So Freaking Distracted...How to Make it Stop?!
Jan 27, 2015 12:42:07 GMT -5
Post by holdingouthope on Jan 27, 2015 12:42:07 GMT -5
***Warning: pg/LC mentioned (not mine)***
Hi loves. I don't know what I'm asking for here...I think I just need to vent (maybe I should be blogging instead...oh well), so don't feel that you must respond.
With my latest EDD coming up on Friday, I am finding that I am distracted beyond comprehension! I guess I have a lot of other things piled on, but I've just been filled with this overwhelming sense of DREAD about January 30th. It's also the day that I officially close on the sale of the last property I owned with my ex-H (though I'm signing paperwork today)...a great thing to be cutting that last tie, but also emotional. It's the EDD that I shared with one of my best friends, who recently gave birth and asked me to be Godmother. Not to mention the fact that I feel like a lousy Godmother because I still haven't seen her or the baby, because I've been waiting to get myself out of panic attack mode so I can put my best self forward when I do see her.
Add to all of that, I probably made a big mistake seeing American Sniper on Sunday - fantastic movie, but it left me feeling so emotionally overwhelmed...
And that I am in my FW and trying to keep all that business going as well. (Let's not even get into *that* MF right now.)
I know that I am a perfectionist, which isn't healthy, but I realized this morning that I am SO distracted that I am making lots of little mistakes at work! I am trying to remind myself that I am going through a great deal, and to be gentle with myself...but I can't keep myself from feeling like a failure. Like I have all these little balls in the air, and I'm dropping them all. Even though I'm in the middle of a Bikram yoga challenge, I'm having a hard time finding my center.
Anyway. I don't know if I'm looking for advice, or just trying to get it off my chest... If you made it this far, thanks for listening. And your prize:
PS: not posting on main board because depressing
Hi loves. I don't know what I'm asking for here...I think I just need to vent (maybe I should be blogging instead...oh well), so don't feel that you must respond.
With my latest EDD coming up on Friday, I am finding that I am distracted beyond comprehension! I guess I have a lot of other things piled on, but I've just been filled with this overwhelming sense of DREAD about January 30th. It's also the day that I officially close on the sale of the last property I owned with my ex-H (though I'm signing paperwork today)...a great thing to be cutting that last tie, but also emotional. It's the EDD that I shared with one of my best friends, who recently gave birth and asked me to be Godmother. Not to mention the fact that I feel like a lousy Godmother because I still haven't seen her or the baby, because I've been waiting to get myself out of panic attack mode so I can put my best self forward when I do see her.
Add to all of that, I probably made a big mistake seeing American Sniper on Sunday - fantastic movie, but it left me feeling so emotionally overwhelmed...
And that I am in my FW and trying to keep all that business going as well. (Let's not even get into *that* MF right now.)
I know that I am a perfectionist, which isn't healthy, but I realized this morning that I am SO distracted that I am making lots of little mistakes at work! I am trying to remind myself that I am going through a great deal, and to be gentle with myself...but I can't keep myself from feeling like a failure. Like I have all these little balls in the air, and I'm dropping them all. Even though I'm in the middle of a Bikram yoga challenge, I'm having a hard time finding my center.
Anyway. I don't know if I'm looking for advice, or just trying to get it off my chest... If you made it this far, thanks for listening. And your prize:
PS: not posting on main board because depressing