Post by rslh10 on Jan 13, 2016 11:06:27 GMT -5
Hi Guys,
I'll start at the beginning.
• Married my best friend in May 2010, got KU the very first try (June 2010) with my DS who was born by emergency c-section @ 35 weeks due to severe Pre-eclampsia.
• TTC # 2 August 2013 for a few months with no luck. Went in to my OB in February of 2014 and she wouldn't agree to any testing because "it can take so many months for a normal couple to get pregnant..blah blah blah" I felt like that wasn't the case because I got KU so easily with DS. Well, I found another OB and she tested my AMH (egg reserve) levels. They were super low (.58). I started medicated cycles with her. First cycle led to my first miscarriage ( yesterday was my EDD for that loss...baby would be 1). My loss was ectopic at 5w6d.
• I did a bunch of medicated cycles with my new OB, but then she said I should seek out an RE. I then started seeing my RE, did a few medicated cycles with him, and benched myself October-December 2014. I went back optimistic in January and did my last ever Clomid cycle/Trigger/IUI. We ended up canceling the IUI because my follicle grew too big. I was told to have TI and not expect much. I got KU. This pregnancy ended in a CP. (EDD 10/13/2015)
• I then chose to do a ton of vitamins/follistim/trigger/IUI. First IUI wasn't successful.
• April 2015 I upped my follistim injects. This IUI was successful. Everything was perfect and my numbers went up. I saw the heartbeat at 6w1d, and fell in love. I graduated from my RE, and saw a different OB than the one I did medicated cycles with at 9w. Everything was great. She ran the verifi genetic testing- everything came back normal and it was a girl I left this OB practice and went back to my old OB (who detected my low AMH) and had an amazing experience at her practice.
My entire pregnancy was uneventful. I never had any issues, and my blood pressure was always kept under control. I developed Gestational Diabetes this pregnancy, but it was ALWAYS controlled with my diet. There was no reason for me to worry. EVER. I had a growth ultrasound at 36+5 and she was perfect.
On 12.29.15, one week before my scheduled c-section date, I went to L&D due to (very very mild) contractions. 7-10 minutes apart. When we arrived they were unable to find her heartbeat, which was confirmed by ultrasound. I was devastated. There was no warning. I had gone from arriving at L&D and expecting to possibly be given a c-section and meet my sweet perfect girl, to my whole world crashing down around me...
I gave birth to my daughter Ken.ley Al.den on 12.29.15 @ 10:32pm. She was stillborn. She was perfect in every way. 7lbs 5oz. 20 inches long. I was 38+4.
The day before I had her, I used my doppler and she had a very strong, normal heartbeat. The Dr said that she had passed away less than 24 hours before we arrived at L&D. I believe in my heart that I know the moment she passed away.
My RE suggested 8 months before we start trying again. My OB said 1 year (2 c-sections increases uterine rupture %) I say no, that's not going to fly in my book. I hope to make an appt with my RE and hopefully he will agree to allow me to cycle in May/June.
I had my 2 week post op follow up yesterday and my OB tested my AMH and Vitamin D levels. I know that I'm not going to try before the 5-6 month mark, but it feels good to be "in control" of knowing that information. I don't know if any of this makes any sense- I'm still really numb about it all... but that's my story.
I hate to be here and I have tons of emotions and questions. I've been sad/mad/confused/guilty. I'm sure you all can relate. The feeling I have most is guilt. She was my baby and I couldn't save her. I should have known. Why didn't my body warn me something was wrong?
We sent her for in depth genetic testing, an autopsy, and had my placenta tested. I know we probably won't get answers, but I need to know I did everything I could to try and find out what happened to my sweet perfect daughter. I hope you'll have me.
I'll start at the beginning.
• Married my best friend in May 2010, got KU the very first try (June 2010) with my DS who was born by emergency c-section @ 35 weeks due to severe Pre-eclampsia.
• TTC # 2 August 2013 for a few months with no luck. Went in to my OB in February of 2014 and she wouldn't agree to any testing because "it can take so many months for a normal couple to get pregnant..blah blah blah" I felt like that wasn't the case because I got KU so easily with DS. Well, I found another OB and she tested my AMH (egg reserve) levels. They were super low (.58). I started medicated cycles with her. First cycle led to my first miscarriage ( yesterday was my EDD for that loss...baby would be 1). My loss was ectopic at 5w6d.
• I did a bunch of medicated cycles with my new OB, but then she said I should seek out an RE. I then started seeing my RE, did a few medicated cycles with him, and benched myself October-December 2014. I went back optimistic in January and did my last ever Clomid cycle/Trigger/IUI. We ended up canceling the IUI because my follicle grew too big. I was told to have TI and not expect much. I got KU. This pregnancy ended in a CP. (EDD 10/13/2015)
• I then chose to do a ton of vitamins/follistim/trigger/IUI. First IUI wasn't successful.
• April 2015 I upped my follistim injects. This IUI was successful. Everything was perfect and my numbers went up. I saw the heartbeat at 6w1d, and fell in love. I graduated from my RE, and saw a different OB than the one I did medicated cycles with at 9w. Everything was great. She ran the verifi genetic testing- everything came back normal and it was a girl I left this OB practice and went back to my old OB (who detected my low AMH) and had an amazing experience at her practice.
My entire pregnancy was uneventful. I never had any issues, and my blood pressure was always kept under control. I developed Gestational Diabetes this pregnancy, but it was ALWAYS controlled with my diet. There was no reason for me to worry. EVER. I had a growth ultrasound at 36+5 and she was perfect.
On 12.29.15, one week before my scheduled c-section date, I went to L&D due to (very very mild) contractions. 7-10 minutes apart. When we arrived they were unable to find her heartbeat, which was confirmed by ultrasound. I was devastated. There was no warning. I had gone from arriving at L&D and expecting to possibly be given a c-section and meet my sweet perfect girl, to my whole world crashing down around me...
I gave birth to my daughter Ken.ley Al.den on 12.29.15 @ 10:32pm. She was stillborn. She was perfect in every way. 7lbs 5oz. 20 inches long. I was 38+4.
The day before I had her, I used my doppler and she had a very strong, normal heartbeat. The Dr said that she had passed away less than 24 hours before we arrived at L&D. I believe in my heart that I know the moment she passed away.
My RE suggested 8 months before we start trying again. My OB said 1 year (2 c-sections increases uterine rupture %) I say no, that's not going to fly in my book. I hope to make an appt with my RE and hopefully he will agree to allow me to cycle in May/June.
I had my 2 week post op follow up yesterday and my OB tested my AMH and Vitamin D levels. I know that I'm not going to try before the 5-6 month mark, but it feels good to be "in control" of knowing that information. I don't know if any of this makes any sense- I'm still really numb about it all... but that's my story.
I hate to be here and I have tons of emotions and questions. I've been sad/mad/confused/guilty. I'm sure you all can relate. The feeling I have most is guilt. She was my baby and I couldn't save her. I should have known. Why didn't my body warn me something was wrong?
We sent her for in depth genetic testing, an autopsy, and had my placenta tested. I know we probably won't get answers, but I need to know I did everything I could to try and find out what happened to my sweet perfect daughter. I hope you'll have me.