Weekly Check-In 5.18

[soultrane]

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally?

Did you have a nice weekend?

Anything new to share?

New question this week: What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?

Bonus GTKY so we can think happy thoughts: What is your favorite way to relax during the summer?

[soultrane]

Physically? AF came back!!! Never thought that would be a thing I would celebrate.
Emotionally? Had a few rocky moments this weekend (see below) but overall I'm feeling good. I can't say that I've had a bad day in a while, although I have had bad moments here and there.

My weekend: Was lovely. I went wedding dress shopping Saturday with a friend and most of the bridal party and we had a great time. She found a beautiful dress and we all decided on what kind of dresses we'll wear. She's a super laid back bride and was more than happy to let us all hash it out. I did have a bit of a moment when I got measured and asked the seamstress about changes in size prior to the wedding because I'm hoping for a pregnancy between now and then. She was wonderful and reassuring but I got a little choked up because it hit me that she would have been measuring me at 14 weeks instead of at my normal size. I mean, I guess it's good that they get my true measurements but damn it hurt to think that it wasn't supposed to be that way. My sister was there too and helped me gather myself so I didn't have a total meltdown.

Yesterday we had plans to see friends but DS woke up with a stomach bug and couldn't keep anything down so we obviously cancelled. He was fine by the afternoon but it sucks seeing him sick. By last night, he was back to himself.

Nothing really new this week, other than AF coming back!

My best moment with DS this week was yesterday. While I hate that he didn't feel well, he snuggled up with me on the couch and took a nap which he hasn't done in a long time. I loved the cuddle time.

Bonus GTKY: Nothing beats relaxing ocean-side with a good book. We try to hit the beach at least a few times each summer and I could just sit on the balcony listening to the ocean for hours.

[sarcaztic10]

soultrane Thank you for running the check-in! Remembering how far along you should be is tough (((Hugs))). Yay for AF though!

AFM, nothing super new here. Mostly I am just waiting this cycle out until AF when I can call for my initial monitoring appt before I start injects. I have so little faith in my natural cycles anymore but I am trying to be more positive.

My best moment with DS was when we went shopping for groceries for the week. He has been a really good shopper lately. This time he picked up some prepackaged chocolate mini muffins and I told him to put them back. He whined a little but as soon as I told them they weren't very healthy for him he put them right back with no whining.

GTKY: favorite place to relax is at my parents house sitting in the lawn chairs under the big shade tree. Their house is out in the country and it is so quiet there.

[ellebelle]

Thanks for running the check-in soultrane! (Hugs) for a tough reminder.

(Hugs) sarcaztic10. I know what you mean about natural cycles. I hope injects are it for you!

AFM, I'm fine. Having some trouble sleeping but most likely anxiety related. I have one more day of BCPs and then go in Wednesday morning for my baseline u/s and blood work for IVF and then start stims. Eek!

QOTW: DD has just been so chatty lately, I'm loving hearing her conversations and new vocabulary. She told her grandmother that she is "good company" yesterday.

Bonus QOTW: Looking forward to spending time in the city parks. They have some great splash pads here than DD loves.

[leahks77]

Hi everyone! Thanks for the checkin soultrane. I'm sorry about that hard moment... Why can't we ever stop calculating how far we would be? But I'm glad AF came back! And that your DS is better
buttercup She is ADORABLE. Love the skates!!
AFM, physically, AF came back last week too! I don't usually O until CD20 or later so I've got a bit of a wait... Emotionally, I'm a bit of a wreck and I'm annoyed about it. EDD is next month for my first loss and I feel like it's on my mind a lot. I hate feeling so sad and crazy when I felt like I was doing so much better a couple months ago. I know it will get better, but still. So sad.
New question: I bought C a tball set and he loooooves it. He also learned to catch the ball so we have been playing (gentle, slow) catch in the backyard. He's such a little human all of a sudden!
Bonus GTKY: it used to be having an adult beverage on a patio with friends... I still love that. But now it is taking DS to the lake near our house and letting him play in the sand and the shallow water. And picnics.

[ls2012]

Thanks, soultrane, for running the check-in. Hurray for AF!

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally? I'm actually doing really well on both fronts. I think I needed to clear the hurdle of the physical loss and know that it was finally and completely done. It was an unexpected emotional release, too.

Did you have a nice weekend? We had a great weekend! Walked downtown to the bbq, blues, and bluegrass festival; got a lot of renovation work done on G's room; and some shopping for various house and yard stuff.

Anything new to share? Nope

New question this week: What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week? It was really warm yesterday and in the evening it down-poured rain. In a moment of spontaneity, my girls and I went outside and ran around in the rain and splashed in the puddles. It was glorious.

Bonus GTKY so we can think happy thoughts: What is your favorite way to relax during the summer? We're experiencing our first summer in our house, so it's hard to say. But I know I'm going to love being able to walk to the beach, or into town, or just hang out on the porch with some lemonade and a book- the latter sounds fantastic right now.

[leahks77]

ls2012 Everything about your post made me smile. Glad you are doing well on both fronts, love the image of you and your girls in the rain, and your house sounds amazing! Walk to the beach or town? Nice porch? Yes please!

