*Waiting to Do Something* 1/26

[britterrss]

The Waiting to Do Something thread is posted once a week (usually on Mondays) for those of us that experience long, extended cycles. Whether it's medicated cycles, long (45ish+ days) cycles, postpartum/breastfeeding, TTA, on the bench, or something else, this is the place we gather throughout the week to discuss and vent about our slightly unique situation.

Numbers:

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA):

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ:

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors?

[Sparkly]

Numbers: CD3, first PP period, 13 months out

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): still BFing and we are TTA starting in early February

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: DH & I had a good talk last night about TTA. The main reason is my work, and it really bugs us that we have to do that. However, we also agree we're not up for another winter baby, for lots of reasons, so it really is what we want, to try to "plan" things out this way. We are both disappointed we won't be having a baby in 2015 (unless I O super early this cycle, which seems unlikely, but we're NTNP another few weeks), but we know this is for the best. I feel good about our decision and I'm glad we're on the same page.

On a separate note, cramps fucking suck. I'm on day 3 and my flow is almost nothing but my uterus is still raging and lower back killllinnng me. Did. Not. Miss.

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? We like to go for walks/hikes outside as a family. Not as fun in winter, but our road wraps along the water so it's a nice spot to take a short walk, even when it's cold. I love going to the beach in the summer. We do cook outs and lobster bakes on the beach with friends a few times a year.

[LadyNymeria]

Numbers: 9 DPO, but it doesn't really matter yet (see below)

Circumstances: currently TTA, planning to start TTC #1 in September (hopefully earlier)

R/R/CS: nothing I can think of right now

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? I don't hate the outdoors, but I'm not exactly outdoorsy either. I like going on hikes with MH and our dog, but I think my favorite is swimming in the summer. Preferably at a pool, although I'd take the ocean in Aruba any day!!

[britterrss]

Numbers: CD6 and still on period. This will be induced cycle 3, with a loooong cycle after I first got off BCP.

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): Provera x3; see siggy

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: I'm just hoping to O for the first time this month, but I have zero faith that it'll actually happen. I've pretty much excepted that I never will. (Dramatic much?)

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? I LOVE the outdoors... and I posed this question because I am eager to get outside. I love to hike, camp, and kayak. We actually bought some kayaks last year and I can't wait for good weather to use them.



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[aprilz81]

I go back here now.

Numbers: Cycle 2, Month 3, CD74

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): Irregular cycles after going off BCP (off pill since Oct 5) and history of long cycles and months long periods with heavy bleeding.

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: While on vacation I temped but didn't have data on my phone, when I got back FF gave me dotted cross hairs for CD60. I wasn't sure I believed it but I elected to NOT start the progesterone my doctor had called in. Yesterday (our first anniversary no less) after a few days of weird temps FF took away the cross hairs so I will start the progesterone tonight. I did take a test at "12DPO" and it was negative.

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? Does laying on a beach count? lol

[cateyes]

Numbers: cycle 15, day 9

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): super long cycles, last 2 ended with Provera. Finished letrozole and hoping that I O this month!

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: so far chart is pretty, wait time begins!

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors?

I am not a big outdoor person, but I do like the beach and walking on trails

[wanderingheart]

Numbers: CD 30, month 5, cycle 2.

Circumstances: super irregular periods.

R/R/CS: I hate my body. Saturday, FF told me I had a confirm O on Wednesday. My timing wasn't the best, but I was just excited I had my first confirmed O in 5 months. Sunday morning, FF removed it and told me I didn't O after all. I cried and DH took me out to try to cheer me up. I'm just so frustrated, because my OB wants to see me now, and I know she's gonna push Clomid on me because she's tried before...but that's obviously not gonna happen. I just want to ovulate, body, come on!

GTKY: I'm not the biggest outdoor gal, but I do like walking trails with my DH and all things water related.

