~PgAL / PAIF Check in 4/25~

[birch113]

Welcome! This is a weekly check in for those of us who are pregnant after loss and/or infertility. This check in is a safe place to share all things that come with being PgAL and/or PAIF, and to give support to others.
I compiled the information shared last week to create a snapshot of our histories. I thought this might help as we all get to know each other better. If there is anything in your history that is inaccurate or you would like edited, please tag or PM me. I also ordered the tags by EDD, because I’m Type A. If your due date changes, just let me know!

***Loss warnings are not necessary here.***

PAIF Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/57254/welcome-paif-read-before-posting

PgAL Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/1034/pgal-mantras

~~~If You’re Just Joining in This Week~~~

What is your loss and/or IF history?


What is your EDD?

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How far along are you?

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?

Any appointments or milestones this week?

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie?

winewinebustarhyme PgAL: Healthy pregnancy with DS / MMC / EDD 12/1/16
requiressnacks PgAL / PAIF: TTC since October 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI ended in MMC @ 8 weeks / 3rd IUI EDD: 12/5/16
babycowbell PAIF: First BFP on cycle 33 with IVF w/ ICSI / Dx: Unexplained IF, now assumed egg quality issues / EDD: 12/5/16
@becca PAIF: TTC since June 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI #3 / EDD 12/6/16
mommytoava PgAL: Daughter passed away suddenly about 20 months ago in her sleep at age 3 ½ / EDD 12/6/16
hmr11913 PgAL: MMC @ 10 weeks / Dx Low Progesterone / Clomid EDD 12/13/16
littlelion PgAL: MC #1 @ 9wks 12/12 / #2 @ 6wks 12/13 / #3 @ 9wks 3/14 / #4 @ 9wks 9/15 / #5 ectopic @6wks 11/15 / Rainbow baby #1 12/1/14 / EDD: 12/15/16
lastnamewithheld PAIF: TTC since 2012 / H has MFI and I have PCOS / IVF EDD: 12/17/16
graychloham PgAL: TTC since August 2014 / MC @ 12 weeks in 2015 / EDD 12/17/16
anniebn PgAL: 2 MCs / Rainbow baby / Rainbow baby #2 EDD 12/22/16
legalbeagle PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in December / One DS who is 3.5 / EDD: 12/23/16
crimpgirl PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in September 2014 / CP February 2016 / EDD 12/23/16
bootsorhearts PgAL / PAIF: Loss of Harrison Gray at 18 weeks, unknown causes / CP after first IVF transfer / Dx: DOR and perimenopause / EDD 12/24/16
@winenchocolate PgAL: MC Feb 2014 / Feb 2016 / EDD: 12/25/16
sdgal PAIF: TTC since November 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / Clomid + IUI # 3 / EDD 12/25/16
W PAIF: TTC for 31 months / Dx: Unexplained IF / EDD: 12/26/16
birch113 PgAL: MC @ 7 weeks 2/14 / Rainbow 12/14 / MC @ 13 weeks 11/15 / EDD: 12/27/16

~~~Remembering~~~
Helgahufflepuff We are so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and light.

[birch113]

How far along are you? 4w6d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically: heart burn! What is up with heartburn so early? Exhaustion hit big time yesterday and my boobs have gotten a bit sore. I get mild waves of nausea. I'm trying to embrace all the symptoms as a good sign. Emotionally, I'm doing pretty ok right now. I was debating asking my RE for another round of betas and progesterone before my u/s, but I may just sit tight.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nope!

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? For me, my favorite movie is defined as a movie that always cheers me up and I could watch a million times and still love. I'd have to say Pitch Perfect and the Twilight series. Flame away!

[birch113]

W (((hugs))) my u/s is a week from today and I share your worry about seeing a HB. Could you ask for betas this week if you think it will give you some peace of mind?

Love Will Ferrel!

[WineNChocolate]

How far along are you? 5 Weeks and 1 day

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I had the worst headaches this weekend. Like one eye open, searing pain from by eye to my ear...BRUTAL. I thought allergies..never had them before. But I had no runny eyes or stuffed nose. I am assuming my squish was the culprit. My boobs are not sore my nipples are a lil sensitive, I get electric boob a lil bit every now and then. Emotionally I am okay for right now. I am trying not to think about next weeks appt. W , I am right there with you...I am worried about going in and not seeing a fetal pole again. But keep your chin up honey  you will only be like 6 weeks 2 days so you might not get to hear the lil thumper just due to it only being 6 weeks. It could take another week or so to hear them. BUT if the fetal pole is there your still on track. Positive Thoughts!

