Weekly Check-In 1/27

[thedish]

I'm a day early with this, but I'm going to be MIA tomorrow! I also am going to continue posting a GTKY (Getting To Know You) that will be completely unrelated to MW every week.

It goes without saying - BUT - you can share as much or as little as you would like. I don't want anyone to read the questions and feel like they can't participate because they don't want to answer something. Just skip it


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How is your week going?

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?

Any changes in medications or recent appointments?

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team?

Do you have any suggestions on future questions that you'd like to see in these check-ins?

[thedish]

How is your week going? So far, rough. Since our last check-in my anxiety has sky rocketed. Everyone keeps asking me when I'm going to have the baby. Guess what, I don't have any better idea than you... Since my anxiety is worse, I'm having more panic attacks too. They're harder to control. Now the anxiety is starting to take a back seat and depression is taking over. It's a roller coaster right now, to say the least. I am trying my best to stay distracted from the baby situation and that also helps keep my mind off of all the anxiety/depression as well.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? See above.

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? Nothing new to report. I did have a regular prenatal appointment yesterday and discussed my anxiety with her. It felt good to talk to an outsider about it, but she didn't have many ideas on how to help the situation other than to just try to let it roll over me and not take in the comments from people.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? I live in Wisconsin, so I'm a Green Bay Packers girl. 100%. Also, H and I like to watch European soccer, and our favorite team is Liverpool Football Club. They aren't having a great season, but we've had so many injuries! It's difficult to watch sometimes!

[snarkysparklefart]

My love tits are usually a hug! thedish we just watched Guardians of the Galaxy last night for the first time and your SIGGY has me LOLing this morning!!

1) pretty rough so far here too. I'm also struggling with anxiety. I've had a bad tooth infection off and on throughout the pregnancy and I have learned that I will have to deal with it until baby is born, because I'll need to be out under anesthesia for the teeth affected to be removed. I had an horrific panic attack Saturday, brought on by the pain, and my medication didn't even put a dent in it- my OB has prescribed pain medication to help me get through the pain, and I'm overwhelmed about it, because of the risks of withdrawal for the baby. I have dental anxiety and it is just a bit too much for me to handle right now, but I'm trying to take it moment by moment. Fortunately my H is off today and will be here most of Wed, and my mom will be here Thursday, so I'll have some support.

2) for struggles, see above. For an accomplishment, I've finally tackled a few things on my to do list, and I'm feeling a bit better about the baby coming now. I was overthinking everything about not having enough clothing, not having xyz items here yet, etc, and getting a bit organized has helped.

3) nothing new for mental health related appointments. I have a PP checkup scheduled for 4/13 but if my anxiety continues to be problematic, I may schedule something sooner.

4) I LOVE football. I'm a diehard Gators & Broncos fan- even though I'm not from either place!

Future checkin suggestions: maybe a scale of 1-10 how are you overall? I really like doing the checkin, it's made me stop to think about myself and where I'm at this week, which is a big thing for me.

[olivegoose]

How is your week going? Well, pretty shitty. My POS car broke down yesterday and I just really don't have it in me to keep fixing it. We have poured so much money into that car. But not fixing means I don't have a car, I SAH and DH works a LOT. It also means pulling DD from preschool. All of this is overwhelming and anxiety inducing.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I'm getting better at making notes about things I need to get done and actually reviewing them. I'm so super forgetful.

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I have an appointment next week. I want to go off of Strattera and try a stimulant for ADHD. They're supposed to give greater results.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? SEAHAWKS!! I'm from Washington state, so always and forever a 12th man!

Do you have any suggestions on future questions that you'd like to see in these check-ins? Maybe a place to put what your issues/diagnosis is. I have a hard time remembering what everyone is struggling with, especially since tapatalk doesn't show signatures.

[Deleted]

How is your week going? Mixed. Overall I'm in good spirits. But last night was not great. When I picked up DS from daycare they let me know stomach flu is going around. Of course I spent all night worrying DS would get sick (i.e., sleeping like crap). It's really anxiety-inducing for me because it means sleepless nights, feeling helpless, missing work - just overwhelming! So far he's not sick though and working is helping to take my mind off it.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? Hmm. Not really today, other than above.

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I need to call my OB to see about taking my BCP straight through without the non-hormone pills week. My depression seems largely tied to my hormones, and the BCPs have been helping, but I still get down during that non-hormone week. I also still need to find an individual therapist. It's so hard to find the time!

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? SF Giants, SJ Earthquakes and Sac Republic (soccer).

