I totally feel like a traitor right now.

[jwinct]

I have been slowly getting pangs here and there of wanting to be pregnant again. Then DH made a comment the other night that made think that he wants to have another baby, so I talked to him about it last night and I think we're going to start TTC. He's nervous about the risks that come with advanced maternal age. I'm 39 years old and I know there are increased risks, but I also know plenty of women who have been pregnant at our age without any health issues.  I also know that conceiving may be more difficult now that I'm older.

We're still going forward with getting licensed through DCF, but may not open our home up right away. If we have T-TTC, then we will open our home.

I feel so guilty because we were so excited and involved in the whole DCF process. But, at the same time, we're seeing first hand how poorly run everything is and can't imagine how things would go moving forward. We really want to add to our family and at this point, we're willing to make a change in our plan and see what happens.

I will still be checking in to see how everyone is doing and to cheer you all on, but I will likely be spending time on the TTC<35 board, also. It feels traitorous!

[drl]

You have to do what works for your family. I wish you luck and peace moving forward. I hope you at least lurk here!

[wesleycrusher]

Yes do what works for your family! I am glad that you and your DH were on the same page re: TTC. Good luck!

[ceejay]

Best of luck TTC! As others have said, it's important to do what is best for your family.

[nobb14]

Good luck to you! FX for an easy TTC journey.

[pinkie]

You are not a traitor! You have been through a crazy wait for a license and I don't blame you at all for reassessing your options for how to build your family. Please stay around

[Rogue]

Good luck moving forward! That's super exciting! Remember that if you ever have any health concerns, that you can talk to your doctor. Don't rely on Dr. Google he can freak you out.

[twocents6708]

Same as what everyone else has said. Do what is best for your family. We are in a similar boat as we are TTC and also pursuing a respite foster license at the same time. Best of luck to you!

[jwinct]

Thank you so much, everyone. I will definitely still be around, checking in on everyone regularly.

[shemarie82]

As PPs have said, I don't believe that there is a single reason for you to feel bad. When we started this process, we were also TTC, it just so happens that this came through first. If this placement doesn't work, then we may jump back to that path. For us, we weren't adopting because we can't have kids naturally, we were doing it with the potential that it would be in addition to.

I don't think that there is a wrong way to make your family complete, do what is best for you!

[chele]

No worries! Good luck!

[hootiemommytobe]

You definitely have to do what is right for your family. We'd love to still have you around here, so please check in!! Good luck TTC!! Many best wishes!!!