~PgAL / PAIF Check in 5/16~

[birch113]

Welcome! This is a weekly check in for those of us who are pregnant after loss and/or infertility. This check in is a safe place to share all things that come with being PgAL and/or PAIF, and to give support to others.
I compiled the information shared last week to create a snapshot of our histories. I thought this might help as we all get to know each other better. If there is anything in your history that is inaccurate or you would like edited, please tag or PM me. I also ordered the tags by EDD, because I’m Type A. If your due date changes, just let me know!

***Loss warnings are not necessary here.***

PAIF Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/57254/welcome-paif-read-before-posting

PgAL Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/1034/pgal-mantras

~~~If You’re Just Joining in This Week~~~

What is your loss and/or IF history?


What is your EDD?

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How far along are you?

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?

Any appointments or milestones this week?

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camo?

mrswillie PgAL / PAIF: 2 M/C, Clomid + TI, DS1 born/2 IUI's = 1 M/C and 1 ectopic, IVF#1 = freeze all, FET#1 = DS2 born/FET#2 / EDD: 12/3/16
trufflefries PgAL / PAIF: TTC for 2 years / Dx: PCOS / Tx: Metformin / Healthy pregnancy, DD born 11/13 / MMC 10/15 @10w5d / EDD: 12/4/16
requiressnacks PgAL / PAIF: TTC since October 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI ended in MMC @ 8 weeks / 3rd IUI EDD: 12/5/16
babycowbell PAIF: First BFP on cycle 33 with IVF w/ ICSI / Dx: Unexplained IF, now assumed egg quality issues / EDD: 12/5/16
@becca PAIF: TTC since June 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI #3 / EDD 12/6/16
mommytoava PgAL: Daughter passed away suddenly about 20 months ago in her sleep at age 3 ½ / EDD 12/6/16
@usernameedit PgAL: CP March 2016 / EDD: 12/12/16
hmr11913 PgAL: MMC @ 10 weeks / Dx Low Progesterone / Rainbow born 6/15 / EDD 12/13/16
littlelion PgAL: MC #1 @ 9wks 12/12 / #2 @ 6wks 12/13 / #3 @ 9wks 3/14 / #4 @ 9wks 9/15 / #5 ectopic @6wks 11/15 / Rainbow baby #1 12/1/14 / EDD: 12/15/16
lastnamewithheld PAIF: TTC since 2012 / H has MFI and I have PCOS / IVF EDD: 12/17/16
graychloham PgAL: TTC since August 2014 / MC @ 12 weeks in 2015 / EDD 12/17/16
legalbeagle PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in December / One DS who is 3.5 / EDD: 12/23/16
crimpgirl PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in September 2014 / CP February 2016 / EDD 12/23/16
bootsorhearts PgAL / PAIF: Loss of Harrison Gray at 18 weeks, unknown causes / CP after first IVF transfer / Dx: DOR and perimenopause / DS age 2.5 / EDD 12/24/16
@winenchocolate PgAL: MC Feb 2014 / Feb 2016 / EDD: 12/25/16
sdgal PAIF: TTC since November 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / Clomid + IUI # 3 / EDD 12/25/16
@cahistoryteacher PgAL / PAIF: TTC for 2+ years / 6 IUIs / MC @ 7 weeks / EDD: 12/25/16@williefocker PAIF: TTC for 31 months / Dx: Unexplained IF / EDD: 12/26/16
emilie PAIF: NTNP since March 2014 / TTC since June 2014 / Tx: polyp removals and 4 IUIs / EDD: 12/26
birch113 PgAL: MC @ 7 weeks 2/14 / Rainbow 12/14 / MC @ 13 weeks 11/15 / EDD: 12/27/16
Sunny75 PAIF: TTC for 15 months / Dx: Unicornuate Uterus / Two failed IUIs / Hysteroscopy to remove a cyst / BFP on first natural cycle after that! / EDD: 12/28/16

[birch113]

How far along are you? 7w6d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Still rocking the usual suspects: sore boobs, emotional, MS + some vomiting, and exhaustion. Usually, on weekends DS's nap time is when I speed race through as many of my To Dos as possible. I have been so wiped out I napped while he napped both days. Emotionally, ups and downs.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Next f/u u/s tomorrow. Praying LO has grown a week and a day by the scan. I passed my first loss milestone this weekend. I have a ways to go for the next one.