[wanderingheart]

Jan 26, 2015 11:29:53 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Numbers: cycle 15, day 9

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): super long cycles, last 2 ended with Provera. Finished letrozole and hoping that I O this month!

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: so far chart is pretty, wait time begins!

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors?

I am not a big outdoor person, but I do like the beach and walking on trails

Are we the same person?! Our GTKY was kinda creepy.

ETA: words.

[physiomeg]

Numbers: CD17 month 8

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): long cycles

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: another cycle with lots of random spotting for me, so far. I go see my PCP next Monday to recheck my thyroid levels, and part of me hopes they are still off since I don't feel much different and I was really hoping fixing my thyroid might help my cycles to regulate. Also, I was supposed to lose some weight and, surprise, I haven't. Not looking forward to the scolding.

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? I love hiking, but at a leisurely pace. I've hiked two 14ers (mountains over 14k ft in altitude) out here, but I don't know that I can say I actually enjoyed it.

I also like skiing but don't like to spend the huge amounts of money on going regularly. When I lived in NY I loved being out on the lake as much as possible (jet ski, tubing, general boating) but here in Colorado there's really no bodies of water to be found.

[cateyes]

Jan 26, 2015 11:33:33 GMT -5 wanderingheart said:

Jan 26, 2015 11:29:53 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Numbers: cycle 15, day 9

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): super long cycles, last 2 ended with Provera. Finished letrozole and hoping that I O this month!

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: so far chart is pretty, wait time begins!

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors?

I am not a big outdoor person, but I do like the beach and walking on trails

Are we the same person?! Our GTKY was kinda creepy.

ETA: words.

That is too funny! Great minds think/are alike!!

[lazyreader]

#s: 10m pp. no period yet.
Circumstances: Breastfeeding 2x a day. No more pump! I figure I'll know if it made a difference in 3-5 more weeks. Also will be TTA until May. But seeing how I have no cycle. It's nbd.
R/R/NFNS: my boobs are sad deflated mushy lumps. But the good(?) news is I fit into my pre-pregnancy bras. I just need to make the band size smaller. Welcome back 32Ds. I'm also a little worried about my supply since this was quite the drop. But I'm trying not to worry about it until it's really a problem.
Outdoors: I forgot the question. I like the outdoors a lot. Mostly I just like being outdoors, sports, bbq, beach, hiking, walks, running. Gimme more.

[nuggetrn]

Numbers: CD34

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): TTA until September I think, that is the month we are saying but it is kind of up in the air.

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: So, I feel like an idiot... I bought a BBT in December to start temping so I could get the hang of it and right after Christmas my dog ended up chewing it up. I had to order a new one and it didn't come in until the second week of January. I went ahead and started temping orally but realized that my temps were way low and kind of erratic, so I temped vaginally for a few days and then realized that I was giving FF some seriously screwed up temps. I decided that I didn't want to confuse the data and I would just wait out my period so I could start temping vaginally again. So now it is CD34 and no period. I have no idea when or if I ovulated so I have no idea what my body is doing. Super annoying. We were being a little lax with our protection this month, which just makes me feel stupid all over again. It wouldn't be the end of the world but it kind of makes me feel like a jerk honestly. I took a test on Saturday morning because I was going out that night and was going to be doing a lot of drinking, it was negative so there's that. I would just like my period to come so I can start over.

Sorry for this long rant!

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? I love the outdoors! DH and I go mountain biking together... he has had his bike for a few years and before that did BMX stuff so he is very comfortable on it. I am a novice and just got my bike this past summer but it is a lot of fun. We also enjoy camping, canoeing, hiking. Anything really, we like being outside!

[LadyNymeria]

(hugs) britterrss cateyes wanderingheart - Good luck this cycle. FX you both O on your own!

physiomeg - Hopefully your dr refrains from scolding! That doesn't sound like a helpful approach on their part!

mistabinx - Sorry to hear your still dealing with spotting/bleeding. Glad to hear you're feeling better at least. Hopefully CD1 shows soon so you can get things moving again.

nuggetrn - I didn't realize we had the same start date planned. We're planning for September too as of right now. Really I'm hoping to move it up to at least August but preferably July since I seem to be ovulating at the end of the month. My brother is getting married early July so I just want to get past their wedding then start trying.

