*~PGAL Check-In 5/11~*

[mrsoscarfelix]

This will be a weekly check-in for January moms who have experienced pregnancy loss before this pregnancy. I'm sorry you have to be here, but let's get each other through the next 9 months.

If this if your first check-in, Welcome! Please share the following in your post:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) :

EDD:

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit):


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most?



 

[mrsoscarfelix]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : 2 MC both at 5w6d, one in October 2014 and the second in January 2015

EDD: 1/19

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 3wk6d/ poppy seed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I am having some cramps, sore boobs, and feeling really tired. Emotionally - I am not really sure. I feel sort of detached from this pregnancy because it is so early and I want to prepare for the worse and not get too excited.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: None as of now.



QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? I love grilling outside and laying by the pool!

[gidgetgirl08]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : MMC found on 1/23/15 @ 8w5d LO stopped growing at 7w1d - D&C on 1/26.

EDD: 1/13

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 4w 5d - Poppy seed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically, aside from some breast sensitivity, I'm feeling like normal. Emotionally, I'm on top of the world one minute and down in the valley in the next minute.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
My Dr.s office likes to do a confirmation appointment so I'll have that on 5/28 and hopefully schedule a dating ultrasound for around that time too.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? The pool opening and taking the kids to the beach.

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 11, 2015 12:22:05 GMT -5 gidgetgirl08 said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : MMC found on 1/23/15 @ 8w5d LO stopped growing at 7w1d - D&C on 1/26.

EDD: 1/13

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 4w 5d - Poppy seed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically, aside from some breast sensitivity, I'm feeling like normal. Emotionally, I'm on top of the world one minute and down in the valley in the next minute.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
My Dr.s office likes to do a confirmation appointment so I'll have that on 5/28 and hopefully schedule a dating ultrasound for around that time too.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? The pool opening and taking the kids to the beach.

It really is a roller coaster ride. I have minutes where I get excited then I calm myself down because I know what could happen.

I am jealous of the beach - I wish I lived close to one!!

[berries555]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : I had 2 losses last year. One in March and one in July

EDD: 10/31/2014 and 3/8/2015

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
I am 5w1d and I think sesame seed

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Detached I guess. I really don't think that I will get too excited until I am out of the 1st tri. We just finished our 4th round of IVF, so I am hoping this is the one. But I really don't know. I just don't feel confident.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: 5/27 is my first u/s.

QOTD: HEAT. I live in the midwest and I hate cold. I am also looking forward to baseball games!! I love sitting at a game with a beer and peanuts. I guess this summer will be just peanuts...

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 11, 2015 13:10:29 GMT -5 berries555 said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : I had 2 losses last year. One in March and one in July

EDD: 10/31/2014 and 3/28/2015

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
I am 5w1d and I think sesame seed

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Detached I guess. I really don't think that I will get too excited until I am out of the 1st tri. We just finished our 4th round of IVF, so I am hoping this is the one. But I really don't know. I just don't feel confident.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: 5/27 is my first u/s.

QOTD: HEAT. I live in the midwest and I hate cold. I am also looking forward to baseball games!! I love sitting at a game with a beer and peanuts. I guess this summer will be just peanuts...

 Detached is the word that I use the most. I think once I start hitting milestones it will be different. ((hugs)) hang in there - I think these first couple weeks and first tri will be the hardest.

Midwest here too!! I cannot wait for the weather to heat up. I feel like we do good for a week and then the next week the temp is back down with rain. I just want some sunshine DAMMIT! I hear you, the NHL playoffs are going on now and normally I can be found at a bar drinking for each game. Now I suppose I'll watch at home or sitting drinking a water at a bar

[germaphobe]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : Natural MC March 5 @ 5w

EDD: 01/10/2016

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w1d - appleseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically besides the typical 1st tri woes I feel fine. Emotionally apprehensive


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Ultrasound May 29, and first prenatal June 5


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? I look forward to going to the lake. We have a few trips planned with the inlaws to the mountains, and I am really looking forward to getting our yard done.