[boobacat]

How's Physically? Emotionally? Doing better than expected emotionally. Physically, crampier than expected but I guess that means my body is doing what it needs to do. (D&C was Friday)

Did you have a nice weekend? Nice in that DH was a rockstar around the house but this was my first weekend post loss so there were some comments I received that though well intentioned, annoying.

Anything new to share? My hospital provided me with a care package that included a book that was a very quick/easy read and was helpful for me. It was called Miscarriage, A Shattered Dream if anyone is interested.

New question this week: What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?
DS rides his little tikes car down the driveway and gets (pretend) treats for everyone. It's pretty cute watching him Fred Flintstone his way around.

Bonus GTKY so we can think happy thoughts: What is your favorite way to relax during the summer? We enjoy traveling up to Northern Michigan where my parents have a cottage.

[jmc11511]

Thanks for running the check in.

I'm doing ok emotionally I think. I'm anticipating AF this week and then we are cleared to TTC again. I had a bit of a rough time yesterday, a girl at church who is pregnant with her first and did not know about my miscarriage asked me if I wanted to have another baby, and when we would be trying, and if I wanted a girl. Then she launched into how sick she was in first tri and how she is starting to be uncomfortable now. It was just really upsetting and I didn't want to be rude and just leave the conversation abruptly. So I just politely excused myself when I could and had a bit of a cry in the bathroom.

Physically I'm feeling fine. Feeling bloated and having a little bit of cramps, so I'm hopeful that AF is really right around the corner.

Our weekend was good. We went to Disneyland Saturday and had a great time in the morning at CA. Apparently grad nights have started so Disneyland was a mad house. But we all still had a good time and we figured out that L (who has severe food allergies) can eat a Mickey pretzel! We went back for Fantasmic last night and had dining reservations. The food was better than I expected and the show and fireworks were fun. L has a cold and a fever now so we are laying low today...

Best moment with him was that he has started singing songs with me, instead of just repeating phrases after me. His little singing voice is so cute!

[fabk]

I am meh. It is he third anniversary of my loss before Alex was born. So with an already fragile emotional state, I am just down in the dumps.

My weekend was meh.

I got lots of cuddles with Alex this weekend, which is always awesome.

[boobacat]

fabk I'm sorry.

Cuddles are awesome.

[leahks77]

theophania I had that same sad about CD1, even though we weren't trying either. I knew I o'd and my stupid brain got a little hope.

[mrsred09]

Hello everyone!

Physically and emotionally I am doing ok. I had a good weekend with DH and DS, which was exactly what I needed to beat the negative thoughts still floating in my head from the bust that was last cycle. I got my hopes up to high and crashed very hard when AF showed

New stuff....we just started really trying to potty train DS and it's going rather interesting. I'm trying to let DS go about it on his own pace, but really want him to be comfortable with the potty soon. Also my amazing DH decided to book a refundable trip to the keys for the weekend right after AF is due to come as a way to have something to look forward so should this cycle end in a BFN. AF is scheduled to arrive on our loss EDD so I'm expecting to be an emotional roller coaster that day either way.

Best moment either DS this week was watching his excitement when the mailman delivered a giant package for him. He always thinks the mail is for him and gets so disappointed when it's not. His uncle sent him a water table for his birthday. I don't think I've seen him smile as big as he did when the mailman said the big box was for him. He didn't care what was in the box, just that the mail was for him. I love seeing his genuine excitement.

GTKY: I'm a lover of yoga to relax anytime during the year. But in the summer in Florida, I will take a pool with a cold umbrella drink to relax.

I hope everyone has a great week!

[PiradicalMaid]

Yay for the return of your period, soultrane! I'm sorry you had some hard moments, but glad you had some nice ones too. Reading oceanside sounds heavenly! Thank you for running the check in

Getting started on your IVF sounds exciting, ellebelle!

What a cutie, buttercup! FX for you and unringthebell.

Big ((hugs)) for your upcoming EDD, leahks77. And ((hugs)) for you, unringthebell & fabk on your anniversaries. I'm so sorry you're having a tough time right now, fabk.

That sounds like an awesome weekend, ls2012. Mmm, lemonade and a book does sound awesome....

Thanks for the book recommend, boobacat. I hope you're feeling better soon.

jmc11511, sorry to hear about the tough conversation. I'm glad you had a good weekend. I love when LO sings! See below

Sorry about CD1, theophania. Have you ever looked into a menstrual cup? It holds something like 1/2 an oz, so even if you're having a really heavy day, you just have to change it a little more often, but it'll cover you more than a super tampon. Just throwing it out there as someone who sometimes has super heavy periods!

[PiradicalMaid]

How's everyone doing? Physically?
I am starting to get my energy back, but I am still spotting on CD 11. I would really like to go one day without using a menstrual product please and thank you. Ugh. 

Emotionally?
Usually doing pretty well. I had a follow up OB appointment last week (after the ER trip) and my intake paperwork had the gestational age I should have been printed on it. That was a real punch in the gut. I pointed it out to the nurse and she was very understanding and it was obviously just an oversight, but, ouch. 