(hugs) to anyone else I may have missed.

[physiomeg]

Jan 26, 2015 12:13:35 GMT -5 LadyNymeria said:

(hugs) britterrss cateyes wanderingheart - Good luck this cycle. FX you both O on your own!

physiomeg - Hopefully your dr refrains from scolding! That doesn't sound like a helpful approach on their part!

mistabinx - Sorry to hear your still dealing with spotting/bleeding. Glad to hear you're feeling better at least. Hopefully CD1 shows soon so you can get things moving again.

nuggetrn - I didn't realize we had the same start date planned. We're planning for September too as of right now. Really I'm hoping to move it up to at least August but preferably July since I seem to be ovulating at the end of the month. My brother is getting married early July so I just want to get past their wedding then start trying.

(hugs) to anyone else I may have missed.

I hope there's no scolding too LadyNymeria, but I don't have a good feeling. He initially wanted me to come once a month (and pay the copay and office visit price, of course) just to weigh in so that I could be held accountable. I declined, so we'll see what he has to say about that. I know I need to get healthy, and I'm happy that is a focus of his, but I have a tremendous amount of shame attached to weight. 

[nuggetrn]

((hugs)) physiomeg Hopefully your doc isn't too hard on you. I completely understand on the whole weight front... I need to schedule annuals at both my OBGYN and PCP and I keep putting it off. I know OBGYN is going to raise her eyebrows at how much weight I have gained in the last year and it really makes me dread going in.

LadyNymeria Yep, I had noticed that a little while ago I think but hadn't said anything. We are getting ready to start remodeling our kitchen so we really want to get that done before TTC. And then we want time to rebuild our savings. We also want to take another trip before we start. Just to Tennessee but it looks like September will be the best time for us to go considering schedules and finances. I am not hanging too much on this factor, but I work for a teacher and so if we happen to get pregnant in September that would make the due date pretty nice for summer break.

[inwinethereistruth]

Numbers: CD 20/ DPO 10

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): TTA for >insert time frame here<

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: Soooooo on CD 5 my H and I had unprotected sex, and on CD 10 (O day, according to FF) we went a bit too far before the condom went on, so there is a minute chance of this month. I actually dont want a baby yet, but if it happened we would be ok with it. I dont think I am KU by any means, but its a possibility. We have decided to stop using condoms past confirmed O date and use OPKs in the future to help doubly confirm. I bought my first wondfos and will start using once they get here.

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? Hiking with my dog

[LadyNymeria]

Jan 26, 2015 12:18:30 GMT -5 physiomeg said:

Jan 26, 2015 12:13:35 GMT -5 LadyNymeria said:

(hugs) britterrss cateyes wanderingheart - Good luck this cycle. FX you both O on your own!

physiomeg - Hopefully your dr refrains from scolding! That doesn't sound like a helpful approach on their part!

mistabinx - Sorry to hear your still dealing with spotting/bleeding. Glad to hear you're feeling better at least. Hopefully CD1 shows soon so you can get things moving again.

nuggetrn - I didn't realize we had the same start date planned. We're planning for September too as of right now. Really I'm hoping to move it up to at least August but preferably July since I seem to be ovulating at the end of the month. My brother is getting married early July so I just want to get past their wedding then start trying.

(hugs) to anyone else I may have missed.

I hope there's no scolding too LadyNymeria, but I don't have a good feeling. He initially wanted me to come once a month (and pay the copay and office visit price, of course) just to weigh in so that I could be held accountable. I declined, so we'll see what he has to say about that. I know I need to get healthy, and I'm happy that is a focus of his, but I have a tremendous amount of shame attached to weight. 