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 11, 2015 16:21:24 GMT -5 germaphobe said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : Natural MC March 5 @ 5w

EDD: 01/10/2016

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w1d - appleseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically besides the typical 1st tri woes I feel fine. Emotionally apprehensive


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Ultrasound May 29, and first prenatal June 5


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? I look forward to going to the lake. We have a few trips planned with the inlaws to the mountains, and I am really looking forward to getting our yard done.

Feeling apprehensive is understandable. It's unfair that we have to go into a pregnancy feeling this way because we know the tragedy of what can happen.

I love lake trips, I probably won't be making very many as we normally go to party at our friend's lake house and it doesn't look like there will be much partying going on!

[ktrue85]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : First loss was at 5w, discovered in January 2012. Second loss was at 8w, discovered on Halloween 2012. Third loss was at 6w, discovered January 2015. I've had one D&C and two natural miscarriages.

EDD: 1/16/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 4w2d - poppyseed.


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm good, tiny bit of breast soreness. Emotionally, im terrified.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: blood draw on 5/13, most likely an US the following week.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most?

Wearing ALL the comfy maxi dresses!

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 11, 2015 16:39:09 GMT -5 ktrue85 said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : First loss was at 5w, discovered in January 2012. Second loss was at 8w, discovered on Halloween 2012. Third loss was at 6w, discovered January 2015. I've had one D&C and two natural miscarriages.

EDD: 1/16/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 4w2d - poppyseed.


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm good, tiny bit of breast soreness. Emotionally, im terrified.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: blood draw on 5/13, most likely an US the following week.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most?

Wearing ALL the comfy maxi dresses!

((Hug)) it truly is a terrifying experience. FX your betas come back great!

Oh, I adore maxi dresses !!

[icequeen]

mrsoscarfelix, I am trying not to get excited also, I just can't bear another disappointment so I'm trying to keep my expectations low.
berries555, I am praying hard that this IVF works for y'all.
germaphobe, I am extremely apprehensive too. It's so hard not to question every little thing that's going on.

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : Both of my losses were at 5 weeks; the first in October 2014, and the second in March 2015. They were chemical pregnancies and I was able to resume TTC fairly quickly after each one.

EDD: 1/8/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w3d - appleseed.


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel like death. I cannot remember the last time I felt this shitty. Emotionally, I am so anxious and scared that I will have another CP and have to start all over. I can't stop thinking about that possibility.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: BW and US tomorrow to confirm geestational sac/s, because I have a possibility of twins.

QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Starting DD with swimming lessons and spending the weekends outdoors with the family.

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 11, 2015 17:51:07 GMT -5 icequeen said:

mrsoscarfelix, I am trying not to get excited also, I just can't bear another disappointment so I'm trying to keep my expectations low.
berries555, I am praying hard that this IVF works for y'all.
germaphobe, I am extremely apprehensive too. It's so hard not to question every little thing that's going on.

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : Both of my losses were at 5 weeks; the first in October 2014, and the second in March 2015. They were chemical pregnancies and I was able to resume TTC fairly quickly after each one.

EDD: 1/8/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w3d - appleseed.


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel like death. I cannot remember the last time I felt this shitty. Emotionally, I am so anxious and scared that I will have another CP and have to start all over. I can't stop thinking about that possibility.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: BW and US tomorrow to confirm geestational sac/s, because I have a possibility of twins.

QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Starting DD with swimming lessons and spending the weekends outdoors with the family.

I hate that you are feeling like crap ((hugs)) hopefully you start to feel better soon. I hope the bw and ultrasound go well !

Why the possibility of twins ??

[missglitz]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : CP at 5W

EDD: 10/2/14

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5/Appleseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel pretty crappy. I don't remember feeling this nausea with DS. No real appetite and overall tiredness all the time. Emotionally, I just want to get past the roller coaster of ifs. I had betas and progesterone checked this time around and am just glad to be past the 5W window. Three weeks until an U/S, though. That'll be a LONG wait!


