PgAL/PAIF check in 5/10

[sophiegrace]

Need more than this half-caf to get me going this morning. Ouch. Hope everyone is doing ok this week.


Although we are a smaller group it seems as though we have an unfair amount of us who have not has an easy journey. This weekly thread is to get out your thoughts and release your fears in a safe area. Trigger warnings are not necessary.

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How far along are you?



How are you doing physically?

Mentally?



Any appointments this week?



Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week?



QOTW: Do you have a hidden talent?


tgrimes1980 - PgAl, MMC 10 wks

peanutmuse – PgAL/PAIF, m/c 1/13, 6/13, 9/15, IUI for DS1, TTC 23 cycles for this pg

sophiegrace - PgAl, loss at 25 wks

legitlizard - PgAL, early loss, Crohn's

robinbird - PgAl, MMC 13 wks

danib - PgAL/PAIF, loss at 5.5 wks

shedreamsincolor – PgAL, loss at 16 wks

kleigh – PgAl/PAIF, CP

goldenlove3 – PgAL/PAIF, TTC 31 cycles, one ectopic, Pg after IVF FET #1

calindi – PAIF, 22 cycles + Follistim IUI #3 for TTC #1, 11 cycles + Follistim TI for TTC #2

hangry – PgAL, loss at 8 wks

artmusiclife – PgAL/PAIF – TTC since S12, early loss N12, 5 IUIs, IFV w/ICSI &PGS, F16 FET resulting in this BFP

@sarahwithanh – PgAL/PAIF - TTC Aug14, MMC 12

opheliainwaders – PgAL – 2 losses both around 12 weeks

vinolove - PgAL, loss at 6 weeks

mommytoava - PgAL, Ava born 12/2010 gained her wings 2014

[calindi]

12w2d

Nausea and fatigue are starting to get better, thankfully. I joined a gym yesterday in the hopes of staying active during 2nd tri and as long as I feel comfortable into 3rd.

Mentally, I am having some PAIF worries this week. It's been 3 weeks since I saw my baby, and I am once again feeling this was "too easy" and waiting for the other shoe to drop. I called and asked if we could do the NT scan after all. I am afraid of a false alarm from the test (the "elevated risk" that very often means nothing) but I really want to see my baby is doing okay. I have a standard appointment on Monday but I don't know if a Doppler alone will put my mind at ease. I want to know the baby is growing and moving. I can't wait to feel kicks.

QOTW: Weird talents, like I can move each eye independently of the other, and I once hoola hooped for 5 hours, and could pogo stick no handed once upon a time.

[shedreamsincolor]

How far along are you? 12w5d

How are you doing physically? Nausea is easing up- now mostly just in the evenings and with my common triggers. I'm with sophiegrace though this fatigue is kicking my ass.

Mentally? OK, not awesome. I am getting very close to the point where something went wrong last time (for reasons that we still don't know). I'm wishing I had pushed harder for more testing but I'm just trying to trust everyone who told me this was a fluke and I'm no higher risk this time than I would be for any other pregnancy.

Any appointments this week? Next week. I'm going to ask for an elective ultrasound, which we will likely pay for out of pocket. That may sound nuts but if something is wrong again, I just want to know. I realize there are no guarantees. PgAL brain unfortunately isn't rational as I'm sure you all can relate

Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week? Nope

QOTW: Do you have a hidden talent? I can sing pretty well- was in a choir all through college that toured (even through Asia!) Unfortunately I don't think DS got the musical gene so I'm hoping for the next time!

[kleigh]

How far along are you? 13w 1d

How are you doing physically? Still feeling well, my "bump" is growing, and is more firm and round so it helps to feel like this is finally for real. I find I get more tired after walks and my stomach feels heavy-like by evening so they are all helping to make it feel more real.

Mentally? I'm doing well. Mother's Day was hard, I def still have IF brain/sensitivity so it was very enjoyable but slowly shedding my former "self" has been a process.

Any appts this week? Yes, Thursday with OB, just my monthly scan (although I had one two weeks ago after I fell and I had my NT scan last week). The NT scan looked fantastic and the NIPT bloodwork came back perfect so to me this was a big hurdle. I'm just racing toward that 2T goal..I know it doesn't mean much but it feels like it does.

Any Q/C/T this week?

QOTW: Do you have a hidden talent? Umm not really? I'm really good at French braiding hair (in various patterns) and as a kid was like the double Dutch queen at our school. Otherwise, not really lol. I'm really good at eating.



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[mommytoava]

How far along are you? 10 weeks today



How are you doing physically? Just very tired and nauseous

Mentally? Doing better today, had a hard time this past weekend.


Any appointments this week? I had my appointment yesterday, everything is looking good with the baby.



Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week?
How did everyone else hold up this weekend. Any holidays just are rougher than the average day.


QOTW: Do you have a hidden talent? Nope

[sophiegrace]

How far along are you? 14 weeks

How are you doing physically? So tired, full on acne that I have no idea how to handle, lovely headaches. I'll take it all over the MS, but shoosh. I'm still pretty miserable. I also think my belly button is going to explode it hurts so bad.

Mentally? This is terrible, but this is my safe place so I'll admit it. I spend like 90% of my day not thinking of this pregnancy. It got worse after finding out her sex and subsequently naming her. She's real and I love her and that scares me so damn bad. I think I'm forming mental blocks to try and protect myself. If I have to go through what I went through last year again I'm not sure I could ever handle another pregnancy again. I cannot lose another baby after falling so deeply in love with them. The 10% of time I am thinking about her is because my H is constantly talking about her with such love in his voice. Everything is about little Mia...and it breaks my heart (but in a better way) even more.

Appointments? Two more very long weeks.

Q/C/T? Any body else having this belly button thing? I was pretty sure I hurt myself this fall and gave myself a hernia and now I'm quite certain of it. Gag.

QOTW: you guys have some fantastic ones!! There has to be something I can do, but my head is killing me. That's pretty sad so I'm going to come back and update.

[shedreamsincolor]

sophiegrace. I get that. All of it. I really do think it's a defense mechanism.

[sophiegrace]

mommytoava I tried to write it off as not a big deal, but it was rough. Facebook just about killed me with all of the posts and pictures. I'm just so conflicted all the time and the guilt is overwhelming. I'm so sorry you had another holiday without your baby girl. I wish I had better comforting words, but I just can't imagine. You're going through a hell no mom should have to even think about. All the love being sent your way.

[shedreamsincolor]

mommytoava - This weekend was tough and I can't imagine what you went through. I am so sorry for what you have gone through losing your little girl.