On the other hand, I had a playdate with my friend and his wife, who is pregnant. Hanging out with her actually made me realize that I am more emotionally ready to try again than I thought I was. It's been odd, because I don't really feel like I have say over when we start. It's not the C&B wouldn't understand, it's just that they've been ready and I am not 100% sure that I am. It's been strange having the personal experience of a loss while carrying for someone else. It feels like my experience and yet not. IDK, I'm still pulling it apart and figuring it out.

Did you have a nice weekend?
Yes! I ran around with the LO- went to the zoo and the playground and had a playdate. Then a friend of mine was in town so I went out to brunch with a group of my friends and had some folks over for a game night last night. And managed to get some of the work I'm behind on done, ha ha. Overall a good weekend. 

Anything new to share?
We just started inseminations again. I am still figuring out all of my feelings about this, but at least one is excitement

New question this week: What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?
SO made me a karaoke mix that LO and I have been jamming to. She had really been on a kid music kick until now, so I am really enjoying belting out Adele with LO in the car with the windows rolled down!

Bonus GTKY so we can think happy thoughts: What is your favorite way to relax during the summer?
Getting ice cream and eating it while walking around the lake! Also reading and drinking iced tea lemonade. More commonly I'm sitting on a bench while LO runs around a playground, but I quite enjoy that as well.

[PiradicalMaid]

May 19, 2015 15:00:29 GMT -5 theophania said:

PiradicalMaid I did use a diva cup, but I was still having to use super pads as back-up and dump it every hour or so. It was too much to handle at work. It's only the first 3 days, but those days are extremely heavy. If/when we manage to have another baby or when we give up on having one they plan to tie my tubes and do an ablation.

Oh wow, that sounds like such a pain! I'm glad you have a plan for dealing with it going forward. In the meantime, I'm sorry you have to deal with that.

[Ace]

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally?
I'm not doing great today. AF came today so I'm out this month and getting on FB was a bad idea this morning. Plus, today is 2 months since my miscarriage. DH's birthday is on Friday so I'm really trying to deal with my emotions now so that we can have a good night out.

Did you have a nice weekend?
I did! It was low key and we just relaxed. It was nice to sort of hibernate in the house with DH and DS.
Anything new to share?

New question this week: What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?
He is extremely verbal so just having conversations and letting him "read" (they are memorized) his books to me. I love our dance parties and seeing him have a blast at the beach last week was great.

Bonus GTKY so we can think happy thoughts: What is your favorite way to relax during the summer?
Reading beside the pool. I love being near the water.

[soultrane]

I need to put this somewhere. DH said something really thoughtless last night and it kind of put me in a funk. When I took the cytotec last month, I wrote down the time and dosage on the white board in our kitchen so it was easily accessible in case I had any complications. We also use the white board for our ongoing grocery list each week. I haven't erased it yet, just because I've been lazy.

While we were making dinner last night, I asked DH to add something to the list and he jokingly said "So we need milk, eggs, and 800mg of cytotec this week!" as he read it. He really just wan't thinking and apologized immediately once he realized that it upset me, but it stirred up some emotions that I wasn't expecting.

In happier news, DS told me the other night that I was his best friend ever and it completely melted me.

[ellebelle]

Hugs soultrane. Guys just don't get it sometimes. I think they try to be funny so hard that they don't even think how it could hurt. I'm glad he apologized right away.

I love what your DS said to you. My DD has recently been saying "you're the BEST, mommy!". I could listen to her say that all day, lol.

[PiradicalMaid]

I'm sorry YH hurt your feelings, soultrane, and I'm glad he apologized right away.

My LO likes to tell me that she's not going to be my friend (especially if I'm enforcing limits!) so you've got me beat

[soultrane]

Thanks ellebelle and PiradicalMaid. DH really did feel terrible afterward and I was kind of surprised that it hit me like it did.

As for DS, he is a sweetheart but he also has his 2-year-old moments. Last night he told me he didn't like me anymore because I told him no. Ya win some, ya lose some!

[mrsred09]

soultrane sorry your DH made a butthead comment that cause you issues, but glad he realized his comments were hurtful.

I love when DS tells me I'm his best mommy, but then does the same as yours tells me I'm not his fav when I tell him no. 2yr old thought process is so funny sometimes.

[leahks77]

soultrane ugh. I don't understand them sometimes. But I'm so glad he understood so quickly. How they respond says even more than initial dumb comment. Sorry you had a bad moment
I can't wait until DS says more!! I hear all these stories and my heart gets so melty! I do get the best biggest tightest squeezes though, and lots of kisses. So I'm pretty sure he loves me

[eaglewife]

May 24, 2015 20:42:19 GMT -5 unringthebell said:

eaglewife did you have your sis? Or is it coming up this week?

Hey unringthebell thanks for thinking of me. We had it a few days ago and no problems were found. They took a ton of blood for more tests so once those results come in I guess we will know more. Still benched until results come in and who knows if longer. :/