Pgal brain (trigger, obviously)

[irish14]

So last time, a couple days before my loss, I dreamed that I miscarried.

I had a similar dream last night. Cue the freaking out.

Luckily I'm scheduled for betas this morning so at least I'll get some info but... shoot. Cut it out, pgal brain. No can handle this.

[peaseblossom55]

I'm sorry dreams like that can really mess with you. I hope you get a call soon with good beta news that puts your mind at ease.

[irish14]

May 12, 2016 8:19:21 GMT -5 peaseblossom55 said:

I'm sorry dreams like that can really mess with you. I hope you get a call soon with good beta news that puts your mind at ease.

thx. I always hear the following day so I'll have to wait til tomorrow. So impatient!!

[peaseblossom55]

May 12, 2016 8:20:42 GMT -5 irish14 said:

May 12, 2016 8:19:21 GMT -5 peaseblossom55 said:

I'm sorry dreams like that can really mess with you. I hope you get a call soon with good beta news that puts your mind at ease.

thx. I always hear the following day so I'll have to wait til tomorrow. So impatient!!

Oh no! I hope today goes by real fast then.  After my spotting yesterday I was worried but all my pregnancy symptoms are still here. So as long as I feel pretty crappy, it's for now my comfort things are still going ok.

[bepandnick]

PgAL brain is the worst. Im sorry you had a dream like that. FX for good beta numbers.

[summergirl1211]

Ugh, I'm sorry. I can understand how that would be upsetting! Hopefully it's just your anxiety about it coming out in your dreams and not an indication of what's to come. Hang in there! FX for good betas tomorrow!

[irish14]

Hoping it's anxiety!!

Didn't help that when I went in today for the bloodwork, the nurse was like, ok, so we're tracking your levels to 0?

No, I'm pregnant, I was just here last week, read my flipping chart. With any luck we're tracking UP not down. WTF.

Anyway, thanks for letting me rant. I think I'm gonna go get a doughnut or something.

[peaseblossom55]

May 12, 2016 9:30:03 GMT -5 irish14 said:

Hoping it's anxiety!!

Didn't help that when I went in today for the bloodwork, the nurse was like, ok, so we're tracking your levels to 0?

No, I'm pregnant, I was just here last week, read my flipping chart. With any luck we're tracking UP not down. WTF.

Anyway, thanks for letting me rant. I think I'm gonna go get a doughnut or something.

ugh that's awful, nurses should really be more careful. Go have a donut.

[summergirl1211]

May 12, 2016 9:36:52 GMT -5 peaseblossom55 said:

May 12, 2016 9:30:03 GMT -5 irish14 said:

Hoping it's anxiety!!

Didn't help that when I went in today for the bloodwork, the nurse was like, ok, so we're tracking your levels to 0?

No, I'm pregnant, I was just here last week, read my flipping chart. With any luck we're tracking UP not down. WTF.

Anyway, thanks for letting me rant. I think I'm gonna go get a doughnut or something.

ugh that's awful, nurses should really be more careful. Go have a donut.

WTF is right! I'm sorry.

[thelittleredm]

Let us know how things go ASAP!!

[bazinga]

Hugs irish14, I hope your results come soon. And seriousy, that nurse....

[LovesMeSomeCake]

boo pgal brain! that combined with anxiety issues has me fearing EP with every twinge. i keep telling myself, poop chute on the left, its just gas, its just gas...I REALLY hope its just gas.

[vlagroupie]

irish14 sorry for the bad dream fx it is nothing for you. I have noticed I am remembering more of my dreams lately, pregnancy brain in general is weird.

[heybulldog56]

So sorry irish14. Between the dream and that nurse... All the hugs and doughnuts. FX for you.

[neekoneeko]

Dude irish14, that nurse situation would have sent me over the edge. I'm sorry about your dream, I know how loss anxiety can be all consuming. Try to keep positive even though it's not always easy and hopefully good dreams will come your way.

[irish14]

Feeling better about things than I was this morning. Appetite is off so taking that as a symptom/good sign... Fx for my numbers tomorrow!!

Ended up with a sausage breakfast sandwich bc they were out of doughnuts. That helped too

Thx for the support

[bepandnick]

I'm glad you're feeling better irish14.

[ashtog]

hugs irish14, I'm glad you're feeling better now, but pgal brain is the worst. I've been watching lines darken in cheapie tests every 12 hours or so, which is wonderful, but today I didn't take one.. because why do I need to? except now I want to. so I probably will. I have hardly any symptoms, which makes sense for like 14 or 15dpo. but damn.

on the topic of pgal brain, I ran a weekly pgal checkin on J15. would anyone be interested in cohosting that with me? It was a really wonderful place for that special kind of support

[irish14]

ashtog I'm game - I brought that up once early on, and if we need ppl to facilitate I'm up for it.

Update! Good news - betas came back great, over 1000!!! (They were 32 a week ago!).

Another draw Monday bc they want to keep tabs on my numbers. I won't say no to more data, for sure... Glad I can maybe relax for a day or two, ha.

[peaseblossom55]

Glad you had great betas!

[thelittleredm]

May 13, 2016 9:52:38 GMT -5 irish14 said:

ashtog I'm game - I brought that up once early on, and if we need ppl to facilitate I'm up for it.

Update! Good news - betas came back great, over 1000!!! (They were 32 a week ago!).

Another draw Monday bc they want to keep tabs on my numbers. I won't say no to more data, for sure... Glad I can maybe relax for a day or two, ha.

Yay for great news!!!

[ashtog]

irish14 yay for good betas!!! Yes let's do it! We can take turns week on, week off. I did it on my own last time and was happy to, but it is too overwhelming now with Liam lol.

[irish14]

May 13, 2016 10:03:30 GMT -5 ashtog said:

irish14 yay for good betas!!! Yes let's do it! We can take turns week on, week off. I did it on my own last time and was happy to, but it is too overwhelming now with Liam lol.

amen on the overwhelming. My DS is almost 18 mos so the train to work is my TCF time...

[aprilz81]

May 13, 2016 9:52:38 GMT -5 irish14 said:

ashtog I'm game - I brought that up once early on, and if we need ppl to facilitate I'm up for it.

Update! Good news - betas came back great, over 1000!!! (They were 32 a week ago!).

Another draw Monday bc they want to keep tabs on my numbers. I won't say no to more data, for sure... Glad I can maybe relax for a day or two, ha.

WOOHOO!!!! 

[neekoneeko]

May 13, 2016 9:52:38 GMT -5 irish14 said:

ashtog I'm game - I brought that up once early on, and if we need ppl to facilitate I'm up for it.

Update! Good news - betas came back great, over 1000!!! (They were 32 a week ago!).

Another draw Monday bc they want to keep tabs on my numbers. I won't say no to more data, for sure... Glad I can maybe relax for a day or two, ha.

What an awesome update! Keep up the great numbers!

[heybulldog56]

Love this update!

[flcl]

irish14, I'm sorry about the scary dream but yay for good numbers! Hope you're back to feeling good!

[bepandnick]

Great betas irish14!!