||•|| WUW August 3, 2016 ||•||

[muscari]

Welcome to the Dark Side CAL What’s Up Wednesday!

Your rotating weekly check in leaders: cali , elliecat17 , muscari & @eliida

Goodmorning, loves! Welcome to Dark Side CAL What's Up Wednesday! 

This check-in is posted on Wednesday every week. Come on in and let us know how you're doing. If you need anything from us between check ins, or if you get a BFP, please PM any of us. Please, do NOT feel the need to reply to everyone else’s updates!

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]2. What is your status? (TTC, TTA, etc.)
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QoTW: Are you looking forward to the fall season or would you rather have an endless Summer?

[muscari]

Secretly I'd been hoping I wasn't going to be able to post this weeks WuW no more... but yeah I'm still here. IVF#1 was a bust. Our WTF is scheduled for August 25 which will give us some time to wrap our head around things and figure out how to proceed from here. After the initial shock wore off I'm now feeling mostly blank and numb and as if we never really did IVF in the first place, very odd. I'm eagerly awaiting AF but so far she's not giving any signs that she's about to arrive. Leave it up to my body to mess this up also! The hospital made me test again since AF hadn't showed yet, which I did this am and ofcoz still a BFFN. I hadn't really expected anything else but still it was a minor mindf*ck.

[elliecat17]

muscari I'm so sorry. I was really hoping this would work for you. I'm not sure why your hospital doesn't do betas. I hope you get some answers soon and also a new plan.

AFM: I'm still waiting for a real period. It's been 15 days now of spotting. I went to the ER friday night. Was told by idiot doctor at ER that after 10 days of spotting and horrible pain that it was just "painful menstruation". My beta was at 8 though, so I think it was just a pregnancy that didn't stick at all. My midwife had me repeat betas on monday and it came back at 6. So clomid worked but it didn't? Anyways we are waiting for AF so I can cycle again. We are thinking about waiting until october to try clomid again to try and spread it out.

NCALR: Roof is getting fixed this week. Basement has been cleaned and scrubbed, now it just needs to be painted. the bathroom is almost finished being painted and the guest room has been cleaned and set up. Now I just need to rearrange the kitchen and the living room and the house will have been cleaned top to bottom!

QOTW: I adore fall, so I'm really looking forward to it!

[birch113]

muscari sending you all of the (((hugs))). I think we were all hoping you wouldn't be able to post. I hope you are able to get some answers.

elliecat17 Again, I'm so sorry you're going through this. (((Hugs)))

AFM: I was supposed to trigger last night and get my time for Thursday ER, but got a call yesterday afternoon that my estrogen wasn't as high as they'd like, so everything was pushed back a day. I should get my trigger and ER retrieval time for Friday this afternoon.

[grneyes]

muscari, I'm so sorry your IVF cycle didn't work. Big (((hugs))). I hope your follow up appointment helps you feel better about moving forward with this process.

[birch113]

@eliida thanks! I'm so glad you like your new OB/GYN! GL with your meeting for IVF #2. I'm with you on fall. I love it!

[MissSally]

muscari I'm so sorry that your IVF didn't work

elliecat17 ((hugs)) that you're going through all this. Ugh.

AFM...
CALR: I'm on CD 42. Two days ago I had another +OPK. So that makes ~5 throughout my cycle. I don't even know what to think. I've been having some minor cramping like AF is going to start, but so far... nothing, and it only lasts for a minute or two every day. Can September be here yet??? I'm so ready to visit the RE.

NCALR: H and I leave tomorrow for Myrtle, come home Monday, and leave Saturday for a different beach in SC for a week. This weekend is for work, but I'm so excited to get away. Things got really crazy and stressful yesterday and I just need a couple of days to chill and not think about the real world.

QOTW: I LOVE fall. I wish fall could be all year. So pretty and pumpkin everything and I just love it. Cannot wait.

[cali]

muscari, I know I've already told you this, but I just hate all of this so much for you ((hugs))

elliecat17, I'm so sorry. I'm glad you advocated for yourself with that idiot doctor.

birch113, can I give you some of my estrogen since I have the opposite problem lol I hope your levels come up!

@eliida, having a doctor you like can make such a difference. So glad you liked this one! I love my OB, I just wish I'd get the chance to see him as a pregnant patient.

MissSally, I'm sorry your body is being so frustrating. I'm right there with you right now.

AFM, I was supposed to start stims yesterday for my first IVF cycle , but when I went in on Monday for baselines they found a cyst on my left ovary and my estrogen was elevated. So I couldn't start and had to go back for a recheck today. Im still waiting for the results of my bw but on u/s this morning the cyst was bigger (24 mm from 18 on Monday), so I doubt that's a good sign. I'm not sure what to expect because I never even consideredthis as a possibility. In all the ultrasoundsive had through this process I've never had a cyst or any abnormality on any of them. This, most important cycle has to be the one that my body fucks up. I'm assuming I'll be cancelled which sucks because I won't be able to cycle again until December due to my school schedule. Monday and Tuesday I was feeling so devistated but today I'm oddly calm. I think I've just accepted that there is absolutely nothing I can do about this.