Weight is a tough topic for so many people - I would think/hope a doctor would realize this and approach it more caring than scolding. If you were into the accountability idea at all, would he be satisfied with a phone call? That would get expensive for monthly in-office check-ins!


Good luck at your appointment. I hope it goes better than you're expecting.

[LadyNymeria]

Jan 26, 2015 12:26:53 GMT -5 nuggetrn said:

((hugs)) physiomeg Hopefully your doc isn't too hard on you. I completely understand on the whole weight front... I need to schedule annuals at both my OBGYN and PCP and I keep putting it off. I know OBGYN is going to raise her eyebrows at how much weight I have gained in the last year and it really makes me dread going in.

LadyNymeria Yep, I had noticed that a little while ago I think but hadn't said anything. We are getting ready to start remodeling our kitchen so we really want to get that done before TTC. And then we want time to rebuild our savings. We also want to take another trip before we start. Just to Tennessee but it looks like September will be the best time for us to go considering schedules and finances. I am not hanging to much on this factor, but I work for a teacher and so if we happen to get pregnant in September that would make the due date pretty nice for summer break.

We're planning "one last trip" too! We went to St. Lucia for our honeymoon and always said we wanted to get back there before we had kids/started trying, so we're headed back in September. It's currently planned as our "kick-off to TTC", but I'd love to NTNP for July and August then start actively trying in September. Good luck with the kitchen reno - that's on our to-do list as well.

[Rama]

Numbers: CD73, cycle 4, month 9
Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): I don't ovulate
Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: I'm upset, frustrated, upset s'more, and more frustrated. I feel like a failure, despite that not making any sense. I don't want to go to a RE before I've been given a chance, I don't want to get told that there is no way my body will naturally do what it's supposed to. I don't want help, I want my body to work like a normal body. I've been getting more and more worked up about it lately and I think it's starting to effect my state of mind/quality of life. I should just start throwing feelers out there for REs, but I'm not really mentally ready for that step. Basically, I'm in full-on tantrum mode and the only thing I want is to bleed every 25-45 days, damnit.
GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? My favorite recreational activity is chillin' on the couch and watching TV/videos all day, haha. I don't hate the outdoors, but it doesn't inherently fascinate me; I'd need a specific activity or goal (not hiking, I dislike hiking) to make an effort to go do the nature thing. I think the most "outdoors" I normally get these days is opening the windows on a good day and reading by it.

[Ray]

Numbers: 5th cycle, 4th really charting, 1st TTA

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): TTA until probably at least September unless circumstances change.

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: I already posted about this in WTO (I forgot Monday's was this thread lol)FF is drunk and game me CH I don't believe. I have a feeling that this cycle is going to be on the longer end similar to when I went off of BCP last time. egh.

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? I lurve me some outdoor time. My family is big into hunting and fishing. I play baseball and ski. I have awesome trails to run on nearby with the dogs. Being inside sucks unless its -34C like it is today.

lol nuggetrn LadyNymeria - TTA triplets? cue twilight zone music....

[kellybenelly83]

Numbers: Cd26

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): waiting to O. First TTC cycle post loss

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: wtaf body? So last week I thought I might have ovulated the 17th but no post O symptoms like I normally have. This week I started seeing ewcm so I picked up a few opks and so far no positive. I just want to get this going already!!

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors?<br/> I love jogging, walking in the woods with my dogs

[wanderingheart]

Jan 26, 2015 13:56:07 GMT -5 Rama said:

Numbers: CD73, cycle 4, month 9
Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): I don't ovulate
Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: I'm upset, frustrated, upset s'more, and more frustrated. I feel like a failure, despite that not making any sense. I don't want to go to a RE before I've been given a chance, I don't want to get told that there is no way my body will naturally do what it's supposed to. I don't want help, I want my body to work like a normal body. I've been getting more and more worked up about it lately and I think it's starting to effect my state of mind/quality of life. I should just start throwing feelers out there for REs, but I'm not really mentally ready for that step. Basically, I'm in full-on tantrum mode and the only thing I want is to bleed every 25-45 days, damnit.
GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? My favorite recreational activity is chillin' on the couch and watching TV/videos all day, haha. I don't hate the outdoors, but it doesn't inherently fascinate me; I'd need a specific activity or goal (not hiking, I dislike hiking) to make an effort to go do the nature thing. I think the most "outdoors" I normally get these days is opening the windows on a good day and reading by it.

