Being induced tomorrow....

[ginabini]

Sooo unless this little nugget decides to show up on her own in the next 36 hours, I'll be going to the hospital tomorrow night to be induced.... and I'm having alllll kinds of different emotions about it. First and foremost, I'm unbelievably excited to know that we'll be meeting our little girl in a few days, for sure. I know once she's in my arms everything will be worth it and it won't matter how she got here.... But I can't help but feel a little disappointed about having to be induced. Some part of me just sort of feels like my body failed me and I'm missing out on part of the experience I had in my head of what going into labor would be like. I was really looking forward to laboring at home for a while and not being at the hospital the whole time. I wanted to EAT and just be in my own space for as long as I could, so I'm really bummed to be missing out on that. On top of that, I'm so scared of the induction process because of everything you read.. higher chance of c-section, super sucky pitocin contractions, and just not letting your body do what it should know how to do. I know some of you were kind enough to share your not-so-scary induction stories with me already, and that absolutely helped a ton. My mom was also induced for me and had a pretty easy go of it, too. But my hormonal, sleep deprived self is still nervous. There's also all of the emotions that go along with realizing that my life with DH is never going to be the same. Having a set date that's going to happen I feel like makes it easier and harder at the same time. Easier in the sense that we can take today to do some things together and really enjoy it... harder because of all the time to think about it. Then of course just being anxious for the labor and delivery party in general, induction or not. Having a set date just makes it harder to not think about. Hoping I can handle it but being worried that I can't.

So yeah.... allll the emotions today. Pretty sure I'm not going to get much sleep tonight which will be awesome to head into a nighttime induction tomorrow lol. Mostly just needed to vent here, but if any moms who were induced before had any similar feelings I'd love to hear about your experience! Thanks for reading

[ellebelle]

((hugs)) I hope you can relax a bit today and you have a great induction experience (if she doesn't show up in the next 36 hours on her own).

[melody330]

Sorry you're having so many feelings about it- but I get it! Hopefully you can relax a bit today.

I was induced with DS, and I wasn't dilated, wasn't effaced, and my OB said I was closed up tighter than Fort Knox so I was super scared of my induction too.

It was tough for all the reasons you mentioned- but it was physically hard too. By the end I was exhausted but he was delivered vaginally with no complications and only a small tear for me.

I hope yours goes smoothly and quickly! Mine was 24 hours from start to finish. My OB pushed for a c-section a few times during the induction but there was no threat to baby or myself so I declined.

Good luck! You will do great

[acorn99]

I only have a second to post, but I wanted to leave this here- I was induced for ds and went into labor spontaneously with dd and my labors were very similar. I didn't find the induction to be any more painful or drawn out than my other.

Good luck tomorrow!!!

[littlesthobo]

I have no experience, just lots of hugs and hair pats. An induction is on the table for me this time around and I cried in the parking lot after my appt for all of the reasons you mentioned here. The rational side of me says that ladies do this all the time and can have both good and bad experiences, but the emotional side of me is scared of an induction.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I know how you're feeling.

[lostinfaith225]

I just wanted to say good luck! Try to relax! Hugs mama! You got this!!!

[comicSans]

The experience you want is exactly what I wanted and exactly what I haven't gotten with either baby. Know that you're not alone and very few women get the birth they picture and idealize. Are there ways you can think of to embrace the induction and make it your own? Special music, lighting, sitting and talking with your h about favorite memories of just the two of you?

Take time for yourself today and tomorrow to just work through the emotions. Write down what you're feeling, listen to music, cry as much as you need to. Having a baby is an emotional, crazy thing.

[katelou]

Hugs! Having now had a spontaneous delivery and an induction, the induction definitely did feel more medicalized (is that a word?). I had pitocin and opted for an Epi fairly early on, so I had a zillion things attached to me. But it was still a good experience, just different. I was a lot more lucid and DH and I had fun passing the time as we waited.

I will be thinking of you... Good luck!

[sarcaztic10]

No real advice to offer, I have feelings about being induced this time around as well. It is not what I wanted or imagined. Sending you (((hugs))) I totally understand.

[ginabini]

Thank you all so much for the kind words. (I'm on mobile and struggling with tags haha) It helps so much to know I'm not the only one that's felt this way. Definitely going to try to make the most of the next two days

[rungirlrun]

Just wanted to offer big hugs. I'll be thinking of you over the next day and a half. Best of luck with however your daughter is born - can't wait to hear the news of her arrival!

[roccobabyk]

Good luck labor buddy! Text me if you want me to give updates! I felt the same way with DD. I think the "holy crap things will never be the same" hits you either way. Enjoy a nice day with your H and know at the end of this that things will never be the same but you will wonder what you did before your LO.

[housecarder]

I wanted to send you hugs and wish you a smooth delivery. It will all be worth it once she is here.

[Susan0utLoud]

Jul 16, 2016 9:07:19 GMT -5 ginabini said:

Thank you all so much for the kind words. (I'm on mobile and struggling with tags haha) It helps so much to know I'm not the only one that's felt this way. Definitely going to try to make the most of the next two days

You are definitely not the only one to feel this way. I have been through these emotions twice now and no, they aren't fun, but in the end you have a beautiful baby and the emotions fade over time. No matter what you feel, it's normal. Take good care of yourself.

[glaze]

Just wanted to send some hugs. I hope everything goes smoothly for you and you're able to get in some relaxing the next couple of days.

[willow]

Good luck with induction and labor! I can definitely understand why you're feeling all the mixed emotions. I hope you can enjoy the next couple days before she's here.

[mcktymck]

I echo what everyone else has said. As far as your feelings regarding you and H, I have been having those same thoughts lately. We planned for Sam and started trying right away after our wedding, but now with his due date looming I can't help but feel sad that H and my time together just the two of us is almost over. I plan on making it a priority for us to get out on date nights on a fairly regular basis to make sure and not forget about us.

I'm sorry you might not be getting the birth experience you had hoped for, but just think. You'll be meeting your precious little girl so soon!

[littlesthobo]

ginabini good luck with your induction tonight! I haven't heard anything so I'm assuming the induction is going forward. Even better if labour started already! Either way, hope all goes well!

[ginabini]

Ugggh... Thank you for the well wishes littlesthobo... Unfortunately we're back to the waiting game. We were literally in the car about to leave and I got a call from the hospital that they have no beds available. They said hopefully it will only be a few hour delay but that they would call me when they had something. I'm convinced I'm goin to be pregnant forever!!

[katelou]

oh no ginabini, that's so frustrating! I'd be in tears! I hope they can get you in ASAP!

[ginabini]

Alright... Back in the car to try again! New report time is 11:30 tonight. Let's hope we don't get another phone call on the way!!

[littlesthobo]

Sorry that you were delayed! Fingers crossed that it happens for you!

[Susan0utLoud]

Good luck @gibabini! I hope it's smooth sailing from here!

[rungirlrun]

Good luck ginabini! Can't wait to hear the good news!

[cavewmn]

Good luck!

[jenn83]

Good luck! Thoughts and prayers for a smooth induction and labor.

[ginabini]

All settled in! The original plan was oral cytotec, which I wasn't super crazy about... But apparently I'm contracting like crazy so we're doing low dose pitocin instead. Hoping I can get a little sleep before things get really going.

Thanks so much for all the well wishes, ladies!! Can't wait to share good news with you