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camo? This is my 4th pregnancy, so even though I don't have a real bump, I have quite the blump. I'm definitely in the hiding stage. Flowy shirts and cardigans are my BFFs.

[lastnamewithheld]

How far along are you? 9w2d (WHAT??)

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically, I'm just fine. Emotionally, I'm kind of going crazy. How TF do normal pregnant people do this? How do I know that this little fetus (omg, it turned into a fetus last weekend--not an embryo anymore!!) is still alive and growing?? Why can't I just assume everything is fine?! AAAHHH

Any appointments or milestones this week? NO! NOTHING! WTF!

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camo? Honestly, I just look fat. So my cute little shirts that I usually wear are uncomfortably tight, as are my jeans. This is really fucking with my head, too. Like what if I'm not really pregnant, I'm just getting fat again. UGH. Anyhoo. Not hiding anything. I'm at a place where I'm really uncomfortable with my physical appearance again...something that I worked so long and so hard to fix the last few years. GDI, I'm a trainwreck today.

[lastnamewithheld]

birch113, I hope you have a great u/s tomorrow!

[birch113]

lastnamewithheld hooray for a fetus!!! I have no idea how normal pregnant women do it, but I am so freaking jealous of them! (((Hugs))) Thank you and crimpgirl for the good wishes for tomorrow!

[birch113]

crimpgirl congrats on being the most pregnant you've ever been!!! Sending you all the good luck for your first u/s today!!!

[lastnamewithheld]

crimpgirl, I hope you have an awesome ultrasound today!!! come on, crimpbaby! You can do it!!

[WineNChocolate]

How far along are you? 8w 1d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? I am doing ok. I have been less nauseated by taking things closer to bedtime like my prenatal. Eating healthier helps me not to be dead. BUT I never get enough sleep at night even though I sleep for 9 hours. My daughter loves to try an climb on my stomach and it actually really hurts. So that's going to be fun..she loves to roll around on us. I am doing ok emotionally, I am not as stressed about Wednesday as I would think I would be. I keep telling myself this is a different time and we will see what our outcome will be. I can't base this one on the last one.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Wednesday @11, US to see squish and HB.

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camo? haha I am not necessarily hiding it. More like just going with the flow. I don't wear super tight things at work so I don't think you really see it unless I sit down. I guess hiding it a lil with the type of skirts I wear and flowy shirts.

[WineNChocolate]

birch113, How lucky you are you have TWO US and I am still waiting for this one to come. UGH! Fingers crossed for another great US.

lastnamewithheld, LOL, how do they do it..its called ignorance and it's bliss. Of course I would not wish PGAL on anyone. I am sure your lil one is growing beautifully. When is your next US or visit?

crimpgirl, So many Happy thoughts to a wonderful and happy US. I hope that you get to take a happy memory home today.

[lastnamewithheld]

WineNChocolate, I feel like I've been waiting FOREVER for your u/s!! Come on, Wednesday!

I have another appointment with the OB on 5/25. Where, HOPEFULLY I'll at least hear the HB on a doppler. I just found out that the OB I saw last time is the one who delivered my step-mom's daughter's kid a couple years ago. Small world.

[legalbeagle]

birch113, crimpgirl, WineNChocolate, so many good thoughts for your respective appointments!

lastnamewithheld, yay for your little fetus! What a wonderful milestone!

How far along are you? 8 weeks 3 days

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically okay. Nausea not quite so bad except if I haven't eaten in a while or I've just taken my prenatal. I'm grateful for that. Emotionally so much better since my US on Friday.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nope, nothing until May 31st

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camo? So glad you asked this question! My blump is not-so-noticeable in the morning -- I'm definitely thicker but hard to tell since my work shirts aren't super tightfitting but OMG guys in the evening I have a full-on BUMP. It is out of control. And then I pee all night long and it is normalish again in the morning. Is this happening to anyone else? I'll probably try and hide the bump as long as I can, but this is my third pregnancy so I'm sure my uterus is getting blown up like a fun house right now.

