Missing her today.

[rslh10]

I'm really missing K today. It's so nice outside- sunny and the birds are chirping. I know how much she would have loved hearing the birds, and feeling the warmth of the sun on her sweet little hands and cheeks.

I'm not overly sad, missing her (at least not today), I feel ok. I just know that this year is going to be filled with days like today. Holidays, special days that we enjoy as a family, without our special missing piece...every day for the rest of our lives.

I vacuumed my floors today...the first time in 2 months, and 5 days. The smallest things have been so hard for me, and I'm proud that I felt strong enough to do this. I'm sure more sad days/moments are in my future but today I feel ok.

Kenley, I miss you. I miss you so bad. I just wish I could hold you and be able to share the world with you.

But...for today I will just remind myself that you knew you were loved. You had a great life inside of me. I loved you as much as I could. I did everything I could do.



Mommy is missing you, sweet girl.

[peaseblossom55]

Sending you so many hugs today. I can find almost any reason on any day to fall apart and miss Anne.liese. The 6 month anniversary was Friday. Some days I find easier than others, but today is a beautiful. I'm so sad for you she is not here to enjoy it. I think of you all the time rslh10.

[murrt]

Hugs to you my friend

[mommytoava]

((Hugs to you)). Today is 18 months since Ava passed. Like you said, it's beautiful outside. My husband and I were playing frisbee in our yard this morning and talking about how much time we spent outside with Ava. Like K, she should be here to play and enjoy the weather.

[iheartbroccoli]

Big hugs.

[rslh10]

Thanks ladies. I knew you would understand. It's funny how beautiful it is outside, but how sad you can feel. Ugh

[iheartbroccoli]

Understand all too well. I feel like every moment is so bittersweet for me now. We celebrated MH's birthday yesterday, and while it was a lot of fun, the thought that Theo should be there with us and how much fun he would have had was always on my mind. I had to take a few breaks from everyone else because it was too overwhelming.

[rslh10]

((Hugs)) iheartbroccoli

(Are you in the Chicago area? Or am I wrong)

[iheartbroccoli]

rslh10 Aw, thanks.

No, I'm in California. (Love Chicago though, we have friends there and have visited a couple of times.)

[shandorfml2]

Big hugs. Certain days are just difficult...sending love

[muscari]

Oh, I'm sorry I missed this post when you orginally posted it rslh10 , much love


edit: whoops, I see I accidentally clicked the wrong board.. so sorry ladies, I didn't mean to intrude into your space, apologies!

[diamondsndaisies]

I am so sorry rslh10. I have had days like this too. But you are completely right, these days come and go but you always hold her in your heart. We are all here to help you get through these hard days and help you enjoy the good ones.