TTC 5/30

[dannigirl]

I guess I'll start it up...

How is everyone doing so far?

[dannigirl]

We got a BFN again.

So we will now be moving forward with IVF.
I'm actually kind of excited about it. I had pretty much given up hope that the IUI's were going to work. This last one just seemed like a waste of time and money because I had next to no faith that it was going to work, and it didn't..

Anyway... I'm feeling optimistic again, and that's what matters. It's something different, and hopefully will be our golden ticket. We are going to try and get in for July, but it likely won't be till end Aug/beginning of Sept.

Good thing we got the travel trailer, now we will have a place to stay while we live in Saskatoon for 2 1/2 weeks. Much cheaper to camp than stay in a hotel, and we can bring the pup for us.

[rikkiandjulie]

DW and I have decided to both try this cycle. It looks like she probably didn't ovulate anyways, which is concerning, and heartbreaking, just another symptom of her diagnosis- diminished ovarian reserve, it's sad really she's only 30!

I will ovulate sometime on Wednesday most likely and should get a +OPK tomorrow. We will be inseminating at home, with our KD. Hopefully, we get some good news. Otherwise, onto the next month.

[JustJudy]

Can't wait for our first meeting to talk about IVF on June 10! I'm ready to get this party started! Although I'm sure I have a few cysts bc I'm a day late with no period in sight. The last time I took fertility drugs the cycle after was 60 days bc of a cyst. I hope that doesn't happen again!

[rikkiandjulie]

Got a +OPK at noon today, will be using fresh sperm tomorrow night as my donor isn't available tonight. I am really hoping the timing is okay, and rather anxious about it. Oh well, if I was doing an IUI at the clinic I wouldn't be inseming til then anyways.

[rikkiandjulie]

We actually found a way to inseminate tonight too, hopefully with an insemination tonight and tomorrow, we've covered our bases.

[JustJudy]

May 31, 2016 23:38:50 GMT -5 rikkiandjulie said:

We actually found a way to inseminate tonight too, hopefully with an insemination tonight and tomorrow, we've covered our bases.

FX for you!

[rikkiandjulie]

Jun 1, 2016 0:34:01 GMT -5 JustJudy said:

May 31, 2016 23:38:50 GMT -5 rikkiandjulie said:

We actually found a way to inseminate tonight too, hopefully with an insemination tonight and tomorrow, we've covered our bases.

FX for you!

Thanks! I am getting soooooo tired of crossing my fingers. This year long journey is exhausting. I also just get so.angry. when others get their BFP the first two or three times, not because I am unhappy for them, but because it's not us, and I don't understand why.

[JustJudy]

Jun 1, 2016 7:45:17 GMT -5 rikkiandjulie said:

Jun 1, 2016 0:34:01 GMT -5 JustJudy said:

FX for you!

Thanks! I am getting soooooo tired of crossing my fingers. This year long journey is exhausting. I also just get so.angry. when others get their BFP the first two or three times, not because I am unhappy for them, but because it's not us, and I don't understand why.

It is the worst! It makes no sense and is beyond frustrating.

[rikkiandjulie]

Officially in the TWW.

DW and I went rogue and both tried this cycle, she did last Tuesday. Even though it is unlikely i am worried we will both fall pregnant. But if that is the case we will have to make it work.

Actually, the dr said it would be near impossible for DW this cycle, but the universe loves to laugh at me. I am feeling like maybe this was a bad idea. Oh well, too late now.

I am just hoping I nailed my timing.

[rikkiandjulie]

Well no chance in being pregnant together. I am bummed about it a little bit, but DWs AF showed today, I don't think I am bummed we aren't pregnant together, just disappointed that it is another negative. All these women get it the very first try, I don't understand why it not us. We have great jobs, a strong marriage, a stable environment. Why won't the universe chose us, it sucks so bad, and after a year it's not getting any easier.

This negative especially hurts for DW bc it is right after her HSG, which showed everything was perfectly clear.

The whole thing sucks. I just don't see why we aren't as deserving as someone else. It fucking sucks.

[dannigirl]

Jun 2, 2016 13:29:18 GMT -5 rikkiandjulie said:

Well no chance in being pregnant together. I am bummed about it a little bit, but DWs AF showed today, I don't think I am bummed we aren't pregnant together, just disappointed that it is another negative.

I am so sorry.
I really hope you get a bfp. There needs to be something good happening for you two.

[dannigirl]

I just got an email from our RE and a spot opened up for July. So it looks like our IVF has been moved up.
We are super excited and nervous.
Have a lot of planning to do since we will need to live there for a good two weeks or more.
I hope our work doesn't get us trouble and we can get the time.

[rikkiandjulie]

Jun 2, 2016 17:39:33 GMT -5 dannigirl said:

Jun 2, 2016 13:29:18 GMT -5 rikkiandjulie said:

Well no chance in being pregnant together. I am bummed about it a little bit, but DWs AF showed today, I don't think I am bummed we aren't pregnant together, just disappointed that it is another negative.

I am so sorry.
I really hope you get a bfp. There needs to be something good happening for you two.

Thank you! I hope your IVF cycle goes smoothly, I think we may end up doing this, I am afraid to try it though bc I know if it fails we are done trying, and I'm not ready to swallow that yet.