[birch113]

WineNChocolate good luck on Wednesday!

[birch113]

May 16, 2016 8:49:01 GMT -5 WineNChocolate said:

birch113, How lucky you are you have TWO US and I am still waiting for this one to come. UGH! Fingers crossed for another great US.

lastnamewithheld, LOL, how do they do it..its called ignorance and it's bliss. Of course I would not wish PGAL on anyone. I am sure your lil one is growing beautifully. When is your next US or visit?

crimpgirl, So many Happy thoughts to a wonderful and happy US. I hope that you get to take a happy memory home today.

I'm not sure I'd say it's "lucky".

[birch113]

legalbeagle LOL at "fun house" uterus!! I'm so glad you're feeling more positive after your u/s!

[littlelion]

birch113,crimpgirl, and WineNChocolate, so many positive vibes for great u/s this week!

lastnamewithheld, I feel ya on the tight clothes playing havoc on your emotions.  Esp so early on. Just hang in there, you are not fat, you are pregnant. 

legalbeagle, I drink all the water during the day but limit my water intake after 7 pm.  Only sips allowed. And I go to bed early usually so it's not that hard. 

[babycowbell]

Good luck to all the ultrasounds this week!!

How far along are you? 11 weeks

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Mostly good. I had some bright red bleeding last week that caused me to lose my shit for a little bit, but it stopped pretty quickly and the consensus seems to be since there was no cramping it's probably all okay. My brain immediately went to "I'm never going to have a baby, this was our one shot and it's over". It hasn't come back since then so I'm hoping for the best.

Any appointments or milestones this week? I have my first OB appointment this Wednesday! I'm hopeful they'll do an ultrasound, especially because of the bleeding. They weren't sure if the doctor would want to do one since I've had two already with the RE, but maybe the bleeding will sway things towards another one.

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camp? I'm going camo. In general I already have lots of flowy shirts to conceal my big boobs So now they just conceal my bump too. My hips and butt are my largest part of my lower half, so most of my pants are pretty stretchy already and they're tight in the hips and a little loose in the waist, so I hope I can just wear my regular clothes for awhile. I thought I had a visible bump a couple weeks ago but it's still pretty small so not too exciting.

[birch113]

babycowbell GL at your appointment on Wednesday! Fx the OB will do a scan for piece of mind.

[trufflefries]

How far along are you? 11w1d

How are you doing physically? Down 11 pounds due to nausea (not a big deal, I was fluffy to start with but I am hoping it goes away soon!) still incredibly tired- when DH gets home I am usually DONE and need to lay down while he takes a turn chasing our toddler.

Appointments: none this week, but my appt last Thurs was great! Dr got the heart on Doppler right away. 160- such an amazing and beautiful sound!

QOTW: I'm not really hiding it but I stay at home so I don't need to. I still look like I ate too many biscuits though. Lol.

[trufflefries]

babycowbell so glad the bleeding stopped! Hope the ultrasound gives you peace of mind that everything is ok!

[legalbeagle]

trufflefries, hooray for a great appointment.

babycowbell, hope you get an US on Wednesday.

littlelion, yeah my DH keeps saying I am drinking too much water at night. Maybe I'll make a concerted effort tonight to limit myself!

[lastnamewithheld]

babycowbell, I hope they give you an u/s on Wednesday! I'm glad the bleeding has stopped! That must've been so scary!

[birch113]

legalbeagle I try to pound the water in the morning and early afternoon, and scale back by dinner time. I usually still have to pee at least once during the night, though.

[birch113]

trufflefries hooray for a wonderful appointment! So happy for you!!! LOL at "fluffy". Are you a Gabriel Ilgesias fan?

[birch113]

@usernameedit GL on Wednesday! Sorry for the family drama. That makes things so hard.