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: June 4th


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Not working and spending time with DS.

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 11, 2015 19:18:58 GMT -5 missglitz said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : CP at 5W

EDD: 10/2/14

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5/Appleseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel pretty crappy. I don't remember feeling this nausea with DS. No real appetite and overall tiredness all the time. Emotionally, I just want to get past the roller coaster of ifs. I had betas and progesterone checked this time around and am just glad to be past the 5W window. Three weeks until an U/S, though. That'll be a LONG wait!


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: June 4th


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Not working and spending time with DS.

Sorry about the nausea hopefully it subsides soon. I agree I can't wait to get past first tri and feel better. FX the next three weeks fly for you !

[missglitz]

May 11, 2015 19:28:21 GMT -5 mrsoscarfelix said:

May 11, 2015 19:18:58 GMT -5 missglitz said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : CP at 5W

EDD: 10/2/14

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5/Appleseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel pretty crappy. I don't remember feeling this nausea with DS. No real appetite and overall tiredness all the time. Emotionally, I just want to get past the roller coaster of ifs. I had betas and progesterone checked this time around and am just glad to be past the 5W window. Three weeks until an U/S, though. That'll be a LONG wait!


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: June 4th


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Not working and spending time with DS.

Sorry about the nausea hopefully it subsides soon. I agree I can't wait to get past first tri and feel better. FX the next three weeks fly for you !

Same to you! While it's annoying, the nausea helps me know that everything is working in there for this sticky bean!

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 11, 2015 19:33:59 GMT -5 missglitz said:

May 11, 2015 19:28:21 GMT -5 mrsoscarfelix said:

Sorry about the nausea hopefully it subsides soon. I agree I can't wait to get past first tri and feel better. FX the next three weeks fly for you !

Same to you! While it's annoying, the nausea helps me know that everything is working in there for this sticky bean!

I think the same things. Even though I'm exhausted and my boobs are killing me. It makes me feel like everything is okay !

[icequeen]

May 11, 2015 18:28:19 GMT -5 mrsoscarfelix said:

May 11, 2015 17:51:07 GMT -5 icequeen said:

mrsoscarfelix, I am trying not to get excited also, I just can't bear another disappointment so I'm trying to keep my expectations low.
berries555, I am praying hard that this IVF works for y'all.
germaphobe, I am extremely apprehensive too. It's so hard not to question every little thing that's going on.

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : Both of my losses were at 5 weeks; the first in October 2014, and the second in March 2015. They were chemical pregnancies and I was able to resume TTC fairly quickly after each one.

EDD: 1/8/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w3d - appleseed.


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel like death. I cannot remember the last time I felt this shitty. Emotionally, I am so anxious and scared that I will have another CP and have to start all over. I can't stop thinking about that possibility.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: BW and US tomorrow to confirm geestational sac/s, because I have a possibility of twins.

QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Starting DD with swimming lessons and spending the weekends outdoors with the family.

I hate that you are feeling like crap ((hugs)) hopefully you start to feel better soon. I hope the bw and ultrasound go well !

Why the possibility of twins ??

I had 9 mature follies when I triggered and I usually ovulate more than one egg every cycle. My HCG levels were also pretty high (179) at 14 DPO so that may be another indicator.  I know it's nothing off the charts, but I think my RE was going off the previous experiences he has had with multiples.

[FrancesHouseman]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable): I lost my first pregnancy at 20 weeks last October. We started TTC again this February. I had a CP last cycle.

EDD: 1/10/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w 2d


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? I have some cramping and a little brown spotting - this is of course making me very nervous.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I go for a blood draw tomorrow.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Grilling out, eating fresh tomatoes from our garden, hanging out by the pool

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 12, 2015 8:42:42 GMT -5 FrancesHouseman said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable): I lost my first pregnancy at 20 weeks last October. We started TTC again this February. I had a CP last cycle.