So sorry. I understand being pissed at your body for not doing what it's supposed to do. Creepy Internet hugs sent to you!

[kh59]

Numbers: 10 months NTNP, no PPAF at 19 months

Circumstances (PP/BF, Meds, TTA): BF 2-3 times a day

Rants/Raves/NFNSQ: FF's probably drunk, but it alleges that I'm 3 DPO. I don't really believe it because I slept in two hours on Sunday, which tends to make my temps quite a bit higher than usual. It was a nice gesture, though, FF, so thanks for that. I'll believe you when I bleed. (Okay, so part of me already believes you and has my hopes up. Damn it.)

GTKY: What's your favorite recreational activity or activities? Or do you hate the outdoors? Everything! I love to be outside. Hiking and swimming are probably my two favorites if I have to (almost) pick.

[britterrss]

Rama I know those feels. Big hugs. I think I'm one month behind you, and I agree I reeeeeally don't want to see an RE. And I reeeeeally DO NOT WANT CLOMID.




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[Rama]

Jan 26, 2015 14:37:49 GMT -5 britterrss said:

Rama I know those feels. Big hugs. I think I'm one month behind you, and I agree I reeeeeally don't want to see an RE. And I reeeeeally DO NOT WANT CLOMID. :(

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The looming threat of Clomid scares the crap out of me.

[britterrss]

Jan 26, 2015 14:41:57 GMT -5 Rama said:

Jan 26, 2015 14:37:49 GMT -5 britterrss said:

Rama I know those feels. Big hugs. I think I'm one month behind you, and I agree I reeeeeally don't want to see an RE. And I reeeeeally DO NOT WANT CLOMID.

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The looming threat of Clomid scares the crap out of me.

I so do not want to do any of that, that I have considered just not having kids if it comes to that... which makes me really sad.

[Rama]

Jan 26, 2015 14:43:49 GMT -5 britterrss said:

Jan 26, 2015 14:41:57 GMT -5 Rama said:

The looming threat of Clomid scares the crap out of me.

I so do not want to do any of that, that I have considered just not having kids if it comes to that... which makes me really sad.

I...really, really, really want kids.  I could never actually give up, but...I also really, really, really don't want an intervention.  Dilemma.

[wanderingheart]

Jan 26, 2015 15:02:08 GMT -5 Rama said:

Jan 26, 2015 14:43:49 GMT -5 britterrss said:

I so do not want to do any of that, that I have considered just not having kids if it comes to that... which makes me really sad.

I...really, really, really want kids.  I could never actually give up, but...I also really, really, really don't want an intervention.  Dilemma.

+1. I got so desperate yesterday I turned to the Google (I know, I am ashamed) to search alternatives to Clomid. Then I saw sites saying Clomid was a "minor" drug with "minimal" side effects. Now I'm just depressed again.

[Rama]

Jan 26, 2015 15:05:47 GMT -5 wanderingheart said:

Jan 26, 2015 15:02:08 GMT -5 Rama said:

I...really, really, really want kids.  I could never actually give up, but...I also really, really, really don't want an intervention.  Dilemma.

+1. I got so desperate yesterday I turned to the Google (I know, I am ashamed) to search alternatives to Clomid. Then I saw sites saying Clomid was a "minor" drug with "minimal" side effects. Now I'm just depressed again.

Those websites are high. Anything that can cause me to be in excruciating pain and/or render me completely infertile is NOT a minor drug.

[britterrss]

Rama - just peeked at your chart - so did you take the Provera?