[Sunny75]

How far along are you? 7 weeks 5 days

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? I’m doing a lot better this week. My ultrasound went well, we saw one baby and it had a healthy heartbeat! Hearing my RE say that everything looks good and he doesn’t see any reason this won’t be a healthy pregnancy really helped calm my fears. I’m going to miss my RE once I graduate to the OB. I’ve also had more nausea/tiredness/sore boobs so it helps feeling more pregnant.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nothing this week, I got back for a follow up ultrasound next week.

QOTW: I’m definitely trying to hide it but it’s getting hard! I’m pretty petite normally but had already gained a few pounds after my surgery in March. So that combined with the bloat is making me look pretty big around my stomach area. I’m just trying to wear baggy t shirts as much as possible. I’m kind of worried about the dress I’m wearing to my cousin’s wedding this weekend though, I didn’t want to buy a new dress so my dress is pretty tight. I’m hoping all the attention will be on my pregnant sister and cousin and nobody notices me lol.

[mrswillie]

birch113 Definitely squeeze those naps in. Good luck at your u/s!
crimpgirl Yay for passing your milestone. FX for today!
lastnamewithheld That's the exact same way I feel about no appointments this week... again!
WineNChocolate I'll be thinking of you on Wednesday!
legalbeagle I pee all damn night too! It sucks!

I'll be back later to tag more!

How far along are you? 11w2d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Some days are great, but today was not a good day for nausea even with the meds. I'm so flipping tired and I'm sure it didn't help that DS2 shared his cold with me. I remember the sore tatas early on with my DS's, but now they're making a come back. WTF!

Any appointments or milestones this week? Not until 5/25... still more than a week away. Sigh!

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camo?
So I'm actually shocked that I'm still fitting into my pants fine. With DS1, it took a long time to show. I feel like with DS2, none of my pants fit me at this point and I was trying hard not to let my blump show. This time, I feel like I don't have to "hide" it as much as last time. Weird, but I'll take it. I'm still not going to wear anything too fitted though, just in case.

[WineNChocolate]

trufflefries, +1 on the love "fluffy" it puts nice thoughts in my head.

babycowbell, oh hunny that is scary. I hope that lil one is still holding strong. I know its actually normal for some women to spot the whole first trimester. BUT that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. US the same day!! I hope good things for us both.

@usernameedit, oh man family drama...don't you wish you could like "unfollow" on FB with this stuff sometimes. Like do I need to be involved. Super big happy hugs on Wednesday for both of US!

Sunny75, Healthy US make it much easier to deal with!

mrswillie, Oh man the nausea mine has been constant for two weeks...and if finally subsiding. Your on meds for it..brutal. I hope you get some type of break with the coming of 2nd trimester. ITS SOO CLOSE.

All the ladies that are like almost out of 1st trimester...SUPER JEALOUS. I can't even imagine being that far.

[sdgal]

Hugs for everybody that needs them!!

How far along are you? 8 weeks 1 day

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm really fine. A few extra trips to the bathroom, and little extra tired. Although my boobs were super heavy yesterday. When I took my bra off, I had to hold them up on my way to bed, because they hurt to hang.
Emotionally a little cranky. My DH accused me of being snappy yesterday. I was cutting a sandwich for lunch, he tried to help and hold the sandwich together and I said "watch your fingers", he was all "stop being so snappy", I lost it in the kitchen.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Ultrasound with the RE tomorrow morning!! If all goes well, I hope to graduate.

QOTW: This can be a tricky time of year to be in the first tri! As the weather warms, are you hiding the blump/bump or rocking it? If hiding, what's your go to for camo? I already gained a lot of weight dealing (poorly) with infertility depression, so my regular jeans are still working, but without a belt. I was very excited to get my new labcoats (scientist) in at work that I requested. I was popping the snaps on the mediums already, so I just jumped to XL in anticipation of the bump.

[birch113]

Sunny75 so glad you're feeling good after your u/s!

mrswillie I'm sorry nausea is so tough, even with the meds!

sdgal good luck tomorrow!! I'll look forward to hearing about your graduation!!!

[WineNChocolate]

crimpgirl, glad to hear everything went as planned!

sdgal, wha, wha, What you going before ME!!?!?! meh. Fine. I hope you have a healthy happy US tomorrow.