Any appointments or milestones this week? No appointments, I had one this week but my Dr's nurse pretty much pleaded with me to make it next week..giving us a better chance at seeing the fetal pole and maybe a heartbeat. I accepted, she said she didn't want to send me away disheartened cause we just looked to early. I did go and get my betas on Friday! I am right where I need to be at 309. Which means I have been doubling every 1.5 days..phew.

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? oh man this is hard!! Romance: Pride and Prejuidice (kiera K. Version) Fantasy: BIG OL' tie Legend and LOR. SCI-FI: Fifth Element Horror: Old hellraiser, 2 to be exact. SORRY I couldn't decide on just one.

birch113, if you ask for more betas...so will I. I really want to ask hahaha...totally an excuse to do it. I won't see my Dr. till next Tuesday...brutal.

[lastnamewithheld]

thanks for the check in, birch113! W, I definitely share that concern. I have to keep telling myself that as far as I know, today I am pregnant, and I will enjoy it for as long as that lasts.

How far along are you? 6w2d!

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I am fine, besides feeling super fat. Also, feeling fine isn't helping my emotional state at all. Still checking the TP for blood during my many, many bathroom breaks and worrying about not seeing a HB at my next appointment. Trying to stay optimistic. Trying. (As far as I know, everything is fine, rinse and repeat x a million throughout the day)

Any appointments or milestones this week? last u/s and RE appointment on Thursday! (hopefully--if everything goes according to plan.)

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? Forrest Gump!

[WineNChocolate]

lastnamewithheld , totally jealous of your US this week...BUT super excited for you and being able to see lil squish. Plus Thursday means like only a Friday and weekend to get through till mine! Have you had one before? I am assuming we already know there is one in there.

[lastnamewithheld]

Apr 25, 2016 6:59:15 GMT -5 WineNChocolate said:

lastnamewithheld , totally jealous of your US this week...BUT super excited for you and being able to see lil squish. Plus Thursday means like only a Friday and weekend to get through till mine! Have you had one before? I am assuming we already know there is one in there.

Yes! That's a great way to look at it! It's annoying how so much of this stuff is hurry up and wait!
I did have an ultrasound last week at 5w4d, and we only saw one gestational sac with a yolk sac (they wanted to make sure it was in the uterus) so now this one is to check and see if there's a HB. (aaaahhhhhhh)

[WineNChocolate]

Apr 25, 2016 7:09:07 GMT -5 lastnamewithheld said:

Apr 25, 2016 6:59:15 GMT -5 WineNChocolate said:

lastnamewithheld , totally jealous of your US this week...BUT super excited for you and being able to see lil squish. Plus Thursday means like only a Friday and weekend to get through till mine! Have you had one before? I am assuming we already know there is one in there.

Yes! That's a great way to look at it! It's annoying how so much of this stuff is hurry up and wait!
I did have an ultrasound last week at 5w4d, and we only saw one gestational sac with a yolk sac (they wanted to make sure it was in the uterus) so now this one is to check and see if there's a HB. (aaaahhhhhhh)

Oh well good at least the foundation was there and your squish was just too small to see. Get the tissues ready with DD, I cried. I got pregnant with her after a MC, the first cycle to be exact and I balled. I was like is that it..and the tech was like yup. Tears...  of joy of course. There is nothing like hearing the tech or dr say and there it is...*sigh*

[bootsorhearts]

far along are you? 5+2

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically ok, just some bloating and the last couple of days I don't have much appetite. My goal is to make sure I eat a good breakfast every day because I can't take my vitamins on an empty stomach. I figure if I don't eat much the rest of the day, that should carry me through.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Ultrasound Monday at RE if I go. I'm still undecided. I didn't do any ultrasounds with DS until a/s at 19 weeks and he is perfect so in some ways it's a superstitious thing I guess. I feel happier assuming everything is ok vs. getting validation that it isn't. Dumb right?

birch113 Can you add my LO to my summary? He is 2 1/2. :-)

[WineNChocolate]

bootsorhearts , I could see how the US could be a love/hate thing. If you are good to hold off then do it. I mean that is totally up to you. You could always schedule it later in the event that you felt the need to see something.

[requiressnacks]

How far along are you? 8 weeks today!

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically, I feel like shit. Normally I'm a real "go-getter" and I work a lot and am super motivated by work. Well....I feel so nauseous, tired, crappy I'm working from home today. I feel so not like myself.