[helloamanda]

How is your week going? Not too bad. Very busy at work, but that comes and goes in spurts. Trying really hard to diet, and I get cranky sometimes. Saturday I woke up in a horrid, horrid mood! I went to work, and on my way home I swear everyone was tailgating me just to make me mad. My mom called and I was so bitchy that she told DH to take the dog and get out of the house before I killed them! lol I laid down and took an Ativan. I felt better afterwards, but I don't know what was going on!

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I wasn't able to see my therapist last week and I got a BFN on our first IUI. I took it really hard and was in a depressive state for the weekend, but I got better. I'm glad to go back and see her this week. I also bought a journal where I'm writing about being grateful. Finding forums online has helped a lot too!

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? No changes recently. Going to see my psych next Thursday, which means it's been 3 more months since I've been doing fertility treatments. Hrmph.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? I'm not from Wisconsin (I actually live in the Chicago area) but I'm with thedish! I'm a huge Green Bay Packers fan!! I take a lot of shit for it, but I wouldn't have it any other way! Green & Gold!

[gahorseygal]

How is your week going? This has been a good week so far. I think it helps that LO is sleeping better, so I'm sleeping better.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I have been really positive the past few days and really enjoying every moment.

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? Nope

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? I'm a horse person. I follow plenty of Equestrians.

[venyia]

How is your week going?

I don't even know anymore. I keep thinking that I am getting over my cold, and that my daughter is getting back to a good sleep pattern, but neither is true and I am a bit overwhelmed by being the 85% parent while being sick. On the upside, I finally let some of the cracks show and had an ugly cry a few nights ago at my bf, and oddly enough to me, even though I was complaining about him to him, it loosened the horrible knots of anxiety. He pit some names to my feelings and told me it was safe to talk to him. So, it still is not easy, but the pressure is less for the moment.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?

I am currently attending an online course of study, and I am supposed to be progressing weekly, but it just is not happening and I am starting to feel the panic setting in. I only have a few weeks left this term!

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? Nothing yet....

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team?

I am a casual baseball fan, love me some Mariners! I am cracking up at all my rabid 12th man friends and fam, those silly Sea Chickens.... I will admit, they play a good show.

[lulu]

How is your week going?
Up and down - after a rocky start once DH arrived home, we are getting on good again....just in time for him to leave all over again. Sigh. DD is being a brat and seems to have acquired membership to some "mean girl gang" at school. To top it all off, I go back to work in 2 weeks, after thinking I was getting to be a SAHM. Now I have massive guilt that I haven't made the most of my time at home with DS and I just want to cry every time we play together because our time is so limited.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
Accomplishments - have started to stand up for myself a bit more and not just "give in" for an easy life. Am also working out a plan for how best to tackle DD and her poor choice of friends. It's amazing where we find that strength from!!!

Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
Have an apt to see my therapist on Friday - for the first time in months so really looking forward to that.
Recently changed my meds and they really seem to be helping, so that's all good too.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team?
Like soccer and formula one racing. Used to regular go to watch my soccer team before I had the kids - but planning to go back once they are a bit bigger....well waiting on DS getting older really, as DD has no interest whatsoever bless her.

[Deleted]

Sorry, I'm a day late on my response.

How is your week going? AF showed up with a vegeneance. I was extremely upset yesterday morning but DH was very supportive and today is a new day.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I'm having trouble staying organized. I told my boss I was overwhelmed and two days later she handed me a new case to add to my current caseload of 40. Yay for her.

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? My psych is debating switching me off of Lithium. I'm a little nervous.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? Not consistently.

Do you have any suggestions on future questions that you'd like to see in these check-ins? Not at the moment.

[cruelsound]

How is your week going? Good! I feel way better than I did even a week ago.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? I've started cooking again and have been able to push through my "need" to nap. I used to come home from work and just fall asleep, not because I was really tired but because of my depression. I've done the grocery shopping this week and my husband and I have gone through all of our food and gotten rid of the things my oldest can't eat, because of his ADHD (we are cutting out processed foods and additives.) I've actually lost some weight this week which is pretty awesome.

My psychologist told me to stop pumping with the Celexa, which I was pretty upset about. But, whatever, I need to do it for me. I was in so much pain (I've weaned before and it was NEVER this bad) by Monday I called my OB, who told me they are totally fine with women taking it while pregnant and BFing. So here I am, trying to up my supply and knowing it's probably done for, so that's hard to deal with.
 
Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I went on Celexa last week and I've been SO nauseous since. I actually had to take some sick time off of work.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? No, not really. I love watching soccer and football, though.

[cruelsound]

Jan 27, 2015 16:18:58 GMT -5 olivegoose said:

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I have an appointment next week. I want to go off of Strattera and try a stimulant for ADHD. They're supposed to give greater results.

J is on a stimulant and it has helped him SO much. He can focus and finish tasks and he's definitely not so exhausted all of the time.

[olivegoose]

Jan 28, 2015 13:20:35 GMT -5 cruelsound said:

My psychologist told me to stop pumping with the Celexa, which I was pretty upset about. But, whatever, I need to do it for me. I was in so much pain (I've weaned before and it was NEVER this bad) by Monday I called my OB, who told me they are totally fine with women taking it while pregnant and BFing. So here I am, trying to up my supply and knowing it's probably done for, so that's hard to deal with.
 

Oh man, how did I miss this before? I took Celexa while I was nursing L. I'm sorry they gave you bad information.

[mrsb1008]

I'm doing pretty good this week. Had a few anxiety flair ups when I felt nauseous this week but over all pretty good. Luckily they didn't turn into horrible panic attacks. I have had some anxiety related to finances but I feel like that is typical for FTMs.

My one accomplishment is a boss from the department I've been wanting to move to approached me today that she finally got the ok to hire another person in her department that isn't a contract. She wanted to know if I wanted to apply for it once it's posted. I said absolutely yes! I've been waiting for over a year for this. So fingers crossed all goes well. I really want this position.

No appts or med changes. But I have my first appt with my OBs office in Monday. So hoping it goes well.

GTYK : I'm big on football and follow the Bills ( yup ). I am also big into fantasy football since I can't always rely on the Bills to bring in a win!

[triplea598]

How is your week going?
Hard. We found out the cataract in DS' left eye has grown to be too large...to where he basically can't see out of it, so his ophthalmologist scheduled surgery for the 11th. Then DS had his eval with EI on Tuesday, and they told me he was more behind developmentally than I initially thought (16 months old: not walking, no words, speech is equivalent to a 9 month old's speech, etc). I'm worrying he might be showing signs of autism. It's hard to not feel as though I'm failing my child.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
I really can't think of any accomplishments other than I've managed to get out of bed and try to take care of DS?

Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
No changes. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in the morning though. Just the typical 3 month appointment.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? No, I don't. MH follows football and my parents and little sister follow basketball. If they have a game on, I may glance over from time to time.

Do you have any suggestions on future questions that you'd like to see in these check-ins?
Not at the moment...I feel like my brain is fried, but if I think of anything I'll come back.

[lulu]

Jan 29, 2015 1:55:09 GMT -5 triplea598 said:

How is your week going?
Hard. We found out the cataract in DS' left eye has grown to be too large...to where he basically can't see out of it, so his ophthalmologist scheduled surgery for the 11th. Then DS had his eval with EI on Tuesday, and they told me he was more behind developmentally than I initially thought (16 months old: not walking, no words, speech is equivalent to a 9 month old's speech, etc). I'm worrying he might be showing signs of autism. It's hard to not feel as though I'm failing my child.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
I really can't think of any accomplishments other than I've managed to get out of bed and try to take care of DS?

Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
No changes. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in the morning though. Just the typical 3 month appointment.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? No, I don't. MH follows football and my parents and little sister follow basketball. If they have a game on, I may glance over from time to time.

Do you have any suggestions on future questions that you'd like to see in these check-ins?
Not at the moment...I feel like my brain is fried, but if I think of anything I'll come back.

Hugs triplea598. That is ALOT to be dealing with and must be a massive worry.

Please don't ever feel like you are failing as a mum - your child loves you so much, unconditionally so (which is the most miraculous and amazing part of being a mum, esp when you are probably really hard on yourself!) You are their world!!

Oh and PS....getting out of bed and taking care of our children is THE biggest accomplishment of them all because that is hard work!!!!

I'll be thinking about you and your boy on the 11th - good luck x

[2kiddos]

How is your week going?
It's going pretty good this week. I was doing some of our financial budget and that just made me depressed so I had to take a break! This will be a rough month of February on that note.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
I still struggle with sleeping, but last night slept all night!

Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
I think my dr is finished upping my dose on the new med I've been taking for 2 1/2 weeks. So I feel great now.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team?
Not really a sport fan.

[runnergirl812]

How is your week going?
It's going okay. I'm still struggling with focus, but BREATHING is helping my anxiety. I also have started planning for a mid-winter trip. BF and I are going to a resort in Costa Rica for 5 days in February. I cannot WAIT!!!

