Feel like I can finally introduce myself...
Jul 29, 2015 18:27:02 GMT -5
Post by luvmyscrabbledeggs on Jul 29, 2015 18:27:02 GMT -5
I've been married to my DH 4 yrs in November, we've been trying about 6 mths before getting married, I knew it would take me a little longer to get pregnant, was told I had PCOS. 4.5 years later, 2 surgeries, countless procedures, 2 different RE's, countless clomid cycles, IUIs with clomid, never a pregnancy, nothing! June 2015 we did our first IUI with gonal-f injections, we had 6 mature eggs and did back to back iui's ,DH had amazing sperm counts post wash both days, but 2 weeks later bam AF shows. I wasn't too eager to jump right into another cycle, but my DH encouraged me to because he just felt like we should just keep the momentum going. I was totally not invested at all in the entire cycle, I dragged my feet to every appointment, I didnt feel at all positive about it working, so I just closed my emotions off to it. We had 2 mature follicles and again did back to back IUIs DH had horrible sperm counts, the worst he has ever had, 3 million post wash at iui#1 and 11 million post wash at iui#2. With his numbers combined with my already lacking enthusiasm, I KNEW we were out, that the cycle was a bust that we just flushed another $1800 down the drain. Beta day came, and I didnt even go to my appointment, I slept in. Didnt care I knew it was going to be negative. My sister encouraged me to POAS, and BAM BFFP! couldnt believe it, I ran out and bought two FRERs BAM AND BAM, I'm pregnant! I was literally in shock, could not believe what I was seeing. I rescheduled my betas and got the call after from my RE that I was infact pregnant, I was so thankful, so graciously thankful. 48 hrs later, I did repeat betas, the numbers didnt double, only went up 40%, went back again 48 hrs later, and they betas rose, almost 80%. Was asked to do a 72 hold then come back and repeat backs, I did and I was so excited for the call to hear how much more the numbers rose, but nothing prepared me for the call I was about to get. My nurse called, and told me the betas dropped all the way down to 28, to stop taking my prometrium, and expect the miscarriage process to start soon.
I've never cried so much and so hard. I've waited 3 days to start bleeding, today it finally started, and I'm just so heartbroken and empty feeling. I wanted so badly for this to be my turn.
Im so sorry this is so long, so felt like I had to write it all out.
I've never cried so much and so hard. I've waited 3 days to start bleeding, today it finally started, and I'm just so heartbroken and empty feeling. I wanted so badly for this to be my turn.
Im so sorry this is so long, so felt like I had to write it all out.
