It's late, but WTF Wednesday?!

[soultrane]

Aside from it being a really busy work day it was full of triggers and wtf moments. Allow me to have a moment of word vomit because today pretty much sucked. 

I woke up to find out that I was volunteered for a few things for my step-brother's baby shower this weekend. I've offered to help with specific things along the way as it's being planned, but I thought it was a little presumptuous to just assign stuff to me to do the day of, especially since I have no idea how well I'll handle the actual party.

I wrapped up my work day and got a text from my boss that she wanted to chat, which freaked me out because I thought I was being fired or something. It turns out that she wanted to talk to me when I was out of the office to let me know that she's pregnant, which was actually pretty awesome of her. She's announcing to the rest of the team tomorrow and wanted to make sure that I wasn't blind sided. While I appreciate how thoughtful she was to tell me separately, it stings a little extra hard because she's exactly as far along as I would have been. That gave me a nice little cry just before picking DS up from daycare. I'm happy for her but sad for me. 

Then tonight I took DS to watch H's practice and one of the moms was having fun playing with DS and asked when we were having a second. I know she meant well and she's a really great person, but it just kind of punched me in the stomach. 

So that was my day. WTF Wednesday, indeed. 

[ellebelle]

((hugs)) soultrane Hope you can grab a drink tonight!

[leahks77]

Ugh soultrane, wtf. I'm sorry today sucked. Can you talk to anyone honestly about day of things for the shower? That's so hard! You are already being so strong to offer help along the way. ((Hugs)) to you.

[boobacat]

Sorry soultrane. That's a rough day for sure. (Hugs) and a stiff drink, perhaps?

[soultrane]

Thanks, ladies. After I posted last night, I called it a night, escaped to my sudoku puzzles and went to sleep. Party animal over here! DH has been pretty understanding which helped and I actually wonder if he's lurking here because he brought the shower stuff up after I posted. If so, I'm waving awkwardly at you DH....

leahks77, the thing is everyone involved with planning the shower is aware of my loss. I can't say that I blame them because I have been offering stuff along the way, but I've deliberately only offered to help with things that aren't baby related. I don't know though, maybe it's better if I have something to focus on Saturday so I'm not just sitting there thinking about things. Who knows. This sucks.

[sarcaztic10]

soultrane I am so sorry yesterday was so crappy (((Hugs))). I hope you have a better day today!

[ellebelle]

soultrane I love the image of you awkwardly internet waving to your H! lol

Hope today is MUCH better!

[PiradicalMaid]

Ugh, that is a LOT to deal with. I'm sorry Hope your sudoku helped clear your mind. I love sudoku!!

Have a great day today, soultrane

[txmommy14]

Ugh!!! soultrane, SO sorry! What a crappy day. I hope today has been better...

[boobacat]

Good luck at the shower today. I hope having tasks keeps your mind occupied enough to not feel too much sadness.

Thinking of you.

[soultrane]

Thank you boobacat! We just got home and it wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be, mostly because the birthmom wasn't able to come so I didn't have to face it head on all afternoon. There weren't any baby shower games either, so it was more like a family party that happened to have some baby gifts thrown in. There were also mimosas which helped a ton.

However, I found out last night that SIL is pregnant. She hasn't told us yet so we're a little WTF about it because it feels like she's avoiding us. I kind of get it because it's an uncomfortable place to be, but it also pisses me off that we're being treated with kid gloves like we're incapable of dealing with it. She wasn't really supportive during our loss though so I guess I'm not surprised that she's being weird about this too. I'm trying to remind myself that she just doesn't get it and isn't being weird on purpose, but it still sucks.

[boobacat]

I'm glad it was pretty enjoyable

Sorry about the SIL news. I have to say I appreciate the 'careful' handling of sharing news with me right now but it is odd if the news is out she hasn't told you. Like you said, some people are consistently weird about things.

[ellebelle]

I'm glad yesterday wasn't so bad. Sorry about the SIL though. Some people just don't know how to handle things and it sounds like she's proven to be less than supportive in the past. (hugs)