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
See above. Getting my work done... oh look, SQUIRREL!!

Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
I went up in synthroid after some recent labs showed my levels were too low again. I had my first therapist appt yesterday. I now have a referral to a psychiatrist. Yay!

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? I'm a diehard Carolina Panthers fan. #KEEPPOUNDING And even though they beat us, I'll be pulling for Seattle in the SupaBowl!

Do you have any suggestions on future questions that you'd like to see in these check-ins? Not right now.

[flcl]

Hi all... I apologize for being late to the party.

thedish: Hang in there. I hate how people see pregnancy as the red light to say anything and everything that pops into their heads. Besides, most of us don't get to decide when baby is coming out. If you have a therapist, it might not be a bad idea to connect on your feelings. And take deep breaths... it's not your fault people say stupid things. Hang in there.

snarkysparklefart: Great suggestion and congrats on your accomplishment. Hopefully the tooth stops giving you so much trouble.

@olivegoose: Sorry to hear about your car, especially in this weather. Have you figured out what you're going to do? Hope your team does awesome Sunday!

helloamanda: sending you lots of positive vibes for a BFP next time around

gahorseygal: glad you're having a good week!

venyia: it sounds like you had a great talk with your bf... hope that helps things between you two. I also hope you're feeling better soon and GL with your class!

lulu: I know what you mean... at times, guilt feels like it's my only emotion. I hope you do get to enjoy the time you have left on maternity leave. Best of luck with returning to work!

@wallflwrinbloom: I'm glad to hear your H is so supportive of you... sorry that your boss isn't the same

cruelsound: Yay for feeling better and for you sticking up for what you need

mrsb1008: awesome news about work, hope you get that position. GL with your fist OB app too

triplea598: wow, fingers crossed everything goes ok with DS. Btw, getting out of bed and taking care of DS is no small feat. Kudos to you and keep us posted.

2kiddos: happy to hear that you're having a good week

runnergirl812: so jealous about your trip! H and I loved Costa Rica... I miss traveling


How is your week going? It's been so crazy at work that I have no time, energy or patience left by the time H gets home. I use the little energy I have left on DS so by the time we put him down for the night, I just want to be left alone.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share? Accomplishment: Getting up for work and getting my shit done. Struggles: Saying no to people at work... I hate doing it. I always feel like I have to please everyone and I hate letting people down. I also feel like everyone either hates me or are just annoyed with me... I also feel so guilty that I'm so tired and that I can't be supermom to DS and just enjoy the little time I have with him during the week. The ILs are coming for a visit this weekend and that is giving me major anxiety. They are BSC.

Any changes in medications or recent appointments? I just cancelled my appointment with my therapist which probably isn't a great idea. The week at work has been so hectic that I need time to just be on the weekend.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team? I watch football with my H but I'm not a fan of any team really. I loved cheering for Germany during the last few World Cups though

Do you have any suggestions on future questions that you'd like to see in these check-ins? No... at least none that weren't already mentioned

[emmaswan]

How is your week going?
Not gonna lie, it's been rough. I've been away from GBCB because work was busy. I also started working really hard on improving my diet and exercise routine without realizing just how much I'd been relying on binge eating as an emotional crutch. It's been surprisingly easy to eat healthy but now I have to cope with the fallout of dealing with some stuff I haven't really dealt with instead of shoving it down.

Any struggles or accomplishments that you would like to share?
Related to the above -- yesterday I had a bunch of triggers related to the separation/divorce and had a full on panic attack right as I was trying to fall asleep. The first one in two years. It was disappointing, but I know it's something I have to work through to come out the other side healthy. I finally fell asleep around 2:30 AM and was woken up at 3:30 AM by someone pounding on my door. I thought maybe I had been dreaming, but then I heard another banging and the sound of a helicopter overhead. So I immediately freaked the fuck out and thought someone was trying to break down my door to get away from the cops. Long story short, all was fine -- I called 911, the banging on my door was a police officer looking for someone whose car had been broken into in the parking lot, he was at the wrong apartment. Didn't fall back asleep until almost 5:30 trying to come down from the adrenaline, then up a couple hours later for work and to take DD to school. I am so tired.


Any changes in medications or recent appointments?
I have an appointment with my counselor next Wednesday. Looking forward to that.

GTKY: Do you follow any sports? Do you have a favorite team?
I'm by no means a rabid sports fan, but I do love me some Red Sox.