EDD: 1/10/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w 2d


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? I have some cramping and a little brown spotting - this is of course making me very nervous.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I go for a blood draw tomorrow.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Grilling out, eating fresh tomatoes from our garden, hanging out by the pool

FX you the blood draw goes well. ((hugs)) I know the cramping and spotting doesn't help PGAL mind - at all.

[icequeen]

May 12, 2015 8:42:42 GMT -5 FrancesHouseman said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable): I lost my first pregnancy at 20 weeks last October. We started TTC again this February. I had a CP last cycle.

EDD: 1/10/16

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How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w 2d


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? I have some cramping and a little brown spotting - this is of course making me very nervous.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I go for a blood draw tomorrow.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are looking forward to most? Grilling out, eating fresh tomatoes from our garden, hanging out by the pool

I was cramping and had brown spotting also. Don't worry about dark brown/dark red spotting; it is just old blood and usually not a sign of any problem. FX for your BD today! Hugs!

[amandflo]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : MC at 15wk/4d in January 2011. This is my first pregnancy since.

EDD: 16th


How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 4wk/3d and poppyseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I feel okay. Sore boobs and a little bit of nausea, but other than that okay. Emotionally I'm a little bit of a nervous wreck. I had a tiny bit of cramping yesterday and totally freaked out. Luckily, I'm married to the most chilled out woman in the world who reminded me that I had a bit of cramping with DD1 too, and that she is perfectly fine.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I have another beta test on Thursday, and then one more on Saturday. I'm especially worried about the Thursday one, since DW can't come and it's only an hour before I have to pick up DD2 from nursery and I really don't want her to see me upset if anything is wrong.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are you looking forward to most? BBQs and getting to spend time as a whole family.

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 12, 2015 15:39:11 GMT -5 amandflo said:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you feel comfortable) : MC at 15wk/4d in January 2011. This is my first pregnancy since.

EDD: 16th


How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 4wk/3d and poppyseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I feel okay. Sore boobs and a little bit of nausea, but other than that okay. Emotionally I'm a little bit of a nervous wreck. I had a tiny bit of cramping yesterday and totally freaked out. Luckily, I'm married to the most chilled out woman in the world who reminded me that I had a bit of cramping with DD1 too, and that she is perfectly fine.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I have another beta test on Thursday, and then one more on Saturday. I'm especially worried about the Thursday one, since DW can't come and it's only an hour before I have to pick up DD2 from nursery and I really don't want her to see me upset if anything is wrong.


QOTW: Summer is right around the corner! What are you looking forward to most? BBQs and getting to spend time as a whole family.

The cramping is the worst but your W is right it can be perfectly normal. FX your betas will look good - I'm sending positive doubling vibes to you for this weekend !!

[berries555]

I am having a bit of stress today. I feel like my symptoms are disappearing. I keep telling myself that symptoms can come and go, but it is hard. My first u/s is not until 5/27. I am 5w3d today...how will I get through 2 more weeks!!!

[mrsoscarfelix]

May 13, 2015 7:40:21 GMT -5 berries555 said:

I am having a bit of stress today. I feel like my symptoms are disappearing. I keep telling myself that symptoms can come and go, but it is hard. My first u/s is not until 5/27. I am 5w3d today...how will I get through 2 more weeks!!!

Preach! I hear you. My boobs aren't feeling as sensitive as they have been and I am actually feeling alright. I have the occasional cramps but that's about it. I keep freaking out. ((hugs)) we can lean on each other to get through this! I know its hard ! Not sure if you have been on the CAR (Carrying a Rainbow) board but we have a couple of mantras, whenever I get freaked out I read this and it helps, particularly the first two.

Today I am pregnant and I love my baby.

I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise.

My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c.

Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!

Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot jinx your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!

There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (God forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive"