Loss Ladies

[neekoneeko]

I know we are going to start an official thread once we get some more people but I wanted to check in with you guys. How are you holding up? Anything you are needing support with?

[aprilz81]

I'm better by the day. With our loss (the doctor called it a chemical, but the miscarriage started at 5 weeks which seems kind of late to call it a chemical) I had a lot of spotting a few days after O and starting again around 11DPO. I had low progesterone which is the likely culprit but we will never know for sure.

I've had ZERO spotting since my period ended and all my tests results are perfect so each day I'm a little more comfortable and a little more excited. I'm a little nervous for Friday's ultrasound (5 weeks 1 day) and of course to hear a heartbeat(s).

[bepandnick]

I'm doing ok. My losses were both early, so if I make it to 6w I'll be feeling better.

I've started having a few symptoms, and I didn't have any with my last pg so that helps too. My dr isn't doing betas so I bought the CB digi's with the weeks on them and I'll be peeling on all the things until June.

aprilz81 FX for your u/s on Friday.

[aprilz81]

bepandnick, Don't read too much into the "weeks pregnant" part of the tests. Those are notoriously inaccurate and there is a wide range of normal HCG levels.

[bepandnick]

May 10, 2016 19:11:53 GMT -5 aprilz81 said:

bepandnick, Don't read too much into the "weeks pregnant" part of the tests. Those are notoriously inaccurate and there is a wide range of normal HCG levels.

Thanks for letting me know. As long as I keep getting lines, I'll try to stay positive.

[peaseblossom55]

My second loss was a chemical and I've already surpassed that loss. My second was a TFMR at almost 21 weeks. I don't think I will ever surpass the benchmark where I feel comfortable that this baby will be healthy and in my arms.

[neekoneeko]

I keep thinking if I give myself milestones to look forward to it will help. I've had 3 losses and I've made it longer than two of them, so that's helping a little. I'm nervous but I've kind of gotten to a weird headspace where I have no emotions about it anymore but getting an ultrasound will definitely help.

aprilz81, that's so awesome that you get to have an earlier ultrasound, I will be crossing everything for you. 

[peaseblossom55]

I'm trying to really take it one day at a time, and one milestone at a time, like my appointment on Monday. My thoughts right now- "Why steal today's joy with tomorrow's worry?"

[bazinga]

May 10, 2016 19:41:10 GMT -5 peaseblossom55 said:

I'm trying to really take it one day at a time, and one milestone at a time, like my appointment on Monday. My thoughts right now- "Why steal today's joy with tomorrow's worry?"

peaseblossom55. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you feel after losing your daughter but I have everything crossed for you during this pregnancy. I think trying to stay hopeful, as you said, it's helpful. And if your hope wavers, know that you have all of us hoping for you too.

neekoneeko, I got into that weird place of no emotion and numbness as we got into 2IF territory and we're planning to start IVF. I guess is a coping mechanism of sorts... I hope everything goes well with your u/s.

AFM, I find myself in an unexpected place of hope despite the 50:50 odds of this working out. It's weird because during my first pregnancy I was terrified that something would go wrong. I was so cautious about thinking about what it would be like to have an actual baby at the end of it I don't think I really let myself get excited until after 7 months. This time around, despite my loss, I can't imagine anything other than a take home baby to complete our family. I just don't want to think about the alternative...

[summergirl1211]

Hugs ladies!

I'm also trying to take things day by day and be happy in the moment. Worrying won't change anything so I try to avoid it. I'm also looking forward to seeing the heart beating on the u/s and hearing it around 12 weeks.

[peaseblossom55]

bazinga, I hope this is your rainbow and you are on the right side of those 50/50 odds.