest squinter of a line. Every cycle is different, every pregnancy is different, and there are certainly some late implanters out there!

[amberreva]

dannigirl first off I am glad you found us over here! I tested at 11 days after my IUI and got a negative. I was sure it was a bust but didn't tell R because I didn't want to give up hope just yet. Two days later tested again. I actually walked out of the bathroom because I was so sure that it would say not pregnant. Reva picked up the test and was like babe?! All that said you aren't out until AF shows.

[dannigirl]

Thank you for the encouragement.
I just feel so depressed about all this. I was sure that it would be a no go because of the odd timing compared to last time. Then I got sick, started to have all these weird things going on, got sharp pain in the breasts.. like I even almost threw up when I smelt someone's body odour! So I thought for sure that was a sigh.
And I had the constant encouragement from my friend who said she felt like that when we first found out she was pregnant with her little guy.
So I thought, yes!! It worked!! And then I did HPT's and I was excited cause I saw that the light line was changing, and then there was nothing, and I was devastated.
I built myself up so much, and then felt like I crushed myself.
If this is not our month, I really don't think I'm going to do any HPT's next time and just go in for my beta and leave it at that. This rollercoaster sucks, and I don't want to feel like this every time the TWW is close to the end.

[dannigirl]

And thank you amberreva.
I'm so happy I joined. I've been a part of A TTC LGBT group on Facebook too, but you all are so much more supportive, as you've always been.

[dannigirl]

Side note...
I shouldn't be complaining as I know there are so many of you who have had to deal with BFN's... Too many of them for so many of you too.
I kind of feel like a spoiled brat with my whining... We got lucky with our first IUI. So it's like I expect it with this one...
I hope I'm not offending anyone.

[mahler5]

dannigirl -- sorry you are stuck in the TWW! I made myself crazy testing a few weeks ago. I think with C we tested 12 days pIUi and got a really faint line. Then the next day it was solid.

And you aren't offending me and I wouldn't imagine you would be offending anyone. I wouldn't worry about that.

Hope you get a BFP soon.

[RM80]

May 8, 2015 20:25:22 GMT -5 dannigirl said:

Side note...
I shouldn't be complaining as I know there are so many of you who have had to deal with BFN's... Too many of them for so many of you too.
I kind of feel like a spoiled brat with my whining... We got lucky with our first IUI. So it's like I expect it with this one...
I hope I'm not offending anyone.

Don't feel bad at all- a bfn sucks! 1st or 10th... Everyone has different baggage to carry & paths they are on and a bfn is always a let down. We're here for ya! That said- I hope it's just early for you this month! FX!

[jazibel]

Just here to echo all the words above. 11 dpiui is still early. I've had BFP's by 10 dpo, and with Owen, stark white at 10 dpo, then spotting to medium bleeding, then a positive at 15 dpo. I hope this is your month. Keep us posted.

[dannigirl]

Thank you sooooo much!!
I'll do my best to not stress and just let the cards fall where they may.
If this month turns into a BFN, then next time I've decided I won't POAS at all, and just wait for the beta.
That way I'll keep my sanity a little more... lol

[wittyandwaiting]

I'm sorry that you're feeling bummed. Like others have said, all BFN's suck. My first was was really tough because I figured that if we had all the ingredients it would work out.

Try not to count yourself as out until AF arrives.

[dannigirl]

Thanks all!
I just posted on the TTC thread..

Thinking AF may have showed up 2 days early. Went pee and there was fresh thinned out blood. Not even spotting.

[dannigirl]

Huh..
So yesterday there was pretty well nothing at all when I wiped after my bathroom breaks. Only a small dot on the liner I wore.
This morning I expected AF to be full force as that's how it would normally work, but there was only a light brown colour mixed into the watery cm. There was no bright red. So we shall see where this takes us.

I'm hoping that might have been implantation bleeding since it was around 12dpo. I'm remaining slightly optimistic that we are not out this month, but I'm not holding my breath either. We will see what today brings. If there is nothing all day again, im going to POAS tomorrow morning and go in for my beta as planned.

[jazibel]

May 10, 2015 9:46:27 GMT -5 dannigirl said:

Huh..
So yesterday there was pretty well nothing at all when I wiped after my bathroom breaks. Only a small dot on the liner I wore.
This morning I expected AF to be full force as that's how it would normally work, but there was only a light brown colour mixed into the watery cm. There was no bright red. So we shall see where this takes us.

I'm hoping that might have been implantation bleeding since it was around 12dpo. I'm remaining slightly optimistic that we are not out this month, but I'm not holding my breath either. We will see what today brings. If there is nothing all day again, im going to POAS tomorrow morning and go in for my beta as planned.

I hope this is it for you. All fingers & toes crossed!!!

[dannigirl]

We are out this IUI. AF is here full force.

2 weeks and we try again.

[dannigirl]

Thank you for all the encouragement ladies, it was very much appreciated.

[cetcar]

Sorry to hear this wasn't the month. It's always hard but way to look ahead to the next try!

[officerofthelaw]

Sorry to hear the news...BFN always hurt. I am hoping for better results in two weeks when you try again:)

[kh826]

I'm sorry to hear this. Hopefully this next cycle will be the one!

[megd893]

Just catching up. Sorry I wasnt here earlier, and that you got the BFN you were dreading. I hope you have an okay few days from here, and may the next round be your miracle.

[PiradicalMaid]

I said in the TTC check in, too, but sorry about CD 1 Best of luck to you going into the next cycle!!