Emotionally, I am OK. I was on such a high after the ultrasound on Friday. But then as the weekend went on my negative thoughts creeped in. Just trying to be cool, but it's so hard.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Final ultrasound with my RE on Thursday!

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? This is a hard question. Steel Magnolias, Crazy/Beautiful, Pretty Woman, Children of the Corn.

[requiressnacks]

birch113, thanks for the check-in. I'll admit, I didn't hate the Twilight movies... LOL. Hope your heartburn subsides.
W, betas did provide some comfort, if you are really struggling. But they also made me a little crazy on google. Double edged sword.
WineNChocolate, I'm so sorry about your crazy headaches! Ugh.
lastnamewithheld,+1 for the feeling fat club. My jeans needed to be unbuttoned this weekend.
bootsorhearts, I've definitely been eating larger breakfasts too. I had two egg sandwiches today.

[babycowbell]

How far along are you? 8 weeks today!

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Pretty good, I don't have much MS just a general feeling of weirdness. The tiredness has improved too. Emotionally, I wonder about my symptoms getting better and if that's a bad sign but mostly I'm staying positive and assuming all is well.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nothing this week.

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? Probably When Harry Met Sally. I love that one.

[bootsorhearts]

Apr 25, 2016 7:54:32 GMT -5 WineNChocolate said:

bootsorhearts , I could see how the US could be a love/hate thing. If you are good to hold off then do it. I mean that is totally up to you. You could always schedule it later in the event that you felt the need to see something.

Thanks, you totally get it. Pgal brain is totally illogical. I just noticed we have the same ticker and our EDDs are one day apart! I finally added a ticker today. I guess being December we may have lots like that though :-) 

[birch113]

WineNChocolate so sorry about those headaches! You beta temptress, you! I'll let you know what I decide!! Keep me posted on your decision!

lastnamewithheld GL on Thursday - so exciting! Love Forest Gump!

bootsorhearts not dumb! I find comfort in repeating something that I had done while pregnant with my rainbow. I'll be sure to add your LO to your history! Where in your history, chronologically, should I put him?

requiressnacks GL on Thursday! This may be a FFFC, but I've never seen Steel Magnolias. Love that you "don't hate" Twilight. :-)

[requiressnacks]

birch113, if you are ever sitting at home with nothing to do, I recommend watching Steel Magnolias. It's a great movie. Full of stars too.

[birch113]

babycowbell I'm sorry your symptoms are causing worry. GREAT movie!

[littlelion]

How far along are you? 6 wks 4 dys

How are you doing physically? Physically doing ok.  I was super tired at the end of last week. And over the weekend I fought back vomiting a couple times. But today, so far so good. Emotionally a mess.  I had a dream Saturday night that I got up to use the bathroom and discovered I had started miscarrying. I cried a lot when I talked to DH on Sunday. I didn't tell him about it, I cried more because I wanted to but felt like I shouldn't worry him at this moment. I hate not having him here to lean on and for his reassurance. 

Any appointments or milestones this week?  I'm supposed to go back in for another ultrasound tomorrow. I haven't made the appt since I wasn't sure how I was going to pay. But I finally got some money transferred over. I can't decide if I should try to push it back until Friday...so that I can take the day off work and not tell them anything. 

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? I have to say a movie that makes me smile and I can watch over and over is One Fine Day with Michelle Pfieffer.  babycowbell , I didn't say When Harry Met Sally because it's a much longer movie but otherwise, that's on top of my list too!

[birch113]

littlelion (((hugs))) I'm sorry about that bad dream. I hope you decide on an appointment for your u/s that you feel comfortable with.

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birch113, can you add me to the list?
What is your loss and/or IF history? We've been trying to get pregnant for over 2 years. I've done over 6 IUI, all but one failed. The one that was successful was a mmc after we saw a heartbeat around 7-ish weeks.


What is your EDD? Dec. 25th as of right now.

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How far along are you? 5w 1d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? I'm tired, and my boobs are achy. I'm getting over a nasty cold so I'm never sure if what I'm feeling is the cold, nerves, or actually from being pregnant. I just want to get past our 7 week ultrasound and then I think I'll feel a bit better as that's where it all went wrong last time. I feel like I have more symptoms this time which is good, the fatigue is legit, and I was happily nauseous before breakfast this morning.

Any appointments or milestones this week? None this week.

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? Princess Bride, I could rewatch that a million times.

[birch113]

@cahistoryteacher welcome! I'll be sure to add you.

[bootsorhearts]

birch113, thank you! He is at the end. Loss, Loss, DS, this pregnancy :-)

[birch113]

anniebn so glad you said you broke out the bellyband. I've been having an internal debate about when it's too soon to break mine out! I love the Wedding Singer!

[birch113]

Just remembered my other favorite movie. Can't believe I forgot it because it's definitely my number one: Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

[requiressnacks]

Apr 25, 2016 11:22:32 GMT -5 birch113 said:

Just remembered my other favorite movie. Can't believe I forgot it because it's definitely my number one: Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

That is such a good movie!

[sdgal]

How far along are you? 5w1day

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?
Physically I'm bloated and hating my jeans. I'm already overweight so I might have to start with things like the bellyband sooner rather than later. And I'm so tired from all the 3am trips to the bathroom. And my lack of other symptoms makes me still question if this is finally real. I can't wait to pee on a digital that should be delivered today. 

Any appointments or milestones this week? None. First ultrasound is next week at 6w2days

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? My Big Fat Greek Wedding!! I'm afraid to watch the 2nd one and be very disappointed

[birch113]

sdgal I hope the digi gives you some peace of mind. Happy POAS!

[Becca]

Thank you for the check in birch113!

How far along are you? 7w6d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically- MS multiple times a day. This weekend it was hard to even keep down liquids. The RE has ordered some meds for me which will hopefully help. Since no pharmacy in town had them it will be a few days before they arrive.
Emotionally- I'm still scared every day this will be my last day being pregnant. I keep reminding myself, one day at a time.

Any appointments or milestones this week? None this week

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? Hmm...not really a movie person, but whenever I am flipping through the TV if I see "10 Things I Hate About You" I will absolutely stop and watch the rest of it.

[mommytoava]

How far along are you? I'm 7w6d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm okay, just very tired and my breasts are really sore. I have had a little nausea but no morning sickness. Emotionally, really missing my daughter. I was crying a lot yesterday thinking about how Ava should be finishing preschool next month and starting kindergarten in the fall.

Any appointments or milestones this week? None this week

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? I love Gone With the Wind and The Sound of Music

[hmr11913]

How far along are you? 7 weeks & 2 days (decided to go with the DR's due date!)

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm doing okay... sore boobs occasionally, very tired and that's about it; emotionally I go in spurts. Sometimes I feel good, other times this doesn't feel real, and other times I'm scared shitless to even go to the bathroom for fear of seeing blood. (Even though I didn't see blood with my m/c)

Any appointments or milestones this week? None... But we have another u/s scheduled for next Friday. I'll be pass the date that my loss happened, so if we have a good appointment then I'll feel better I think.

QOTW: What is your all-time favorite movie? Boondock Saints - Creepy, I know. LOL!


Thank you birch113 for doing this again – I also sent you a PM I had terrible heartburn w/ DD… daily, all day… I tried everything (other than an RX) and nothing worked. I feel for you!

@whitney – ultrasounds are hard… I told DH I have a love/hate relationship with them. I was physically sick before mine on Friday with worry. It’s terrifying. I hope the time passes quickly until your appointment.

@winenchoclate – Electric boob…. Ha! Is that what that’s called? YAY for doubling betas!

lastnamewithheld – I’m there with you on the “no symptoms” bandwagon…. I wish I had some reassurance, other than some sore boobs. I’m also scared to go to the bathroom, especially since I’m on the progesterone and sometimes it can leak out, making me think I’m bleeding. hang in there! Good luck at your last RE appointment!!!

bootsorhearts – did you have your u/s today?

requiressnacks – I love that you had 2 egg sandwiches today…. one for each baby, right? I’m sorry that you’re not feeling well. Good luck at your RE Thursday also! Will you be going in more often since you’re having twins?

babycowbell – I still love your photo on here, so cute… glad to hear the tiredness is improving! There is hope!!!

littlelion – I’m so sorry about your dream. I, too, hate sharing sad things like that with DH in fear of making him sad or worry. I try to pretend everything is good. Good luck at your appointment tomorrow if you’re able to go!

@cahistoryteacher – I hope the next 2 weeks go by quickly and you get to see your Rainbow!

anniebn – I’ve been staying away from jeans whenever possible. I’m glad to see I’m not the only one. Also, I had DH put DD to bed for the first time, EVER, last week because I just could not stay awake…

sdgal – I hope the next week goes by quickly! I’m also feeling the bloat… have fun POAS!

@becca – I hope the meds work… I can’t imagine being so sick all day.

mommytoava – I may have missed your intro, but I just wanted to say I’m incredibly sorry for your loss. There are no words… many hugs to you. Ava is beautiful.

crimpgirl – Hope the next 3 weeks go by quickly!