**update: my E2 was higher today and my cyst is bigger, so I'm cancelled. Guess we'll try again in December. Fuck.

On a happier note, I took my last final for this semester today and I'm off for 2 and a half weeks. Right now I'm getting a much needed mani pedi and it's amazing. MH and I were supposed to go to Montana with my family over my break but we cancelled because we thought we'd be doing IVF. If this cycle gets cancelled I think we're going to see if we can still make last minute arrangements to join them. If not, we might try to get a last minute deal somewhere else.

ETA: if any of you know anything about cysts or what can be done about them, I'd love any advice/experience. I'm clueless.

[MissSally]

cali I'm sorry about the cyst. I've had lots of them over the years, but they've all gone away on their own eventually. I don't know a whole lot about them though. FX that everything turns out ok!

[4furrypaws]

((Hugs)) muscari
I'm still blank too. And it took over 5 freakin weeks for AF to show after this last one. Boo.

elliecat17 I'm very sorry for your loss. Are ALL the Drs near you stupid?! I mean that ER Dr should be reported!

birch113 FX for a great ER!

@eliida I hope this new Dr knows what he's doing.

MissSally yeah. Sept needs to be here so you can get some help. Have a safe trip Hun! Watch out for the jelly fish!!

cali stupid body!! I hope so much you can make it to Montana!!! It's just awesome there!!!

cardhard I'm glad you have a timeline to go by. That always seems to help.

[4furrypaws]

AFM. Nada. Zip. Nothin.

H still isn't ready to discuss DEgg. I'm not pushing. He needs to process this in his own time.

I'm blank about it all. I think I've just turned that part of my brain off.

Spending lots of time at the shelter and doing projects around the house.

QOTW: I HATE HOT weather!! Summer is pretty but my least favorite season because of the heat. Oldies know that I'm a snow bunny

[birch113]

MissSally I'm so sorry your cycle has been so hard to figure out. I hope you enjoy the beach!

cali it did cross my mind that I wish we could somehow even each other out, estrogen-wise! I'm so sorry you were cancelled. I hope you're able to make your trip last minute. (((Hugs))) lady.

cardhard so many (((hugs))) you'll be in my thoughts tomorrow.

4furrypaws I think of you often, lady. I hope you and YH can agree on a plan you both feel comfortable with going forward. I'm with you on the hatred of the heat! I wish summer would have a max temp of 80 with 50% humidity.

[shandorfml2]

so sorry muscari, (((big big hugs)))
MissSally, sorry your cycle is F'd up. hopefully AF shows soon. Enjoy the beach!
cali, ugh, sorry about the cyst...don't think there is much you can do, unless it keeps getting bigger and causing more problems. Pretty sure most go away on their own.
cardhard, Thinking of you as you return to work
4furrypaws, sorry hun ((hugs))

AFM:
Waiting to O on cycle 6. Seeing OB on the 18th. We'll see. In the mean time we've sent in our adoption/foster care application, are getting finger printed tomorrow. I'm excited!. We should be fully licsenced/approved by Dec/Jan. If I get pregnant before then we'll just pause the adoption process. Still want to adopt eventually, no matter what.
QOTW I'm tired of the heat. Fall is my favorite, can't wait!

[birch113]

On our way home from ER. We got 12 eggs. Hoping for a good fert report tomorrow.

[iheartbroccoli]

muscari So many hugs. I'm so sorry. I hope you and YH are able to take the next couple of weeks to wrap your head around everything and the WTF gives you a good idea for going forward.

elliecat17, Big hugs. I'm sorry for your loss.

birch113 Congrats on the 12 eggs! Fingers crossed for tomorrow.

@eliida I'm glad you like the new OB, that can make such a huge difference.

MissSally I'm sorry your cycle is being so frustrating. I hope you can enjoy your time away.

cali I'm so sorry that you were cancelled. Big hugs.

cardhard Hugs. I'm glad you have a plan for future pregnancies.

4furrypaws Big hugs. Take as much time as you need. I hope you and YH can come to a plan you both feel comfortable with.

shandorfml2 Good luck with the adoption application! Fingers crossed! and I hope your doctor is able to give you some answers and a good plan.

[iheartbroccoli]

CALR: Temping vaginally this month. Should O sometime mid next week.

NCALR: I've been feeling really blah and depressed and negative lately. So we're going zip lining tomorrow to get out of the house. I'm terrified of heights so it will be interesting!

[birch113]

iheartbroccoli I hope you have better data temping vaginally. I also hope zip lining lifts your mood! ((Hugs))

[birch113]

We got our fert report: 12R, 9M, 8F with ICSI. Next call is Monday.

[cali]

birch113, that's fantastic!

[shandorfml2]

birch113 , yahoo great number!!

[4furrypaws]

iheartbroccoli how was zip lining!?

birch113 wonderful fert report!!! FX for a great update tomorrow!

[iheartbroccoli]

Aug 7, 2016 11:39:40 GMT -5 4furrypaws said:

iheartbroccoli how was zip lining!?

birch113 wonderful fert report!!! FX for a great update tomorrow!

It was terrifying, but I'm glad I did it! I finished half the course.

[birch113]

Our 8 fertilized eggs are now 8 embryos. I'm shocked!

[4furrypaws]

Aug 8, 2016 15:56:26 GMT -5 birch113 said:

Our 8 fertilized eggs are now 8 embryos. I'm shocked!

Wonderful news Hun!!!